Unsent messages to MATTHEW

i’m praying everyday that this isn’t going to end. i’m so in love with you it physically hurts my chest when we gts mad. rn you’re out and idk why it’s midnight and you should be home. you didn’t reply all day i’m not going to be able to tomorrow but you went out and we can’t talk now. you got drunk and i’m scared bc of it bc what if you do something regretful. i trust you but the worry is always going to be there. we argue sm. SM but i can’t help but pray to my dead mom about you. i pray everyday you’re safe and sound and that you don’t break me. i try to act like i don’t care but i do sm. i cry myself to sleep cuz of it. i feel like you’re falling out of love or you’re cheating onm but i’m going to keep trusting you and pray. i love you matthew. pls don’t break me. i can’t do it again

You really ruined me you played me and completely destroyed me Im not hurt by you anymore tho its other people now I hope your happy with life

the burn on your hand from when you were two. i remember being so upset when i saw it and you laughed it off like it was nothing. that's how i feel now, like you tried to burn me and when it didn't work you just laughed and moved on. only difference i kissed your hand because the childish part of me thought it would make the 13 year old scar feel better. But, you can't kiss my heart and make it stop hurting. And the four month scar can't be healed by you.

I will never get over you and when you tell me about her my heart breaks but it’s not enough for me to stop loving you

i should have never brought you to my house to meet my family, when you broke my heart, you broke all of my sisters’ too. you’re not who i fell in love with, but you did teach me how i shouldn’t be treated.

What a wonderful couple we would be if there wasn’t a distance..I am thinking about it every single day

I used to think I couldn't live without u. I know I can now but life without u feels like I'm not even living.

I will never forgive for you for it. but it brought me to god and i’ll always be thankful for that and what you taught me.

I know you leave messages here for me, I want you to come back. I don’t care what happened i miss you

I still love you.I still want the future we talked about. Come back we can fix this. Please. I still love you.

you said you didn’t want a relationship but the truth was you wanted one just not with me . you led me on for years . you manipulated me and made yourself seem like an angel. i go to therapy because of the things you did to me. i hate you ... but i’m addicted to you in a way i cant describe

I heard you, and so I’m done. I can finally say honestly, I’m letting you go. And for that to happen, I am forgiving myself from all the harm I’ve caused. I hope you know that I’m truly sorry, but I cannot live the rest of my life feeling sorry. Goodbye Matt

Next time you see me and maybe i glance your way cross your arms and tap one finger so i know you saw this. We should talk

even thought i don’t like you at all anymore, the thought of you lingers in my brain 24/7 and i don’t know how to make it stop.

I think the reason we didn't work out is because you're scared of commitment to a relationship. I wish we did.

You will always have a place in my heart. You were the first guy I truly trusted and what hurts is that I can't hate you because you never did anything wrong.

I let you back into my life after you broke me down and you somehow still manage to break me again. And yet I still wish you happiness

Its been two years and I still think about you. You were a piece of shit. But I still hope you find happiness

i knew it. i knew from the start that something was gonna go wrong, it was too good to be true. i hate you.

ur the loml. but i could never tell u. it would literally destroy everything. so i admit little things in italian and accept we'll never be more than friends.

I wish I didn’t need you right now but I do. I need you so desperately. You’re the only one I can talk to about this. I miss you

You are the one that got away. I love you, and I am grateful for you. Thank you for helping awaken me spiritually. I hope we meet in every lifetime.

when i was falling i thought you would catch me...but hitting the ground made me realize you weren't coming back

I love you but I’m not ready for you to know yet. Even though I can’t say it, it doesn’t mean I don’t

i love you more than i have ever loved anyone else and i hope you don't break your promise to leave never me

I never knew what you wanted. You used me over and over and i kept wanting more. I still do. I dont know why. You keep leaving me and carrying on. I never know whats up with you, you love me sometimes and hate me the next. Tell me and make it sure, either love or hate me this in between is killing me