Hey, I’m sorry for being distant. I’m not doing well mentally and I personally don’t believe I’ll be making it to the future which is why I’m so hesitant when you say ‘I love you’. I don’t want to disappoint you further, please live a long happy life. I know you harbour some bitter feelings towards me which is understandable. Please move on and find someone stable. As selfish as this may sound, I’d feel less guilty ending myself if you move on. I love you.