Unsent messages to NOAH

i miss you noah . even though we’ve never met in person . i felt a connection with you that i have never felt with any guy before. even though you are in a relationship, i still have these feelings for you, throughout the day u just pop up in my head. i miss staying up till 1am texting you. i miss doing “movie night” and i miss listening to ur voice and seeing ur face. since i’m moving now, we’re actually going to be closer to each other. i hope we can be together in the future. i’ll wait for you. you know that saying that goes “right person, wrong time” . i can relate to that. even though we’re only teenagers, i felt like u were the one for me and that i knew i would never get tired of you. i love you so much, and i mean it. i’ll drop every guy i know even gavin, just to be with you.

it stung a lil when you gave it to her. obviously it’s yours to give away and everything. but come on man you didn’t even wait until the 3rd of December to make it a lol romantic so she could be like “i still remember, 3rd of the december. me in your sweater”. god you will never get much better at this flirting thing.
but you know what, im glad you did, I’m happy for you and I’m happy for her. just know that no matter if you were to ever need me desperately even if we stop talking completely then I’m always a phone call away. okay? :)

Deep down I’ve always known you were just using me but I just don’t want you to leave. I rather have you hurting me than not having you at all.

yeah i thought i liked you but turns out i was just a pan girl who thought i had to like a boy, and i picked you

i know we are over but for some reason my heart tells me that we’re not. i can’t believe i lost you. im losing hope but God knows whats best. i am sorry ive made you think that that is not me, but i promise you it is. i didnt realize how important you were until i lost you. im not into anyone else... i just want you back and ill do it right this time.

you are the person i want to spend my life with, the reason why i smile and wake up every day. i love you more than i have loved anybody.

hi. i still think about you. i was too young, i didn't know any better. i didn't know how to fix things any other way. i'm sorry. do you ever think about me? even for a moment? or has she completely destroyed your image of me? please acknowledge me. help me let go.

My heart skipped a beat when I saw your comment. I restarted thinking abt everything that happened. And I realized I don’t love you anymore. Your just a name that makes me anxious. Every time I hear your name I only think abt you cussing me out or you talking to other girls or you ignoring me and being dry to me for no reason. I don’t love you anymore snoezie and I think I never will again

i love you so much, and i hope someday those feelings will be mutual. until then, i will continue to write shitty songs about you lol

I love you, to the point where I cant look at you or think of you without feeling me and my heart are being strangled. You will never be able to comprehend the way I feel for you, it's almost inhumane to have these feelings for another. I never say I love you. Please know I say it when I truly mean it.

I wish we were still friends. you made me laugh all the time and i would always have so much fun with you. i just wish we had never grown apart. just know that all that stuff she said about me wasnt true.

what did i do wrong? why did you just stop talking to me? what happened to our late nights talks and our story tellings? what happened to us?

i wish i could forget you. to erase the feelings i have for you. you left without a word, but everything you told me still echos loudly in my mind.

that hurt. you didnt give me a chance. you went straight to her. its fine, you were a horrible person. i just wish you had time to grow, and have me there with you. i hope you the happiest with her.

you’re so manipulative, grow tf up. i hope that poor girl realizes what ur like. stop blaming me for u being the way you are, you’ve always been messed up.

fuck u you told me you loved me and just left then done it agian and agian how could you do that to me not even an explanation :(

Hey, the truth is that idk if you know this page or if you've ever written to me here but I saw many that had my name, were in english and had my favorite color (blue :)) so here I am and I'm going to use your favorite color:).
It's good to miss, you know that if things go wrong you can write to me bcs even we aren't together I'm going to help you.
and I want you to know that you always meant a lot to me even though we never talked in person you're the person I fell in love the strongest and even though I knew that at some point you were going to break me I hoped never happened it.
I wish you the best, I deeply hope that someday we can meet irl, overcome the distance, overcome your problems together and make a second story together.
I hope you can find a solution for everything you overthink ab, and your happiness.
Smile, your smile is the most beautiful

Hi Noah, i just wanted to tell you how gratefull i am for being your friend. I really wish you could see how amazing you are. How perfect you are in my eyes, i really hope you one day will realize this.

it still hurts. i still think about you, almost every day. why did things end the way they did. somedays i hate you, other days i want you back. i sometimes think we'll get back together, that you miss me too, that it was just the wrong timing. we were both dealing with our things. you're the first girl i fell i love with. i wonder if i miss you, or the feeling you gave me. i keep wanting to feel up the empty void you left inside my heart, i keep looking for a replacement that i cant seem to find. unblock me, let's talk things out for real now.

You were my first true love. I miss you so much and even though Im moving on a lot of things still remind me of you. I hate that I still love you. You made me feel disposable. and yet I still love you. ill never understand why things didn't work because I truly felt like you were the love of my life.

my feelings are confusing but i care about you and i smile a lot when we call. my only fear is that you feel more for me than i do for you, but that’s something we can talk about. i love it when you talk about things you care about, even if i haven’t watched jojo’s yet. i can’t wait until we can finally hang out

I miss the way you made me feel when you held me close and stared me in the eyes like your prey- you had a sickening way of making me feel absolutely euphoric when we were together. I was drunk off of your love, the toxicity and twisted aspects of it all consumed me in its warmth like a mother’s womb and entangled me in all its complications. I now feel hardened and cold, barren. I shiver. My heart aches to be in your warmth again, as if I was the winter moon in your summer sunlight. Sometimes i really hate the way you make me feel.

I love you so much. I really think im gonna marry you someday. you came into my life when i was so broken and you put me back together. you make me so happy. I cant beleive i found the one so young. All that heartache from the past is so so so so worth it all for you. I love you weiner.

Hi
I like u, it was like u said that Thursday when i was drunk, love at first sight. But your a dick and have spoken to like every girl I’m friends woth. The things you said to me you say to everyone. But your the first person I’ve liked since then and we get on so well. That day when we were walking home on New Years and u put your arm round me. Then you said you pussied out again. I keep wondering if that means what i think it does.
From angry bird

Even though I know we are not right together I can’t help the feeling that we were made to end up together

i wish you could understand how much you hurt me when you said you lost feelings... and the way you used me, but after all of this i still would go back to you..

You are the only person I truly love. I wish I could've shown you all the things I wanted to, but I don't even cross your mind anymore. I love you

i always felt as if you hated me, you could go weeks without messaging me but you would always say you ‘missed me’ and you ‘loved me’ when i’d text you. you’re such a manipulative piece of shit. i hate you so much. but i love you and always will

ahhh. idk where to start. we’ve been talking for a while and then you asked me out. then a week later you decided to mess with other girls. and apparently you’ve been talking to girls this whole time even tho you said that i wasn’t allowed to talk to other people. i forgave you and gave you a second chance. and you haven’t messed up. but i have. now i didn’t cheat i just never gave you attention and i’m really really sorry i keep doing this and you don’t deserve it. you’re such an amazing person. and i love you. i haven’t told you that yet. but i do. i really do. i believe that when i’m with you i’m safe. i just- i miss you. i’ll see you in a bit but i wanna see you know. it’s new year’s day for gods sake. uhhh.

You hurt. Like...a lot. I know we're in a good place now but I'm still angry. My first experience with love and you broke me. Congratulations. I keep justifying how you treated me in my mind and I can't. I can't take back loving you no matter how hard I've tried. Now all I'll ever believe is that I'm not enough. That there will always be someone else who can take my person away from me, my happiness. I'm tired. I want a love that doesn't make it hurt to breathe. I want that back, that part of me that shattered after you were done with me.

If I had known I was gay then and it wasnt just wanting to be best friends; it would have hurt so much more. I'm glad I got to enjoy our time together.

am i a fool for falling for you twice and ending up in pieces for the second time? absolutely. im a fool for you and i wish you were too. how am i supposed to be hopeful about 2021 when the one thing keeping me going has fallen apart? i wish i could hate you, and maybe a part of me does. if you wanted me to, id fall right back into your arms. but you'll never want that, will you?

hey, you're never gonna see this but anyways i had this dream about you a couple weeks ago and it completely changed the way i think about you, it made me realize how much i've liked you but i didn't know because my mind was clouded by someone else and now i can't stop thinking about you and its bothering me that i have no way to talk to you or see you. i wish a miracle would just happen so we could start something. all these memories of seeing you just keep coming back to me and it's a lot, i wanna know if you feel the same way, or just even think about me at all for even the slightest second. anyways i really like you, i just can't help it. i hope this will be a good year for you, maybe us if anything happens. enjoy my ramble:)

I guess we weren’t meant to be and it wasn’t forever even tho you were my first love. I’ll always have a soft spot for you snoezie

i love you and i dont know how to tell you to your face without scaring you away. im scared one day i wont be able to tell you and it will be too late. i feel like you are my soulmate but its the wrong time for both of us. i dont want to let you go but i know right now things arent going to work out.

why did you cut me off like that? you hurt me a lot, and i reminisce on what coulda happened had i answered you back in the summer but you hurt me so much i couldn’t bring myself to answer back. you were so special to me i wrote poems about you and wondered what it’d be like if you were to hug me. it’s silly how worked up i got over you (did you ever feel like i did?) we’re strangers now. but like for every stranger i pass by, i hope you’re doing well now. a while back i woulda said i miss you and i love you, but i don’t think that’s true now. thank you for all the happiness and laughter you gave me, but i feel at peace moving on now. (night noah).

thank u for teaching me what love is, i'm sorry things ended badly, i will always care about you and i hope things work out for u

u may be tall and have a big dick but you are the WORST kisser ive ever kissed and its not like u have extremely small lips so im kinda confused

hey stupid! can you believe that the year is almost over? i had a dream last night, i was in canada and i was with my homie. my friend and i went to a skating rink and hockey try-outs were about to happen. i kept seeing the numbers 29/27. funny really because it was the 29th yesterday. i miss you like crazy. i hope you're doing okay.

I had another dream about you. We kept missing each other, but both felt the same way. I wonder if it’s a sign.

i felt so close to you, and i thought you felt that with me too but your heart was still with her and that’s okay. i just don’t know why you made me believe anything could happen between us and then tell me you still loved her.

It feels like it's really the last time this time. I guess I'll never get through to you, even after all these years.

tbh i never liked you. it was all a game. your personality is way to shitty to be liked you racist ass bitch. fuck you and Trump.

I just wanna say that I hate you. I actually fell hard for you and ur just gonna push me away like wtf. F u

I don't think I'll regret us, but I'm mad at you for treating me that way. I'm even more mad at myself for letting you.

i like u so much and ive tried all the signs to let you know, all i wanna do is fucking hang out wiv u all the time, youre so cool, marry me thanks:)

dear noah. this was your long distance girlfriend. you probably won’t ever know of this website. but if you ever see this. you know who it is. the color is red bc black and red are ur favorite colors. elijah is ur middle name. any idea yet? you made me believe in love again. you gave me so much confidence and i took advantage of it. but you cheated. and you broke me. you left when i was finally happy. i thought we were gonna be forever. and i miss you. we knew eachother for 3 years. no matter how bad you hurt me i will always love you. and i know you’re happy now, as long as you’re happy. but i’ll be waiting for the day you come back. i love you.

You were literally my first in person sexual experience. I know I wasn’t your first though which is completely okay. We have no emotional connection whatsoever and it’s kind of funny to me that it doesn’t even feel like that ever happened, but it did. It was a while ago but I know that whole situation is absolutely embarrassing to think about. I had no clue what I was doing and my skills in that particular area were so bad. But i’ve learned and am definitely better now haha. You’ve got a good head on your shoulders though and I hope your life stays good.

i wish things worked between us. i wish you hadn't just forgotten everything and stuck with me throughout this absolutely tiring journey. i still love you, even then. and i hate myself for that. i should be hating you. but i don't. how could i hate you?

liked you a lot and you gave me hope one day you asked me if I wanted to be your girlfriend I answered that of course if I wanted I was so happy until ... they told me that you only used me and you were cheating on me I asked you what If it was true and you told me that if I was just rubbish and that no one would fall in love with me ... hahaha now you die for me because I am like a model I feel beautiful and I have many suitors and I will never forgive you continue dreaming .... kisses J