I’m sorry my feelings for you put us both in an uncomfortable spot. I was lost and sad and didn’t make a good choice when it came to us. I’m so sorry.

I loved you.
I was in love with you.
You made it seem like you felt the same way.
You didn't.
My friends said that I was happier when we were "talking" or whatever you wanna call it.
Now I try to do things that I never thought I would want to do to myself.

We’d be good together but for some reason I can’t let myself be happy I don’t know why. I know you love me. From you know who

Hey. I have been terrified to say this for months because you are my best friend, but I need you to know I like you more than that.

you’re my sunshine. i don’t know how i sleep without you or eat without you or laugh or smile without you my fucjing angel i miss you and it takes all my self restraint NOT to message you lmao,,, you broke my heart but you probably don’t care? i asked if he was lying when he said you didn’t care about me and you said he was but it didn’t seem that way on that day. i cant even look at your name without crying.

You hurt me. i no longer pray god brings you back or our worlds collide and we get another shot but i do pray you are healed one day and you find your happiness. officially letting go. thank you for the memories. be happy luv.

im sorry that i left u so suddenly.u deserved so much better and im sorry for leading u on, i hope u are well

it's been a year since we broke up, since we last spoke. i still think about you now and then, but i needed to let you go. i wonder if you still think about me, if you regret not treating me right.. I wish we could talk just once more so i can thank you for all the good memories we shared, reflect back on my mistakes bc i wasn't perfect either.. to show you how much i have matured and grown from the lessons i learned. i hope she makes you happy jacob and i hope she's enough for you, since I wasn't. 1 yr later and i am still single, theres been no one since you. maybe, in the future, we will meet again and catch up.. share some laughs and stories.. until then, this is goodbye. i wish you all the best.
- your first love, amanda

I’m so sorry I seemed cold and distant I just wasn’t feeling good. I’m so grateful for everything you did for me and for getting me through the times which would have been so much harder without you. Please remember the good times too, I don’t want you to feel like it was a complete waste. No one makes me as happy as you did.

i’m sorry i wasn’t good enough for you. but i miss you a lot and i really wish the best for you in college

Thank you for building me into the person I am today. I’m not sure where I would be without you and I wish you the absolute best j:))

I wish you loved me like I love you. You were my favourite human, I never thought someone could be so perfect. But it’s okay :) maybe in another lifetime

I’ll never understand how you went from loving me to hurting me. I wish I could’ve been the girl you wanted...but I’m tired of trying to be her.

I left part of my soul with you. Thankyou for the lesson, I know my worth now and I hope we can forgive each other.

I don't think that we'd ever work out, we're such a toxic mix. but I still love you, and think of when I drove down to your campus at midnight just to spend time with you, only to fuck it up in the end

i miss you we were never really anything but ik we had something and i miss you and ik i would always talk to ppl around you and describe ppl that looked the opposite of u my type but you were the first boy that had your features that i actually liked i know i never sounded or acted interested in you but i was

i miss out quarintine 3 am conversations. why did you stop them? they good me through quarintine so thank u but i miss them

You were the first person who truly made me feel special. Too bad u never gave me a chance to tell you.

You’re never gonna see this and that’s okay, I’m gonna say it anyways. I really liked you and I still do, I’m just not sure if I could like you again in the way I used too. You’re smart and cute and funny but you made me cry so many times. When we hang out I try to forget about all the times I cried over you but sometimes I can’t. Then other times I think the good out weighs the bad. Some days I just can’t shake the feelings I had, I wonder if you feel the same. I don’t think you do and that’s okay but if you did I’d really like to know :) we were gonna try and fix things over summer but you didn’t want to, if that’s changed let me know...

Thank you for teaching me so many things about life that changed me for the better. But honestly, fuck you.

how did we end up like this? i thought you would be in my life forever. thinking of you brings me pain. everyday feels like just yesterday i got to wake up next you each morning. your presence always so heavy. i don’t know how to fix me. i don’t know how to not think of you everyday. i can make myself cry thinking of you, that’s never happened before. i left before i got hurt more, but leaving hurt most.

i still think about you, even though i know i shouldn’t. and i still want to wait for you, even though i know i shouldn’t.

“hi hi hi” “Hi” “what’s goin on” “Nothing” “relatable, you went to lehman jackson right?” “Yep” i’ll never forget our first conversation. i was so excited that the cutest boy in the school was actually talking to me. i’m so glad we met, because i don’t know where i’d be if we didn’t. i truly believe you were a gift from God, because He knew i needed someone like you. i love you so much, i’d do anything for you. i mean that. you are perfect in my eyes, no matter how much pain you cause me. i’ll never forget the feeling i had the first time you left. it was like you took a piece of me with you. i was in so much pain and when you came back it instantly went away. i think that this purple represents my love for you because it’s a dark and sullen looking version of a happy color (the sadness), but if you stare at it for a while it’s actually quite pretty (the happiness). i hope that my heart is right about you.

I fucking suck. I'm an awful person, and I left you so suddenly. I guess I just cared more about something happening in my life than I did about how much I actually loved you. I'm sorry.

I wish you would have listened when I said no. I’m now suffering because of you. I could never forgive you even if I tried

I don't know why I'm not good enough. You get my hopes up and make me happy, then you destroy my world with a single word.

i go through waves of missing you. The way i felt around you, i've never experienced before you or any guy after you. sometimes you act like you miss me but i know it's a lie. You're just trying to get me wrapped around your finger again. Thank you for making me realize my worth.

I love you. I miss you, but I'm glad you're happy. I'm happy that you've found your person and that you're visiting all the places with her that we always said we would go to. My heart aches but I'm happy as long as you're happy. Thank you for showing me what love was. If only things had worked out

This is from Maia, You’re so loved. Ik u don’t think it, but I wanna be able to show u it. I can’t fix you but I can be there for you when you need me. You’ve been nothing but kind to me and I wanna do the same. Even if we don’t work out I still want to be friends, Cos ur genuinely an amazing person and I want to be there with you when you finally realise that. I’m patient and I can wait for that moment but until then I wanna help you :) just tell me what you need. Please try remember that you’re loved, atleast by me anyways.

you treated me as if i would always be around. even our friendship was one sided. how many times were you there for me when i needed a friend? when have you ever asked me how im doing? i went out of my way to try and include you, which ended up being me witnessing you treat everyone else clearly better than me. “why is he so mean to you?” “why does he talk down on you?” all legitimately asked after seeing you interact with me. you cannot see it, but i finally do.

you treated me as if i would always be around. even our friendship was one sided. how many times were you there for me when i needed a friend? when have you ever asked me how im doing? i went out of my way to try and include you, which ended up being me witnessing you treat everyone else clearly better than me. “why is he so mean to you?” “why does he talk down on you?” all legitimately asked after seeing you interact with me. you cannot see it, but i finally do.

Thank you for loving me enough to last lifetimes. I’m sorry. The pattern says we are past life lovers. I still wished it was this life.

You’ve changed me for the better and I love you so much
You’re love scares the fuck out of me tho
Cause I know if something happens, this is gonna hurt
I don’t wanna think about how bad
I love you with all my heart ❤️
Please don’t break it

the way you look at me makes me feel like I’m the only girl in the world and I’ve never felt like that so thankyou, m.

Do you really hate me? Or do you just have no justification for the way you treated me so you made me out to be the bad guy in hopes other people wouldn’t realize you treat women like shit?

I've never been in love since I fell in love with you, even though you never loved me back. I think I'll never get over it.

i can feel myself slowly falling for you. when your name pops up on my phone i instantly smile. when i see you my day gets better, but when you leave, that is going to hurt. how it will hurt like hell.

lie to me, say you still love me even if you don’t. you said you didn’t and i need you to take it back, i’m begging you to.

im so sorry. i would do anything to talk to you but i know you dont want anything to do with me. i have come to the conclusion you have moved on and as much as it pains me i have to accept it. i will always be open to talking to you again, and part of me hopes you take up that offer but i doubt you would remember any of my socials. i love you and i hope life treats you well.

You're so fucking selfish. I know we all have our shit to deal with, but you're not up on a pedestal. Fuck you

Im so sorry for everything. Its been 3 years and I missy you so much. If I could change what happened, I would've.

i really wish you treated me differently, i had so much hope for us and our future they’ll always be some of me that is sad because how it ended, but i’ve learn to get over it, i loved you i still care for you an unexplainable amount

thank you for everything you did. i hope you know that ill always love you. but as seeing that you are now happier with her i understand why you cut me off. i know that you probably dont care but i really do miss you :/

hi, it been a while. I miss you. i wish we still talked, we would probably end up being something more... i hope we will talk again one day. I'm sorry.

Thank you for the friendship and experience. Sometimes I wish we could talk again, but i know that’s a bad idea.

I loved you from the start, and will love you till the end. I only hope one day my head will accept that you love me too.

I have fully forgiven you. I’m sorry I was awful when my mental was bad. I still love you but I’m afraid of hurting you. I know we are better apart.You have my number if you want to talk ever.

Do you remember the night after we admitted we loved each other? After spending 2 weeks apart from Christmas, do you remember the first night we spent back together? Do you know how long it took for me to finally admit how i felt, to myself, not even just to you. i dont know why i keep getting sad, idk if i feel like im worthy of someone like you loving me, i never knew what it was like to feel unquestionably loved until i met you. maybe its because i've never experienced that, i dont know. something still makes me sad, and now i think ive grown up as a rose with continuous thorns in my back, i had too much rain that drowned me instead of sunshine to make me grow and now love has become such a cursed thing for me, i always truly believe it'll go wrong to the point where i think now i'm intentionally trying to make it go wrong as a self sabotage just to protect myself, but i'm hurting others along the way. when i'm with you, i feel the rawest emotions, i've never ever felt something so intense in my life. please never ever doubt that i love you, i love you with every fucking bone and muscle in my body, but my heart is just working quicker than my brain and i cannot grasp the concept that this is healthy and that i deserve this. Part of this makes me want to push you away, but because i dont want to hurt you, and that's why i've always avoided people just because i dont think i will ever get better, i dont think my perception on love will ever changed. i think i'm genuinely so unwell mentally, and i dont think my mind works normally at all. I feel every emotion 10x deeper than the usual person and i dont know why. i want you to shout at me, scream that you love me but tell me to fuck off, i want to hurt so badly, and then feel you push me against a wall and kiss me. It's not healthy i know, and i don't even know how to escape that and i really, truly don't know if that mindset of mine will ever change. Happiness makes me feel sad, and i dont think my thoughts are normal as i've only ever met one person that feels someone similar. i want to bleed, bleed, bleed and bleed. I just want this emotion to pour out of my body until i physically can't get anything else out. You've done everything for me, and i don't know what i did in a past lifetime to ever deserve you, you've done my psoriasis treatments for me, cuddled me whilst i've cried and cried for hours. you've seen my bipolar episodes and not even battered an eyelid, you really really love me, don't you?
I love you too. Always.

i've never felt the feeling i had towards you with another person. I'm terrified i'll never have that feeling again. You were my drug.

you made me hate myself. and even after everything you did and how horrible you treated me, i’m still waiting for your text back. i just started to feel okay without you in my life and today you sent me back to square one.