Unsent messages to DANIEL

i know you’re with someone else right now and i know that our past relationship hasn’t been easy but i really feel like you’re my soulmate and our story isn’t over yet, once i turn 18 i hope everything changes and i want you to know that i hate you sm and i want you to be happy so i am going to work on myself everyday so that i can get you back?

I wish I could let go of all the pain you and I both caused. When I think of the good memories, I regret ending it, but I know it was for the best. You changed in so many ways, I barely recognize you. I miss the old you that I initially fell for. I wish we could go back in time to when it first went wrong. I wish I could fix us. I miss you so much.

It's funny how I can look at you now and feel nothing, even when you were once so important to me. I still haven't forgotten what you did.

I caught feelings when you flirted and played with me that first day we started talking again. Then, we just went with being friends, yet I still liked you. I hurt physically and emotionally after I fucked things up, but then I found out who you really are. It’s sad that I feel this way, but I’d still go back to you. But you were too good to be true. I fell in love with the painting but not the painter.

you broke me in every way possible and knowing this you still kept pulling me back in. i loved you so much i thought you could change so i went back but nothing hurt more then you leaving for good. i’ll never forget that broken little girl you turned me into bc she’s still apart of me but now i know i’m better then you’ll ever be

I wish I knocked on your door before you took your own life two days later. You weren't enough for yourself, so nobody else came close. I didn't try hard enough for you. I'm so sorry Dan, I miss you like crazy.

i think i could love you my whole life. but i'd rather be your best friend and help you love someone else than risk losing you.

I have no idea where you are in life. I think I still love you, maybe, if you're the same person. But I'm sure you've matured, and that's good. I miss you and I hope our paths cross again

i think about our time together before you left and it makes me feel numb knowing that i’ll never like anybody as much as i liked you. we cuddled and stayed up late telling each other deep shit and after you left i didn’t even get a text back. we became strangers.

i've always been so scared of ruining what we had that i missed my opportunity. i hope in another time we could've been different.

The last thing I want to do is end things between us but I’m suffering knowing u don’t feel the way I do and you don’t want a relationship it breaks my heart I can’t say no to u so this is hard for me. All I’ve ever wanted for u was u to be happy I hope we come back together

After so long, why are you the one I still think about at night? I told myself you weren't the one, and you told me that too. I'm starting to think they were both lies.

It’s true what someone once said to me; that only new love can cure an old one. I will be getting married again soon.

We were married once and now don‘t even know each other anymore. What happened to all of our promises?

I am aware that you are dating a goddess. I love you as my idol.
Please take care.
Take care of your girlfriend as well.

Thank you so much for this night! I still care about you, I really do. I wish you knew. I'm sorry if it sometimes looks like I ignore you, but in fact my heart was bumping all the time around you. In a very longtime nothing made me more excited or even happy than the possibility to spend some time with you tonight. I think I have noticed some hints from you, but I was afraid to react. Please, don't give up, I still think of you. I really care, so much. Just call me out again.

You’ll never see this but I think you’re very cute :) and I’m glad I decided to go to the Starbucks across my work before my shift started :))

We made each other a better person but it wasn't the right time yet... But one day I'm gonna marry u, I just know it.

It was always a friendship kind of love, but now we’re strangers again and all those times are gone...

Im so greatful I met you, I hope you know how much you mean to me. Sad that we both stopped trying. I miss you.

why didn’t you just fucking do it. i’m sorry, but that was your fault and i’ll never take accountability for the things YOU did. i was always there for you and you still did it and made me feel like shit about it

my god i love you so much baby. every night i fall asleep with a smile on my face, thinking about our future together. i cannot wait to marry you, the love of my life, one day

I wish that you made me feel like I was enough. I'm tired of hurting and wishing that you would change.

I thought I had a chance with you, last year but then you ended up with a girlfriend, and when you broke it off with her I thought my chance with you was coming back, but now you’ve patched me for the second time, and now you have a girlfriend again. I hope you’re happy with her, because I won’t be there for you next time something doesn’t work out .

You introduced me to your new girlfriend and then told me that u still love me. Please let me go, it hurts.

I can’t believe I really thought we could’ve been something. Thank god you showed your true colors before it was too late.

I wish we met when we were ready for each other... who knows, maybe we will. Until then you'll always be my favourite "almost"

It's been nine months and I still think of you. I sometimes question whether you truly had feelings for me but I know that it wouldn't matter if I knew. I wish things worked out between us.