Unsent messages to DANIEL

i don’t understand how i’m expected to go on and repeat the same shit over and over again if you aren’t gonna be here by my side the whole way. i miss you more and more every day.

i’ll always love you no matter where we stand. if some day you decide to come back my way, i’ll be waiting right where you left me.

You know that you’ve hurted me so much and still continued to hurt me even if we haven’t talked for months. I changed and you don’t even really know me, so why do you hate me so much?

we were never really meant for each other. I feel like a blip that should've never come in your life.
but i am grateful anyway.

I never loved you i just loved the idea of you, it still hurt me when you left, you left me wondering why I wasn't good enough

I love you so much, you meant everything to me. I remember our tickle fights, our hugs, our sing alongs. you were wonderful. now you left me. you left me and ignored me for so long. I think about you everyday, wondering if I could have changed our relationship and changed my life. maybe we could have been together? no, you’re with someone else now. im happy for you, but I wanna be happy too. I loved you first, I loved you so so much, I cry myself to sleep thinking about you. I miss you so much. please come back to me, I swear I’m the same person, why did you never love me. I love you. I will never stop and that’s the problem. I love you.

You promised that my greatest fear wouldn’t come true with you. But it did. You stopped loving me while I didn’t.

I couldn't love u the way u deserved it. I am so sorry but I think I am ready now. I just want u to know that I wasn't playing I was just confused. All of it was never my intention. U will always be someone that makes me feel like home.

Everything has been overwhelming to me in the last months but one thing is sure that i love you and i wish all of the best to you. I am afraid to admit to myself that i love you because i am afraid to love. When i look at you i feel peace. You are so unique to me that i cant really explain it.

You used me when I needed someone the most. You saw I was vulnerable and used it to your advantage. How do you do that to someone?

now im alone with the memories of us chasing snowflakes with our mouths. thats what i have from you and i love it.

all the flirty jokes we do, I just want you to know I’m not joking. I look forward to the lessons we have together, you let me be who I am.

hey lol,
did you actually ever like me? or did you just want to see my body. Because you got what you wanted in the end, and we don't talk anymore like we used to. I always see you play fighting with your ex. Do you still like her? Is it because she's skinnier than me.

You don't know how much you hurt me by leaving after I gave my whole soul to you. You knew how hard it was for me to trust but you left me anyway.

Thank you for being my best friend and making me feel so loved. I’m sorry it ended the way it did. I miss you.

I’ve never lost feelings for you, you tell me you like me when you don’t. There’s other girls who like you and you prefer them /: I hope one day you realize how much I like you and you realize that you like me back.

You told me that you didn't do the casual stuff. I guess you changed your mind when you met her and forgot about me. I think I'm still in love with you, and you don't even see me anymore.

Creo que el error de nosotros fue ir muy rápido y se espantó todo, pero déjame decirte que esta relación a distancia fue la mejor de todas, te quiero muchísimo y extraño todo de nosotros.
Tu sabes bien quien soy, de igual manera si lees esto, no me hables, no me llames, no me escribas, no lo hagas por favor.
Se feliz mor

i thought you felt the same way and i thought i was special to you but you moved on quick without any hesitation so i guess it’s my time to move on too

you're the boy version of me and i love that we talk once in a while but it hurt giving you advice about your love life and you dont love me anymore but grateful i dated you you have such a pretty smile i just wished you stayed like you promised you would i wished you actually loved me like i loved you. You are my first love

if u weren't such a coward we could've gone out, but it would've prob ended in us hating each other. i guess staying friends was 4 the best

I miss you. I think of you and see our pictures and stuff you gave me in a box. I loved you, why did you do what you did?

you were not my first love, but you were the first love to make me feel at peace. i love you forever.

Sigh it was honestly quite interesting how it all went down. I think about it till this day and its about to be a year since....I just wanna say that i dont open up to people as much as i did to you and its crazy how much i did so early on i felt so safe with you. All the good just doesnt make up for the bad tho. like i remember when i cryed for joy over things or when i cried of thinking i did something wrong in the relationship like not showing you how much i liked the gift you gave me.. but there were negatives.. you stood me up.you didnt believe me.you went against me.you said things about me. i also said things about u. im not perfect not in the slightesr there are so many things i wish i could take back things i did things i said I FEEL SO BAD. but with this new year im going to try and forget it all and just move on wiht ymlife because it just wasnt meant to be and i need to get over it. daniel i really really liked you i felt like i could talk to you for hours about anything. but you dumped me and that shattered my heart it was unexpected i never thought but it happened and thast something ill never forgive you just gave up and i was willing to fight thats why i wont be back together. youll just leave again when things get hard then ill look lstupid and i be a mess all over again. bye daniel i think i loved you but idk what love is so idk bye :/

i regret confessing. i should've just kept my feelings to myself until i actually knew what they meant. now we're stuck in this distant relationship that i'm too scared to end in fear of hurting you. i'm sorry. i hope you move and forget about me soon.

You showed me that letting people into my life can be painful but it is worth all the pain. I really hope we can be friends.

Hola.

¿Te encuentras mejor ahora? Ahora que estas lejos mio, dentro de la oscuridad del amanecer y columna del opaco limbo, ¿te sientes mejor que antes? ¿Que te orillo a hacer eso? Te extraño, cariño, te extraño mucho. Esta navidad sera oscura sin ti, pero tranquilo, ya lo decidi, pronto ire contigo. Solo esperame hasta que cumpla 27 años de edad e ire contigo, a tu lado, como siempre quisimos. Te extraño, mi soulmate, quiero llorar por no tenerte a mi lado mas. Te hubiera aprovechado hasta entonces, al saber que eras edicion limitada, tal vez hubiera dado todo de mi para conservarte a mi lado. Tu estabas mal, lo se, tenias el mundo hecho pedazos y me lo mostraste pegado, dame tu mano en mis sueños porque tengo miedo de perderme. Hoy mi madre me vio sonreir, aprendi a sonreir como tu fingias hacerlo frente mio, estoy rota, lo se, pero te tengo conmigo, eso es lo unico que me importa por ahora. Mañana ire a la azotea y admirare tu brillo alucinante, promete cuidarte hasta entonces, ¿Vale?





Atte_Dess

I just wish you loved me; the way I loved you. I love you my little baby bear; but I hate you so much too

You were the first to ever see more, I trusted you... even loved you. But you only saw me as another option. My first heartbreak.

you don’t know how in love i am with you. thank you for being so perfect. maybe one day:)
-josephine valentina

my love, you will always be my first. please know i won’t ever forget you and i hope you don’t forget me

you know how much i loved you and i realize i
need to let go but why did you do me like that after everything we've been through now you do everything w her that i begged for i wouldve done anything for you

i keep thinking i don't miss you, but then i do. i'm talking to someone new now and i thought i was over you but you keep popping up in my mind. i compare everyone to you. and no one is ever good enough. i just want the person you were a few months ago back. i know we're technically on good terms now but i wish it were better. i still believe you're the one for me and i don't know when or if i'll stop.

you promised you would never leave. no matter what. you said we were going to get married. what happened.

i hate you for what you did to me. you have no right to do what you did that night.
and i hate myself even more bc i still love you.

do you remember that homecoming dance i made you go to? you told me you went home and cried because that was the first time you had ever been hugged. thank you for going w me by the way, i had the best time. i wish i would have kissed you though. i know you don't believe in soulmates but i do and in this life, we are soulmates. when we first met and sat across each other in science, our teacher said something stupid and we looked up at each other and started laughing was when i felt it, because out of all the people in that room, we looked at each other. i had known you about a week then and three years later i remember that moment so clearly. i wish i knew why you chose her. i wish i knew why you gave up on me. i never once thought about giving up on you, even now, i'm still waiting, but i think i might have to wait forever. i'm not what you want anymore and that's okay, i just hope you can find someone who makes you feel the way you make me feel. i wish you'd see this but i know you never will. i love you nerd, can't wait to see you in another life. hopefully we can do it right this time :')

why did you let your girlfriend come between our friendship. just because you love her doesn't mean you have to drop everyone. i miss you. its been day 300 or so, i hope you're proud. its hard. i hope you're okay. i'm sorry.

i know you don't believe in this stuff, but i know we're soulmates and in another lifetime, we made it

I wish I never told you how I felt, knowing now that you didn't feel the same way. Yeah, I wish I was correct about how you felt but I was wrong and I understand. I just want my best friend back. I hate drifting from you. I've never met anyone like you. I'm sorry that I ever hurt you or took out my anger on you for stupid things. Love you, XI.IV.MMI

u ruined love for me. u made me feel like I had to be naked for a boy to respect me. now I let boys use my body

we never dated but we weren't just friends, and i know you feel the same. All i know is that you took a piece of me that i wont get back, please, please take care of it.

you helped make me who i am today and im very grateful for that but you were a dick and used me and i feel so fucking stupid that i didnt see that sooner.

I never called you by your name. It’s been over a year now. I still cry almost every day. I still don’t understand anything. Just when I think things are better something happens and I realize they aren’t. It’s so hard to realize life is about the things that are real. But the people involved can be so broken that they hurt each other. Realizing I was the problem. Realizing I hurt you. These days my biggest hope is counting down the days of this life. Hoping the next one I’ll have a chance to make it right.

I am finally over you. Im so proud of myself. It may have taken a year but I finally dont feel anything for you. No love, no hate. Just peace. I sometimes still think about you. You were my first love, of course Ill always think about you. We should have just stayed friends from the beginning. Us being together was so toxic and we were better as friends. I miss the feeling that you gave me and I look for it in everyone. I dont know how to have a relationship anymore caus I always think that the way I felt with you is the way im supposed to feel when I love someone, and maybe it isnt supposed to feel like that with everyone, but I wish it did so that I could find my person. I hope you are doing good.

I know our relationship was a pathetic year 7 one, but even still, 2 years later, i realise i should've never let go. I still haven't really. I would give anything just for you to feel the way you did back then, now.

You loved me in June, I love you in July, we started a streak, you got mad, you got a girlfriend, I got mad, I blocked u, u friended me, I accepted, your still with her and I’m just here being supportive :)...

Hey daniel i really wish you the best but this is the last time you’ll be hearing from me. Take care :)

you hate my guts but i’m still in love with you and i always will be. what we had was so incredibly special to me and i wish i could tell you that. i hope you have the life we always talked about having together. i love you

you hate my guts but i’m still in love with you and i always will be. what we had was so incredibly special to me and i wish i could tell you that. i hope you have the life we always talked about having together. i love you

De repente me gustaste, no entendía cómo pero lo hiciste, después me enamoré de ti, poco a poco, de tus chistes tontos, tus abrazos que lograron aliviar mis tristezas, tus silencios. Eres y creo q serás siempre importante para mi.
Aun no me creo q escriba esto porque me costo aceptarlo y aun no se porque?, por que de todas las personas q existen me enamoré de ti.
No espero q leas esto, en realidad Quisiera q nunca lo hicieras, te conozco, me conoces, no somos compatibles; si fuéramos polos magnéticos seríamos negativos.Te quiero porque además eres un amigo genial, aveces duele no decirte lo que siento pero se q no eres para mi.... quizás en otra vida ?