Unsent messages to JAKE

we are soulmates. we always were. but not in this life. i hope one day i find you again and feel the love i felt for all those years.

whenever i am having a panic attack the only thing that calms me down is picturing myself in your arms.

I would have loved you forever, but you couldn’t see. Now I’ve healed and wish you the best, but you already had it

Maybe you did love me more at first, but as my love grew, I had to watch you fall out of it. Funny how things work out.

I love you but i know i have no chance with you. we don't even talk. but i'll always be here if you ever make up your mind.

Before you I felt like I was unloveable, but then you cheated on me for 6 months, I feel that same way again, unloveable

hey.. i miss you. i miss you more than you'll ever know. i don't see you in my dreams anymore and if you're reading this rn just know that i love you so much. There's so much more i want to say, but for now, i hope you're doing good Bubba. Take care of yourself. I love you.

thanks for teaching me what heart break really means. i think you’ll always hold a special place in my heart...

I don't feel better after breaking up with you but I also don't think I regret it. It's too painful to talk to you sometimes.

im finally in the process of forgetting you. after months of manipulation ive decided to make a change for myself and live my life for me. i thought what we had was love but you just used me for your own needs. i wish you all the success and happiness in the world.

i know it wasnt my fault you left..but i still wonder if i could have done anything different? I love you still, even if i mean nothing to you

I will let you go and move on with my life, but you will always be welcomed back if you ever decide to come back to me.

you said you couldn't smile properly before you met me, and i didn't think i could feel this way about anyone before i met you.

I was never a priority to you, only an option. I hope you never treat someone else how you treated me.

you broke a piece of me when you never said you loved me back, i can't forgive you for that, it broke me...

I wish you had cared about me the way you cared about her. But I'm glad I didn't end up with you. We're weren't right for each other.

i hope you never find this, or maybe i hope you do. we could've been more. it could've been us against the world.

you know that i’ve always been about you since day one. so why do you always choose her? she doesn’t care like i do.

i hope you know that i ended it bc we both deserve better. i deserve to feel happy and fulfilled in a relationship, but at the same time you deserve to have your feelings reciprocated. i held off on breaking it off bc i was so afraid of what a breakup would do to you, but it got to the point where it was eating me inside out. my biggest regret is dragging it out so long.

I am totally and utterly in love with you. You've made me a better persona and who I am today.
yours forever. L

I love you more than you'll ever know. I know you care about me but I wish you loved me like I love you. You're the one I want for forever and I'm unsure that you feel the same way.

i’m patiently waiting & hoping that things between us will improve soon. i just have a gut feeling that we’re meant to be..& i pray that i am right. i’ve never wanted someone or something more than this. i trust in God & the universe that our relationship will work out. ?

I just wish it could have worked cause u had me thinking of u for days. And it sucks that u couldn’t see that right in front of you. I guess all good things don’t ever come to be true

Thank you for the friendship and experience. Sometimes I wish we could talk again, but i know that’s a bad idea.

hi, it been a while. I miss you. i wish we still talked, we would probably end up being something more... i hope we will talk again one day. I'm sorry.

You were the first person who truly made me feel special. Too bad u never gave me a chance to tell you.

i miss you we were never really anything but ik we had something and i miss you and ik i would always talk to ppl around you and describe ppl that looked the opposite of u my type but you were the first boy that had your features that i actually liked i know i never sounded or acted interested in you but i was

Thank you for building me into the person I am today. I’m not sure where I would be without you and I wish you the absolute best j:))

i’m sorry i wasn’t good enough for you. but i miss you a lot and i really wish the best for you in college

You hurt me. i no longer pray god brings you back or our worlds collide and we get another shot but i do pray you are healed one day and you find your happiness. officially letting go. thank you for the memories. be happy luv.

You’re the one I want to talk about life with at 4am. You’ve always been enough for me. You’ll always be the one I compare everyone else to. I love you.

We’ve been through so much together. I didn’t know what it meant to truly love somebody before I met you. I’ll never stop loving you.

Why would you get with her if you still look at me in the same way you looked at me when u told me you loved me

You knew how I felt but you didn't love me enough to stay. Not only did I loose my best friend, but my first love too.

You made me feel all of the best emotions at once and on top of the world and then ripped it all away.

Why did you tell me all that stuff if you were just gonna leave me. you made me feel like I'm not good enough for anyone

I miss u and i love u and i’m so sorry for everything. i’ve tried to fix things i don’t know what else to do. but i think about you all the time and i miss you.
love,
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I love you and I miss you and I miss what we had, no matter how weird and crazy it was. I think about you all the time. You’re one of my best friends I wish we could just go back to that. I’m so sorry for everything

you’re literally one of the prettiest people I’ve ever seen like you make me feel butterflies that no one else has made me felt ?

fuck you. thank you for wasting a year on me just to leave me. i hope you get as hurt as i was and you’re a dick but i love you

you were my first love and first heartbreak. i hope one day you find someone who loved you as much i did almost. i’m moving on but i will always love and care about you.

i hate that no matter what you say to me i will always get excited when you talk to me even thought you dokt even want to hangout with me as a friend. even though what you did to me was wrong and i can’t believe i forgave you, and now you only talk to me when you want something from you. i have to act like i don’t care and i’m ok with it but i want you out of my life even though i can’t have you back and i will always be your last choice, it’s not like we ever dated but we built that relationship over the course months and i want to remove myself from what we’re doing right now but i’m so addicted to it and it’s hard to say no.

I love you more than anything in this world. I still would do anything for you. If you asked me back I’d run right back to you

I was really exited and flattered when you asked for my number but you suck at texting (I hat waiting 5 hours for a reply)

i never want to leave your house. but i remember that one day we’ll have one of our own. luv you always

The new MGK album came out yesterday. All I want to do is text you about it. I miss driving the North Shore and you getting me to listen to new music and fighting over finding the best pieces of sea glass. I miss my best friend.

i know you love me. and i know you're scared. it's okay, i won't hurt you+ ik you don't do them, but i pinkie promise.

i thought my first love was someone else until i met you. i thought i was just messing around, until i realized i had no way to describe the way i felt for you.

You have a part of me that you don't even know you have. I hate that you do. I hate myself for it and I really wish I could hate you too. But I don't and I really fucking hate that.

I just know I would go right back.

this is super weird but i keep seeing you in my dreams not in a creepy way or anything you’re just there