Unsent Messages

I have a few last things I’d like to say. Hi luv, if this is rlly you reading this.. I wanted to remind you of the good we had together, as well as give you the depth of my emotions that you always deserved but never got to hear out. I was so unbelievably infatuated with every aspect of your being. your big blue eyes paired with the most subtle smirk. You were perfect in my eyes. I remember the way you looked at me, that had to have been real right? Passing by “our place” in a car that is not yours will forever produce looming fog around my heart, our memories and smiles n smoke seshes fill my mind with happiness for a moment until I’m reminded that you left, you’re gone and you aren’t coming back. Do you remember how embarrassed u felt when I was waving at strangers? Or the time we sat at our sandy spot pretending we were Picasso. I had never felt more alive. You told me that you loved me, and that you were for realz, I didn’t say it back right away but I knew I loved you then. Do you still have that leaf I picked up off your front lawn and regifted 2 u? Or what ab that horrible painting you kept and said you loved? Was any of it real or was I just falling in love with the temporary love you felt? I know my love was real but was yours? I saw you again and surprise surprise you got what you wanted, and I haven’t heard from you since. It’s deteriorating honestly but I ignore it and proceed because thats all you can do sometimes. I’m letting you go, as cheesy and over played as it is, “if you love someone you let them go..” just promise to remember the time we spent even if you claimed you were happier without me, those words in particular stuck with me at the end, but I beg that you remember the smiles and love we shared, especially the way I looked into you rather than at you, I really did see you even tho I had a funny way of showing it, I almost let you do the same. I will forever love you sweet, bc when you truly love someone, that feeling never truly leaves. I wish you love.