Unsent Messages

hey. i think that you were my actual first guy best friend. everything was strictly platonic but i just want you to know that i loved and still love you so much. even though you decided to go and become an asshole and pretend you didn't care abt any of us anymore, i still love you. even though i am sure you never do, i think about how happy I was when i was your friend. although that period of time probably didn't mean as much to you as it did to me, i just want to say thank you for being my friend at all. i wish we could still be friends because everyday i miss not having someone who i could call the male version of myself. i miss when we used to walk out of school together, and walk to class together. i just miss you. and i am so sorry that i didn't try harder to stick around but it was just super hard to when you started treating everyone like garbage. and honestly that really hurt me because i genuinely cared about you so much and it hurt when i realized that you didn't care the same amount as i did. nevertheless, i still love you. there will always be a part of me that will miss you and want to be your friend again and love you. i chose this color because it is one of the colors for the river dale vixens, which was our first inside joke.