Unsent Messages

do you remember that homecoming dance i made you go to? you told me you went home and cried because that was the first time you had ever been hugged. thank you for going w me by the way, i had the best time. i wish i would have kissed you though. i know you don't believe in soulmates but i do and in this life, we are soulmates. when we first met and sat across each other in science, our teacher said something stupid and we looked up at each other and started laughing was when i felt it, because out of all the people in that room, we looked at each other. i had known you about a week then and three years later i remember that moment so clearly. i wish i knew why you chose her. i wish i knew why you gave up on me. i never once thought about giving up on you, even now, i'm still waiting, but i think i might have to wait forever. i'm not what you want anymore and that's okay, i just hope you can find someone who makes you feel the way you make me feel. i wish you'd see this but i know you never will. i love you nerd, can't wait to see you in another life. hopefully we can do it right this time :')