Unsent Messages

I don’t even know where to start. When I met you I felt a connection with you I had never felt with anyone else. I knew I wanted to be your friend and when I did I realized I would give up everyone else to be with you. That sounds toxic but I never really connected with anyone the way I connect with you. I was so young and didn’t understand and I still don’t. I never understood why I thought about you more than anyone else. Why I was jealous of your crushes. Since I didn’t know I never made a move. I don’t regret that because I did move on. I liked someone else but I didn’t connect with them the way I did with you. And now we aren’t even best friends anymore. I’m not the one you rant to or the one you FaceTime when you feel like you will cry. I feel like I barely know you. And you don’t even want to hang out with me. I miss you so much. You were my everything but I wasn’t yours. I know I’ve moved on but it still hurts hearing about her and I sometimes I wish I was her. I find myself still holding on to hope even though that won’t happen. But you are amazing and deserve to be happy. Love you Noah.