I don't have a single night I don't think of you and regret that I didn't say anything sooner. You are just so perfect in every way I need. It's been strange falling for you, I don't even know if you have ever liked me back. But that doesn't matter now, as you're much happier with someone else and not even remembering I exist. So , have a good one. Make your romance with her as great as it ever could be and never waste a single moment of it.

i want to tell u how much u hurt me, how i sat and broke my heart to my mum. but you'll never know the pain you caused. you'll never know thr countless hours i spent thinking and crying.how even though i had my final exams i stayed up till 4am just to talk to you. how i pushed away my dad, my friends even my best friend to spend time with you. how i spent every waking minute thinking about how much i loved you. how even though you shattered my confidence and told me i wasnt good enough i took you back. it broke my heart. i couldnt imagine a life without you. so id rather be broken but with you because nothing else mattered. you were my everything. i loved you wholeheartedly. but you see the thing is although there is so much you didn't know. there was so much you did know. you knew me. you knew me inside and out. every crevice, every insecurity i let you see. you came into my life at such a fragile time. you knew this, you knew how vulnerable i was how i gave you my heart and soul but it still wasn't good enough. why wasnt it good enough. i want to know why you fucking did me like that what did i ever do to you. i look back now and don't see myself. i look back and see a teenage girl who barley knew herself be ur emotional punching bag. make u feel good when u needed. answered the phone at 3am when u were bored. let you blow me off, ignore me. never got upset over the things you used to scream at me for. i let you use me i let you leave me broken on the ground. but my heart. me. i was never going to be good enough.
so even though a year on i wonder why you did what you did. i dont care about you. i dont care if you got promoted. i dont care if you passed your course. i dont care who you are. you're nothing. you're nobody anymore. so you know what although you broke me, left me vulnerable it made me stronger. because now you don't get to know me. you dont get to see me vulnerable. you dont have me anymore. you've caused me so much pain so much hatred but i dont hate you. i thank you. you made me learn to love myself. i don't need that 3am 'love u' text to know i am loved. i don't need you now. i needed you to break me so i could fix me. and thats both the best gift and the worst thing you ever did to me. you let me learn what love really is. not what we had. you had control and dominance, i had nothing. but now, i have the knowledge. because i will never ever let any man make me feel anything less than the woman i am. i will never let them make my insecurities their manipulation. i know who i am. i am strong. i am fucking beautiful. i am so intelligent. and i am loved by so many people but i dont care if im loved by you. PS ur girlfriend is a BTEC version of me everyone can see that.

I just wish it could have worked cause u had me thinking of u for days. And it sucks that u couldn’t see that right in front of you. I guess all good things don’t ever come to be true

all i can think about is when you put my leg on your thigh in math last year. we had such good memories.

You were everything to me. and you told me you felt the same. but i’m too much, which i can understand. but sometimes i wish i was just enough for you.

I'm in love with the romanticized version of you in my head, I don't want to realize that your not the boy I want.

I still think about you sometimes but then I remember you aren't thinking of me and want nothing to do with me.

I still miss you. I look at my door hoping you'll walk in and hug me, I miss being in your arms so much, everyday hurts, I know it's been a while but it still feels like the day we said goodbye. I know this is selfish because I wouldn't want anyone to feel the pain I'm feeling but sometimes I hope you feel the same. I wish we stayed friends, I always wish on the trick you taught me (11) that you'll text me and everything will be okay. I love you.

Thank you for all the memories. For all the laughter, for all the tears. For everything you have taught me. You were my first love and I'm never gonna forget you. But, you clearly don't want me so I have to let you go. I love you forever jacob.

i’m patiently waiting & hoping that things between us will improve soon. i just have a gut feeling that we’re meant to be..& i pray that i am right. i’ve never wanted someone or something more than this. i trust in God & the universe that our relationship will work out. ?

I love you more than you'll ever know. I know you care about me but I wish you loved me like I love you. You're the one I want for forever and I'm unsure that you feel the same way.

Sometimes I miss the attention you gave me, almost like a craving that you have for a week and then you just don't want it anymore. But then I remember how much I hate you and how controlling you are. You made me so uncomfortable to even walk past you and your friends. You make me sick.

It hurts that we’re moving in together but only as friends. I hope one day you love me as much as I love you.

I am totally and utterly in love with you. You've made me a better persona and who I am today.
yours forever. L

I get that you found me to invested in the relationship. But to only use me for your personal pleasure was a huge dick move. You fucking sexually assaulted me you complete and utter asshole. Ruined my life. Fuck. You.

i want to tell you how i feel, but im scared. ive been in love with you for 2 years now. i miss you every day.

maybe if you had just forgiven me and let me speak we wouldn't be here. why'd you tell everyone what you think of me after that?

i know you never liked me and that's fine, but i can't seem to get over you. it's pathetic i know, but i don't know how to stop. i know you're happy with her and i'm glad we're still friends.
all the love,
...

i loved you a lot ,i think you knew but you just never felt the same but you always made my day when i saw your smile

I don’t know if I was in love with you, or the idea of you...but once upon a time you were everything to me, and I was nothing to you

it’s been forever, yet i still never knew why you left. i think about you every couple of years. why did you not love me?

i hope you know that i ended it bc we both deserve better. i deserve to feel happy and fulfilled in a relationship, but at the same time you deserve to have your feelings reciprocated. i held off on breaking it off bc i was so afraid of what a breakup would do to you, but it got to the point where it was eating me inside out. my biggest regret is dragging it out so long.

i wanna go back to those summer nights when we laughed and you told me you weren’t joking when you said you liked me.

I’m leaving another one cause you have too common of a name and mine got moved far down. On the off chance you see this I wanna let you know something. I wish you would talk to me again... not just swiping up on my story every couple weeks... actually speak to me because my heart flutters everytime I see your name pop up on my phone. To quote my favorite harry styles song (lol) “even my phone misses your call”... that’s all, miss u

you know that i’ve always been about you since day one. so why do you always choose her? she doesn’t care like i do.

I love you more than words can describe. You are my best friend and the love of my life. I will never ever leave you because leaving you would be leaving the best thing that has ever happened in my life. Sometimes it may seem like I’m being mean but its really just because I care so much about you and I just want our future together to be perfect. I love you the absolute most. You are perfect in every single way and there is no one in the world that could ever take me away from you.

i know we are meant to be just maybe in a different life. i keep pulling but you always find a way to push back.

Fuck you. The amount of times you have cheated on me is too many to count, and that's only the ones I know of. Whenever I try to confront you about them you get pissed at me so genuinely fuck you.

I have scars from you. It’s taken me some time to heal; I realized they won’t ever really be gone, but I have learned to live with them.

i hope you never find this, or maybe i hope you do. we could've been more. it could've been us against the world.

i will love you always i wish i could see you one more time before you leave but i know it’s over now i’m just glad you’re happy that’s all i’ve ever wanted i hope you’ve found your peace

I am just gonna leave this here. You are confusing and led me on... but we are not gonna talk about it.

I never got jealous of you and other girls because I knew you’d never love them the same as me. I can see it in your eyes my love.

I feel like you’re so out of my league. We have so much in common and I feel like I can see this relationship going somewhere, I just wish you would express your feelings more to me. I rly like you and I just don’t want you to say “nvm, I don’t like you” for the 2nd time. I want to hang out with you and get so much closer, I just don’t know how to bring it up.

I love you. I think I am in love with you. I don't know. But I do know I have never felt this way before. I'm scared to be in love with love you because even though I know you love me, you aren’t in love with me. You are in love with your ex. very cool. I hope she's worth losing me for because you are losing me but I will never tell you that because I'm too scared to let you go. dammit. I am in love with you.

i’m sorry i we never good enough for you. i’m sorry i don’t look like her. I miss you so so much but you will never want me again. i’m sorry for being hard work with my mental health. i hope one day you realise that you meant the world to me and i would never do anything to hurt you :( thank you for getting me through half the stuff you did. i really wouldn’t be here today if i wasn’t for you. I hope your happy

Knew I’d love you the first time we met. Was excited to tell people that one day. Wish you’d been ready for me.

i loved you, i know i never said it, but i did. i wish i could relive summer with you and just feel a couple things twice. Sometimes i type your name into my phone and just stare, i know you miss me and i miss you but we both know we cant go back. sometimes i wonder why we continue to torture ourselves, why do we always find our way back? i think we both knew we were never just friends, no matter how many times we said it. im sorry i laughed when you said i love you, i didnt know what to say. i did love you at the time, but i dont anymore. i cant love someone like you anymore. i cant keep giving my everything to you just to get nothing back, it killed me for 3 years. i wonder if im in your dreams like youre in mine, i wonder if you think of me when you hear that one weeknd song, i wonder if you type my name and erase it, i wonder if you type out texts to me and beg yourself not to send them like i do. i wonder a lot about you. i wonder a lot what wouldve happened if i wouldve stayed back on that july sunday, do you think we would still be here?

i like you so much and it scares me because i fucked up my last relationship. as much as i like to blame it on him it was me, and i don’t want to hurt you

damn, i overthink everything and im sorry i just cant afford to lose you again i love you. please dont go please

I miss you more than words can describe. I miss your touch and the way your lips felt on mine. I miss seeing your smile and your name on my phone But most of all I miss the way you made me feel. I miss the way you made my heart skip a beat. You said I was yours forever, but I guess you didn't mean it

I wish you had cared about me the way you cared about her. But I'm glad I didn't end up with you. We're weren't right for each other.

i hope you get to heal, and when that time comes just know that i will still be here waiting for you

When we broke up you said that you weren’t always a good boyfriend, but I can’t remember any time where I felt loved by you.

i will always have a soft spot for you. you changed me in so many ways, and i am forever grateful for you.

i know you love me. and i know you're scared. it's okay, i won't hurt you+ ik you don't do them, but i pinkie promise.

I should have listened to what people said about you. Every single person told me you would screw me over. I should've just ignored you like you were just another guy who called me hot. but for whatever reason you listened to me and called me gorgeous and snuck out to see me and FaceTimed me every night and let me rest my drunk head on you and made me feel safe. But you also made me feel like I was in a constant competition with other girls, like I was stupid, like you were too busy for me, like you couldn't trust me, like I was nothing more than my body to you. Why I stuck with you for so long I'll never know. I tried so hard with you, to change you, to give you chances and you fucked it up every single time. I was so easy to please and you always missed. I miss the little things you did. The fact we went from what we were to this is fucking sad. That safe feeling you gave me before has gone to shit. My stomach drops when I see your name, I look down when I walk past you, when you talk to me I stutter. I fucking hate you so much for killing me a little everyday.

The new MGK album came out yesterday. All I want to do is text you about it. I miss driving the North Shore and you getting me to listen to new music and fighting over finding the best pieces of sea glass. I miss my best friend.

i’m so glad we became friends. ik ur never gonna see this because jake is a common ass name but i’m genuinely so glad you’re in my life.

you broke a piece of me when you never said you loved me back, i can't forgive you for that, it broke me...