one month. that's all it took for me to fall madly in love with you after six years of "friends."
you make me so fucking happy.

i don't like you. i'm not in love with you. it's just that somewhere in my soul, i feel like i'm supposed to be with you. i've thought way too many people were my soulmate. but i know you're one of mine. and i think maybe it'll be us in the end. i hope you think that maybe too. it's ok if not. i need you though. and i'll stay. ill stay for you, g.

i wish that i could know why you did what you did. i wish that you had told me sooner. i wish that you cared.

today would've been two years, how strange. i don't miss you anymore. i finally feel free and happy and light and rid of you. i'm finally me again.

Everything is so different now that it’s seems so unrealistic that we could ever happen. I regret not taking the chance back then. I knew I loved you but not this much.

Hey, how are you? Lol doesn't matter you prob won't even respond. Gosh, why do you have to play around so much. I told you I liked you as a joke and you admitted your feelings for me. I developed feelings for you truthfully because I felt freaking bad that I would have to reject you. Now, I kind of wish I did instead of crying over something you started. You're such a good guy but you're always giving me mixed signals that make me want to hit my head with a pan and get a concussion. Remember your first girlfriend? Yeah, I've seen the way that you still look at her and as much as it hurts, I know that you would be happier with her and that I'm probably just a possible cure to your boredom. As much as it hurts for me to be writing about her, 3 years after you broke up, I have a gut feeling that you will always love her and I'm okay with that as long as you are happy. It all started in 4th grade, you with your ugly blue lined glasses and your weird hair. Why do I like you? I don't even know lol. It hurts so much that you left me so quick just like I thought you would. It really fcking hurts. I hope that you come back and prove me wrong because I need a break from getting hurt. I wish you knew how bad you hurt me but I don't trust E anymore. I saw the screenshots of my chat with him that he sent and it makes me rethink my trust issues all over again. Thank you. Thank you for giving me happiness and sadness at the same time. I'm going to try and focus on myself more now that you hurt me. If you choose to text me, even just with a "okay", I would go crazy while you're sitting on your bed with your phone in your hands thinking about that other girl. All the well, the girl who somehow likes you.

I think you were my first love even though you weren’t my first s/o. Did you feel what I felt or was it just me? .

I think I am really in love with you and I hope you never leave me. I don’t want to live life without you

It feels like I've known u for years, perhaps our souls struck a perfect match on a timeless era, I love you.

Right time and place are a thing. I wish we could have had the right time and place, i regret it greatly.

i miss you everyday. i love you and i hope she treats you well. never forget how much you deserve darling.

You hurt me more than you’ll ever know. My best friend... really? And I was willing to give it all up for you.

can we just go for a ride in your car all night, eat and drink and blast music until the sun comes up? pwease :(

i'm sorry. you scare me sometimes, i don't know how i feel. i planted the irises in my garden, but i'm worried the soil is too cold. I

hey, i know u’re not doing okay rn but i want u to know that im here for u if u need someone to talk to

quiero que seas feliz aún si no es conmigo, te prometí que nunca te dejaré sola y lo voy a cumplir. te amo como a nadie:(

Je t'ai aimé, j'ai fait de mon mieux pour essayer de te rendre heureux durant cette année. Je t'aime toujours autant aujourd'hui, malgré que je sois partie il y a un mois. Je sais, j'ai rompu toutes nos promesses, j'étais sincère quand je t'ai dit que ça serait pour la vie. Je le pense encore malheureusement.. Tu me manques tellement, je comprends ta décision de ne plus vouloir réessayer, tu n'as surement plus la force, c'est vrai que notre histoire était terriblement compliquée. Sache juste que j'ai passé la meilleure année à tes côtés, je n'ai jamais connue une histoire mieux que la notre, je n'ai jamais été aussi heureuse. Tu me manques tellement, j'aimerais pouvoir revenir en arrière et effacer toutes les erreurs qu'on a commises, effacer cette soirée ou j'ai décidé d'en finir. J'aimerais pouvoir revenir en arrière et te dire a quel point je t'aime, je sais que si je n'avais pas fait ça rien n'aurait changé aujourd'hui je serais toujours à tes côtés... Je suis désolé pour tout, je n'arrive pas à tourner la page, je ne retrouverai jamais quelqu'un comme toi, je ne pourrai jamais t'oublier. Tout me fait penser à toi autour de moi, sûrement parce que je ne fais que penser à toi. Tu dois sans doute essayer de passer à autre chose, tu dois même me détester à l'heure qu'il est. Je suis vraiment désolé, je regrette tout. je t'aime jusqu'à la mort.

Ha pasado un tiempo desde la última vez que te escribí. ¿Sabes? fue difícil al inicio, el sueño no venía a mí en las noches, las cosas perdieron importancia, me alejé de aquellos quienes quería, pero ahora, finalmente soy feliz, me siento tranquila conmigo mismo, o eso pasaba hasta que decidiste volver. No te guardo rencor ni te odio, porque eso en lugar de afectarte a ti, me destruye a mí, pero no niego que dolió tu actitud en aquel entonces y que la eligieras a ella sobre mí. Sin embargo, te deseo lo mejor y que seas feliz, que hayan logrado todo lo que quisimos llegar a ser y te haya amado como yo no pude. El destino es caprichoso, tal vez este no era nuestro momento, pero al fin y al cabo, siempre serás la primera persona que amé.

I still have a diary of everything that happened between us. There hasn't been a new entry in months.

I wrote a letter to remind myself that I no longer love you. I read it for the first time and I feel a lot stronger.

I know you were with her the entire time. I know all you did was lie. I would give anything to hear your lies again.

Funny that I think you left. You’re the one who broke up with me. The one who said “that’s the thing baby I’m not coming back”..

I don´t know if you are the one. But I am confusing myself. Please be clear with me and let me be myself.

you showed me what love feels like. maybe next time the universe will get the timing right. i love you. always

I know our relationship wasn't always perfect but I've never felt this way for anyone you felt like you could be my first love. right now we are back to best friends which is better than nothing but it's hard to be "just friends" with someone you love.

You never saw me like that. You never saw me how I wished you did. You never saw me. Unrequitedly yours, forever.

g,
when i first met you, i instantly found you so attractive. i remember being in the pool standing next to you thinking wow this kid is so hot. little did i know i would completely fall for you. the first time we hooked up, i was so nervous. i kept scrambling my words together and my heart was racing so fast. i really like kissing you. that whole next week i had never felt so star struck before. all i could think about was the next time i would see you and what would happen. anytime i would get a notification from you my heart would stop. hanging out with you made me the happiest girl ever. i knew that we would never date and for a while i was perfectly fine with that. then one friday, i hooked up with you and i truly started to feel something. later that night i snuck out to see you. that’s when i could tell i rlly liked u. the way i could tell was i was in the worst mood and my friends were being annoying, but i still wanted to kiss you. since that night it’s felt like nothing has been the same. i’ve been so confused bc every time i get a buzz i’m praying it’s you but it isn’t. what happened? what did i do? i rlly like you. you changed me for the better and you actually made me really happy. thank you. i pray one day you’ll answer me. my heart really hearts, g.
with so much love,
C.

you knew i was in love with you but kept messing with me, you messed me up so bad that i don’t love myself anymore and prob never will

i’ve seen you moved on, with as much as you hate me with the words you said to me, it hurts to know that i wasn’t anything to you, but i’m glad u found someone to make you happy:)

I Loved you way to much than you deserved. Everytime i think of you my throat tightens up. You drained me

Siempre te ame mucho pero nunca te lo dije aunque aveces dude ahora entiendo que no debi dejarte ir con aquel chico D, imagínate nuestras vidas si lo hubiéramos intentado tal vez y llegaríamos a viejitos juntos pero por alguna razón no te dije lo que sentía, todavía te amo y demasiado, pero me queda nuestro mejor recuerdo Rimeel :)

I don’t regret the time we spent together, I just didn’t want to finish like that. But your choice, not mine. I just hope you will find someone who will love you for what you really are and not for your fake appearance. Just that. Have a good life.

I loved you so much but you didn’t for so long, but I realize now that we both could do better. Hope you succeed and thrive one day.

I know you loved me, but you never cared. And even with the song you wrote for me, it was more you, than us.

you fell for me and never had the courage to say so and when i finally decided to be brave for both of us you had already fallen for someone else. wrong timing i guess

sometimes i miss talking to you on the phone. but then i remember what you put me through and smile at the thought of never having to speak to you again.

i'm sorry. we never got "closure" and just ignored what happened. sorry it had to end like that.we just didn't work, but we made good memories. glad we've both found someone though. i'm happy for you. i feel bad thinking about you though. i know i'm not supposed to but memories just pop up and remind me. that's all. gn

you worthless slut stop being so fucking toxic and believing everything.that’s not my account you whore i figured you’d be on here but yeah stop being a toxic bitch and start believing me fucking slut

Sometimes as I fall asleep alone, I pretend to be next to you and imagine feeling your warmth on my skin

i hope you're doing well! just so you know, I'm still here for you no matter what, so if you ever want to come back , please do.

i wanted to tell you so badly but i was a coward and then i lost my chance, i don't think about you anymore, but i'm still mad at myself for never telling you how i felt

honestly i still have times that i miss you,but i’m glad that you found someone who makes you happier then i did :(:?

my heart is obsessed with you. i cant get you out of my head. but i promised myself i wouldn’t do this again.

i wishes u cared more for me, i wished u put more effort into us, we could’ve made it work but i released a relationship takes two people and i was worth more than just a hug when u felt like it, i hope u have a good future but all i can do is hope since u blocked me on everything lol so much pain

i let you fuck me up more than i should've. i wish i had been strong enough to walk away before you did

i let you fuck me up more than i should've. i wish i had been strong enough to walk away before you did

I wish i could go back to the moment in your car when you told me my eyes were pretty and i looked at your lips and we both knew it was gonna be a good kiss.

I didn’t think I’d love again before we met.
I hope you’re doing well, I wish you nothing but the best. Thank you for the memories, I’ll cherish them forever.

i want to spend every second next to you, laying in your arms. you make me so happy. i wouldn’t be alive if it wasn’t for you.

i still haven’t found my outlet, not telling you everything anymore hurts so much more then i thought it would.