now that i got that all off my chest i don’t think im going to talk to you again. ever. not in a bad i hate you way. just in an ive finally moved past it kind of way. so i’m probably never going to say another word to you. and i’m ok with that.

now that i got that all off my chest i don’t think im going to talk to you again. ever. not in a bad i hate you way. just in an ive finally moved past it kind of way. so i’m probably never going to say another word to you. and i’m ok with that.

im sorry. i can’t bring myself to trust you or anyone to get that close to me again. to see the side that has been hidden for years. even if i think im fine, deep down i know i’m still broken. it’s ok to leave too, i understand how difficult it is, how difficult i am. i’m working on it.

i like you.. alot. its crazy how i feel about you. you make me feel safe and i like being around you.

you were my first fling. but you couldn't even be satisfied with just me. i wasn't even enough for you. why wasn't i enough? i hope that nobody else has to feel how i did because of you again.

I just wrote one about how I miss you. But the best part of life is that I can’t remember how your voice sounds anymore

it's only been a few weeks of talking to you, but I feel that special connection. i think I feel it about every boy I meet, but you truly do make me so happy, I have never smiled as much as I do when I talk to you. my friends notice when you snap me, my voice gets higher and I smile a lot more. there's something about you noah. i don't know what it is but you make me feel something. i never would have expected to trust people again. i really hope you don't break your promise. i love you, noah.

u better treat her right if u eventually make up ur fucking mind u wheelie boy she loves u can't u fucking tell. she deserves better tbh. if u really love that than be the better she deserves.

why did you start to try for us, for me when I left... when I begged for months for you to try... why?

Honestly looking back on everything, I would simply like to thank you for allowing me to find my worth on my own, I am so much stronger now.

“i need more from u, more love. i wish we were like months ago” if that’s ???,,, you should message me please i need more of u as well

hey baby, youre sleeping rn and its making me giggle every time your headboard squeaks . i know i can be horrible when im having a tough time and i know its not an excuse. i want you to know youre my everything, you always will be , no matter how either of us are behaving in the moment - youre my forever person. and i love you with my whole heart

hi my love.
im about to go to sleep and im assuming youre seeing this early ish so, goodmorning :), i hope you slept well. im excited for valentines day and our 6 month lol, i really think you might like one of the things ive got for you.
i love you blue

you were my bestfriend and the first guy that I've ever loved, thank you, without you I'd be dead, i don't love you anymore, i found an another one, even if he left me too.

i have to pretend like i’m over you but if i saw you happy with another girl i think my heart would break again

Don't act like I like you still. It makes it awkward. fun fact: i like the kid ive been friends with forever.

You said you’d always be there for me, then you blocked me the next day cuz your new girlfriend saw me as a threat. I wish you the best in that manipulative relationship

just when you were finally back in my life, you were gone in a blink of an eye. gonna miss you homie.

I love you so much but you bring me so much pain. You made me so sad that I have wished I was dead but you have made me so happy I never wanted to die. How do you do that?

You were my first love. And I don´t know, I never stopped loving you. Getting close to you after 2 years is just so weird, ig. I know I should let you go, but you´re the only person, I know, who´s with me because you want to. I´m sorry that I told you that I started cutting again. You just were the first person, I hoped, would understand me. I´m really sorry for everything. I love you...

i chose blue because this is what you remind me of. calm, collected, and a little cold. when we were together i kept telling you that i wish i met you later in life and that is still true until this day. i don’t regret what we had but i was too immature to hold on to it. i let my own happiness slip away due to my ignorance and stupidity. i doubt you will ever see this because you probably hate me, but just in case you do, i wanna let you know that when i said i will love you forever, i meant it.

I wish you knew how much I love you. I would literally give everything I have to see you again. I miss you.

You will always be the one for me even if I'm not the one for you anymore. Thank you for everything. I lava you.

Dear Noah,
Sorry for all the wrong I did you.. I wish i could go back and be more grown about the shii i did and never did half of it in the first place. I wish I just left you alone and never put you through the stuff I did maybe you would have realized your self worth earlier. I love you and always will. I finally learned how to love you but not be inlove with you anymore. I still wish you found someone else or waited for me like we agreed you need to be careful. You can get into a lot of trouble and that is the last thing I want for you... I love you and wish you the best and i wanna text you tomorrow because its gonna be your birthday but i know i cant so best wishes to you

Why did you lie? I really did love you but you broke me and used me. Good Bye now I finally found love.

hey. it's been a while. i know you're never gonna see this lol but anyways i just thought i should come on here and just say im FINALLY over you. its. taken. so. long. but im finally in a good place i think. i dont miss you anymore. the thought of you doesn't make me feel anything. your name doesn't hurt. when i see pics of u i feel nothing. im so happy. becuase i know this is how you feel about me. and i love it.

noah, i am so proud of you for making it into jesuit & playing soccer there. i know you just moved closer to me but we have become farther apart than ever, i thought you were different & that we were going to last. i am sorry for everything that happened between us- we both deserved better and i guess we just weren't meant for each other. i love you so much

Im sorry that i hurt you. Ill never stop loving you. Youre my soulmate. I had to do what i did. In another life

i know it’s impossible for us to really be forever, but my heart certainly belongs to you for the rest of time.

I love you I am sorry I wasn't good enough, I know its been a year but I am still trying to fix my flaws so I can be what you want. I'm sorry I am trying

Noah, I hope you stay, and you don't leave, but then again I have said that before I have became more numb so if you should leave leave. I know the right one will stay.

ik it was a year ago but words cant describe how much i miss you. no one's ever made me feel the way you did

I don't wanna be here if your not by my side// it's over I will get through this on my own. You brought me so much joy and I am extremely thankful for that. I love you. Thank you.

you don't deserve to be able to text me at anytime of day and pull me back into the void that you created.

noah, i woke up to the best news about my financial aid. it'll basically pay for my entire tuition and i'm apply to other stuff. i hope you're proud of me. we used to talk about the fact that i was gonna graduate soon. i graduate in six months yk. that's crazy man.

i definitely believe in right person, but wrong time. i think eventually it will work out, and i hope u think the same.

stop telling me that you're sorry you ruined your friendship with her. when you ruined me by cheating. fuck you

you just make me so happy and honestly i've never felt like this with anybody. i think about you constantly and i don't really know if that's good or bad but i love it.

Fuck you. After all the pain and trauma you’ve caused me, I still can’t get you out of my head. I miss you, but just the thought of you hurts me.

Fuck man. I like you so much you have no idea. You don’t know you play with my feelings because you think i just like you as a friend. There’s no feelings to play with right? Nah you’re wrong you say you care about me and then the next second you don’t seem to care. I want to be one of the reasons you smile, I want to be apart of you’re life. I care about you so much and I don’t know why. But there’s a reason. I can’t get you out of my head but i feel like i’m nonexistent in yours. I just want you to notice me as something more. More than hot, I want to be Beautiful to you. I want you to tell me your problems, I want to help you grow. Your not a relationship kinda guy, I know you’ve told me. But I want you to see that I can be that person. I want to be that one. I just want you to notice me as more.

I wish you realized how much you meant to me and how much the little things you did would make me smile for days weeks and months after, I wish that you were still here with me and I could tell you all the things I feel and how I feel about you.

I loved you and I gave you my all, I don’t miss you, I hope you miss me. I hope you think of me. I hope you can’t unsee me in your dreams. Because you stopped me from moving on. And I will never ever forgive you for it.

angel, nothing on this earth heals and brings me the happiness in which you do. my love nothing can separate, i adore you. we will come together again, give it time

hii noahhh,
you didn’t have to leave i was gonna be happy eventually. i mean here i am, happy as ever. i still miss you everyday though :/

hi stupid, you won't see this but i want you know that I miss you like crazy. we haven't talked in over a year and the smallest things remind me of you. i was listening to your playlist the other day haha, i hope you're doing okay. i wonder how you're holding up without hockey right now. stay safe pls, don't want you catching covid. i have so much to say to you. can you believe trump is out of office? thank god haha. i want to hate you for suddenly leaving with no reason but i can't. i can't because i know there had to be a reason that you didn't tell me. i miss you weirdo. i even wrote in all lowercase just for your dumbass. also fuck you for vanishing. okay bye

i’m sorry. i wish you would forgive me. maybe we just aren’t meant for each other but i can’t help but think about what we could have been.

i love u so damn much.
and it makes my heart drop everytime when i remember that u don’t love me anymore.

you are so beautiful, i wish i talked to you more and maybe we could have been something, my //orange

it hurts sm to accept the fact that i will never be your first choice and u will never love me again.

i remember we used to talk so much and u made me smile so much. i was so shy that was the reason. but now u dont talk to me anymore. i want you, just u and me.... i dont know how to tell u but i know i have lost u