Unsent messages to LEO

honestly, at this point, i'm over you but would always go back to you...i think because i'm lonely....

You were never mine to begin with, but a year of falling for you in silence meant every feeling hit that much deeper. You're going to date someone now and she isn't going to be me. Sometimes I think its for the better but I also want to be yours. You are the only genuine person I've met in a really long time. I spent the past years in and out of relationships with people who used me and took all they could. You made me slow down, realize that what I can give and what I should give are separate. You helped me reflect on where I have been this last year and you've made me regret not being honest sooner. Our time isnt now, and our time might never come. I will always have a place for you when you want to come back into my life like that. I love being your friend, I love hearing your unique laugh. I love the way you say my name. I didn't have side hoes while I really liked you bc what was the point when I knew what I wanted. Clearly you didn't feel the same and that's okay. Ill see you soon one way or another, we do have mutual friends after all and have the exact same club schedule.

I don't know why you didn’t just tell the truth, you could’ve saved me from the embarrassment and heart break but i cant stop thinking about the way we danced and kissed; you made me happier than i ever thought possible but i never want to see you again

saying goodbye to u was the hardest thing ive done. neither me not her deserved what u did to us, yet my heart cant get over u.

Thank you for teaching me that despite the love I had for you, friendship was worth more than anything else

if only we would be closer in person, the lovely things we could have been still haunt me. whenever i see your name in a math problem a little piece of me cries. did you really love me, or did you just love that beautiful night under the stars together. i want to text you, but i know you’ll never see this. i miss your gorgeous hair and tall, slender, awkward figure, and i wish i could comfort you, because i know that deep inside, you’re so scared of the world and hated life, because i go through the same pain. you probably thought i was immature in the way i would always make jokes, but it’s really just a cover that i also overthink. i also want to die. i also cry at night for no goddamn reason, i wish we could relive that night under the stars, because that was the first time i had ever really truly felt alive in a very long time. thankyou for gifting me with that, and sorry for ruining everything for you. i just wanted you to love me as much as i loved you.

No tienes idea del gran impacto que lograste hacer en mi vida. Fuiste una persona muy especial para mi y siempre tendrás un lugar en mi corazón.

I wish I could have gotten a goodbye instead of a letter. I wish I could’ve gotten an explanation rather than more unanswered questions. Regardless I will never forgive you. God and everybody else may but don’t count on me. I never thought this would be my final goodbye. Addio per sempre, goodbye forever

missing you only gets harder every day. what i would give for one more hug... you saved my life. thank you

To whatever we are or whatever we’re gonna be, if we do be, I’m opening up to you because I genuinely like you and I hope when you tell me you do you really mean it. If I give my heart to you please just don’t break it. I’m trusting you.

See we could’ve done it all and had six Persian cats for kids. But you don’t drink coffee anymore cos it gives you diarrhoea. I love you.

i liked to way u made me feel special when i was loosing hope and how u said my name. made me feel like i was the only person in in the world

Lamento haber creído que tendríamos una segunda oportunidad, pero ahora vives en otro país y no sé que hacer cuando vuelvas en diciembre y yo ya no te importe en absoluto pero a mi me importes demasiado.

Me estás gustando, y no quiero que sea así, pero siento que no hay nada que pueda hacer para poder evitarlo, te estás colando en mi corazón de a poquito y quiero que dejes de hacerlo, pero no puedo alejarte, y lo peor es que no sabes que es así, pero ahora soy capaz de admitir que sí, me gustas, pero no creo que funcione, porque como te dije estás soltero pero no, disponible.
No sé, si esto te llegará algún día, espero que sí lo llegas a leer, ya no te vea de esa forma.

there’re so many colors to choose from but it doesn’t matter because you won’t see this, you’ll never know what I really feel towards you, I tried to tell you but you’re with her now, I just hope she makes you happy

i know i am way too good for you but for some reason i still want you even though it seems like i meant nothing to you

im sorry, i wanna say that i hate you with every goddamn bone in my body. but deep down i still care about you. deep down i think you are just so sad and in your own world because of that sadness that i cant see to comfort you in, that you dont see how much its hurting me. how im upset you arent talking to me anymore because youre sad. you have every right to be sad. but please communicate? so im not assuming ive been replaced or you just arent talking to me on purpose? you've only said goodnight. tonight you really hurt me. when you said "im gonna go to sleep" after i tried talking to you (after a long day of you not responding or even opening my texts).honestly i dont know why this hurt me so much because ive only known you for a week and it shouldnt bother me that much because we're not even dating. you just really broke my heart this time.
honestly i dont think i can talk to you the same way anymore..

im sorry, i wanna say that i hate you with every goddamn bone in my body. but deep down i still care about you. deep down i think you are just so sad and in your own world because of that sadness that i cant see to comfort you in, that you dont see how much its hurting me. how im upset you arent talking to me anymore because youre sad. you have every right to be sad. but please communicate? so im not assuming ive been replaced or you just arent talking to me on purpose? you've only said goodnight. tonight you really hurt me. when you said "im gonna go to sleep" after i tried talking to you (after a long day of you not responding or even opening my texts).honestly i dont know why this hurt me so much because ive only known you for a week and it shouldnt bother me that much because we're not even dating. you just really broke my heart this time.
honestly i dont think i can talk to you the same way anymore..

nothing i said to you that night in your room mattered to you anymore because i didnt matter to you anymore. "why didnt you tell me?" is what i shouldve asked you. why didnt you tell me about her? why didnt you tell me what i was saying was useless? you let me cry to you for no reason. you didnt even say anything, you told me you hated her and that you were going to her house to get your stuff and then you spent the night. and then you became friends with him after everything i told you he did to me and then you met her and you just stopped talking to me. did i ever even matter? was any of it true?? real? did you mean anything you said? i dont even miss you i just hate you for everything you did to me. you turned out to be exactly like him just like you said you wouldnt. probably why you guys are such good friends now. i just wish i never told you what i did because its not true anymore and i hope you dont think it still is. make sure when things go south with her you actually take some time trying to replace her cause youve done it pretty fast the past two times. i mean does she even know what happened? shes not the one you spent the whole summer with.

nothing i said to you that night in your room mattered to you anymore because i didnt matter to you anymore. "why didnt you tell me?" is what i shouldve asked you. why didnt you tell me about her? why didnt you tell me what i was saying was useless? you let me cry to you for no reason. you didnt even say anything, you told me you hated her and that you were going to her house to get your stuff and then you spent the night. and then you became friends with him after everything i told you he did to me and then you met her and you just stopped talking to me. did i ever even matter? was any of it true?? real? did you mean anything you said? i dont even miss you i just hate you for everything you did to me. you turned out to be exactly like him just like you said you wouldnt. probably why you guys are such good friends now. i just wish i never told you what i did because its not true anymore and i hope you dont think it still is. make sure when things go south with her you actually take some time trying to replace her cause youve done it pretty fast the past two times. i mean does she even know what happened? shes not the one you spent the whole summer with.

you're still constantly in the back of my mind and I don't understand why. you've clearly moved on so why can't I? I miss you but I talk to you every day

I wish you could see yourself the way I do I don’t think I’ve ever met someone that makes me smile as much when I’m around them makes me feel so enough and comfortable never change

You taught me so many life lessons I waited for you to come back to me and it killed me but I’ve accepted now that ur not coming back and even though u hurt me I will forever love you and be here for you

I miss you more than anything, I’m still in love with you so much and I want you back but I know you don’t feel the same way but I really wish you did

I feel like a recovered addict. The taste still lingers. I have to remind myself you never felt the same way.

I feel like a recovered addict. The taste still lingers. I have to remind myself you never felt the same way.

honestly i don’t know. I never really felt like this for a real person, it’s surprising actually. I like you. I really do.

honestly i don’t know. I never really felt like this for a real person, it’s surprising actually. I like you. I really do.

loving you was a losing game. I tried. my fucking hardest. and you left... when you said you wouldn't

I want to cry to you to tell you how I’m going to die soon and only you can stop it you just push me away to show off

hey I’ve been wanting to check up on you but I don’t wanna seem annoying so yea man fuck it I miss your ass and I hate that I do because you probably don’t give a shit about me no more but wtver I just hope youre happy and I hope that maybe one day you’ll realize how much I actually care about you I’m not like the other hating ass bitch ?

hey I kinda miss you you pendejo but I get it you probably don’t give a fuck about me anymore huh but it’s ok I just wanna see you happy

you’ve been my friend since kindergarten, i’m truly the most luckiest person to have been in the same school with you at the same time in the same city. what you do never goes unnoticed and i hope you know that. you do so much for me nothing i do can ever repay you for how much you’ve done for me. you’re an angel on earth and you are a person i can actually call my best friend and that makes me so happy. i can connect with you and i feel comfortable with you. you’re the only one outside of my family like that. our bond is never ending no matter what i will always be here to talk to you. you deserve so much more than you get and i promise you one day you will have it all. even through everything you go through i will always be here for you, i wish i was better at comforting. you deserve the whole universe and more. i want to see you thrive and glow. you’re smile and laugh is my favorite. you have the best humor in the world. anyone would be luck to be with you. i’m sorry if i’m ever not a good friend at times.

i literally like you so much but you are giving me mixed signals :/ which doesn't help me out at all cuz idek if you like me or not

I think about you a lot and wish I wasn’t too scared to text back that night. I would give everything to rewind time.

It’s me. It’s been a long time since we last talked and I kinda still like you. We used to be really good friends and then you left me for the girl down the street

I love you, and I always will. When I said I wouldn't give up, I meant it. I know it's hard. Just please come back to me. The distance is so hard, but I promise it can be so worth it. I need you. I miss you everyday. You're everything. Don't do this to us. Don't let us end like this. I love you so much. Nothing will change that. It's hard and I hate being away from you too. But love is stronger than a few thousand miles. Our love can beat it. Please don't say you don't love me anymore, because I don't believe you. I don't believe that after everything, you could stop loving me. Please come back. We can do this. We can beat this. Don't give up on us. Don't give up on me.

There are a bunch of entries but I’ll say it. You have made my life so much better and you don’t even know it. I wish you would just feel the same but it’s not in my power.

I never wanted to say goodbye, but it was inevitable. I miss you more than anything and will always love you with my whole heart, whether we're together, or 5,000 miles apart.

I wish I could read your mind. Maybe then I’d know why you were always lying to me. Maybe I never would have loved you in the first place...

i couldnt decide whether to make this light purple or yellow.
we're a really good example of right people wrong time. i got another chance like i always used to pray for but i fucked it up again now i cant stop thinking about u. it just sucks bc we really couldve worked out if i just knew what i wanted. but i never do. not since last summer. but u've moved on to other people and thats okay. im still really sorry. i am.

i miss you. sometimes. other times, you’re dead to me. i hope she was worth it. but don’t come back when it’s over. by then, you will be no one and nothing to me. like you once told me, i’ll tell you to fuck off. goodbye. and p.s. my mom was rooting for us. you didn’t just let me down. you let her down too.

Hey Leo,
We have been friends for around 4 months and its been one heck of 4 months. We've had our fights that I would regret instantly after. You've always been there to comfort me, always there when I need someone to talk to, always there to brighten up my mood and always there for anything. You really mean a lot to me and I honestly don't actually know what would have happened if I didn't meet you. Thank you for everything Leo I'm so fucking grateful to have a friend like you. I love you lots, Leo

I’m really sorry that I can’t tell you the truth, I’ve been trying to gather the courage to do so but I can’t. I’m scared I’ll hurt you.

you said you'd stay & then you left. I had to watch your summer freckles fade over ft. That Hurt Me The Most

I know that you have moved on, but I worry that I will never feel the way that you made me feel again.

I wish we hadn’t dated so young.. but it’s been too long for us to try again, so I just have to love you from afar

I miss you. I wish that day i had stopped you from going out, now i dont know if i'll ever see you again. you've been in a coma since 1st july. it's killing me that i cant speak to you, i know this is mean of me but i tried to find someone to replace the love you gave me even though we werent together, and we were talking and all of a sudden i just realised, its you, youre the one i want to be with for the rest of my life. i dont know how to tell him but i know that its not him whos made for me. i love you forever, goodnight.

i miss you so much, why do i like you when all you do is ignore me, i compare everyone else to you and it sucks

Hey, I’m sorry for being distant. I’m not doing well mentally and I personally don’t believe I’ll be making it to the future which is why I’m so hesitant when you say ‘I love you’. I don’t want to disappoint you further, please live a long happy life. I know you harbour some bitter feelings towards me which is understandable. Please move on and find someone stable. As selfish as this may sound, I’d feel less guilty ending myself if you move on. I love you.