Unsent messages to DAD
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: August 10, 2023, 7:19 pm UTC
why cant you just listen to me, im not stupid
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: August 10, 2023, 10:55 am UTC
i wish you were here to see me grow up.
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: August 9, 2023, 8:52 am UTC
I know you never will, but i wish you saw me as your daughter.
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: August 6, 2023, 12:32 pm UTC
i just wish you could see all the things i’m doing
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: August 6, 2023, 12:24 am UTC
I wish you had cared more about me. i wish you had stayed.
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: August 5, 2023, 8:47 pm UTC
you're not who i wanted you to be.
i wanted to love you.
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: August 4, 2023, 5:09 pm UTC
dont know how much longer i can take it .
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: August 4, 2023, 5:06 pm UTC
i miss you so much already. i wish you were still here.
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: August 3, 2023, 1:38 am UTC
i’ve realized i’m
becoming you and that scares me.
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: August 2, 2023, 4:46 am UTC
I forgive you. I forget its your first life too.
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: August 2, 2023, 12:44 am UTC
If I’m your favourite then why do you shout at me all the time?
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: August 1, 2023, 12:12 am UTC
i miss you, but i never will tell you that.
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: July 31, 2023, 2:19 pm UTC
A daughter should not have to beg her father for a relationship.
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: July 31, 2023, 11:35 am UTC
I’m sorry I don’t live up to ur expectations and wishes
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: July 28, 2023, 12:49 am UTC
I love you, but I get so burnt out being around you </3
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: July 22, 2023, 3:52 am UTC
I’m sorry you could never love me the way you wanted to
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: July 19, 2023, 10:02 pm UTC
Since you left, everything has gotten worse.
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: July 19, 2023, 7:14 pm UTC
i forgive. youre trying your best. i’m sorry.
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: July 19, 2023, 4:58 pm UTC
i wish i could have saved you. i should've died instead of you.
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: July 19, 2023, 4:55 am UTC
i hate that you didn't chose me over your addiction.
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: July 16, 2023, 8:13 pm UTC
I love you but you broke my heart before any boy could
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: January 18, 2021, 8:35 am UTC
I miss you and J so much, i’m sorry for everything and I wish i could fix it all, i hope to see you soon..
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: January 18, 2021, 7:45 am UTC
i wish you put in more effort. i almost feel like you're scared of me sometimes, i know you love me and want to see me more but you never try...why is that?? i love you a lot i don't want you to feel like i hate you. you did some fucked up shit that i can never forgive you for but you're still my dad and i love you so much. i just don't understand why my mom wasn't enough, she was nothing but nice and was there for you through the worst part in your life and you treated her like shit, and you always lie to people and make her out to be the bad guy and leave me to defend her. i wish you knew better, i miss us being a family.
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: January 18, 2021, 1:38 am UTC
listening to sky full of stars knowing the last time it’s going to be played will be at ur funeral, it breaks my heart.
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: January 17, 2021, 7:05 am UTC
I lived in fear that you would hurt her for that when she left school she would come running, I will never forgive what you did, the only thing that stayed in my childhood were trauma. Fuck you, Dad.
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: January 16, 2021, 2:24 am UTC
This isn't really
"my first love" cause ur my dad and it'd be weird lol. but I know you care about me dad but you're showing it very badly. i know you don't like it when I leave messes around the house but that was my art project that you threw at me. i know I can put it back together easily but it hurt when you threw it. you didn't even notice that it looked like a guitar, one of your favourite instruments. you just threw it at me like garbage. goodbye dad. I'm sorry.
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: January 15, 2021, 7:30 am UTC
Why was it so hard for you to love me? I was just a kid. I had nobody to keep me safe. I did nothing wrong.
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: January 14, 2021, 10:21 pm UTC
I know you love me with every cell of your body, but why did you have to be so selfish and cause me so much pain? I feel bad for being mad
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: January 14, 2021, 7:20 pm UTC
you ruined my life. i’m scared to turn out like you, you don’t know what you did to me and you never will. i can’t do anything anymore i can’t love and i can’t even live because of you i’m so sick of it you make me want to die you make me want to just disapear. i hate you
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: January 14, 2021, 12:26 pm UTC
why did you have to break my trust so many times? i know addiction is hard n i know this sounds selfish, but why were me n A not enough for you? why was mum enough to keep you clean, but we weren't? i love you and i don't know how i'm going to cope when you're gone, but i hate you for leaving me when im only young. I just wish i could have been enough.
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: January 14, 2021, 3:28 am UTC
i should have hit you up when i found you again, but i held my pride too high and now i will never know our ending
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: January 13, 2021, 11:50 pm UTC
I knew you always wanted a boy. But why couldn’t you have At least acted like you loved me for who I am?
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: January 13, 2021, 9:50 am UTC
please don't be so hard on yourself. not everything is your fault. i forgive you for the mistakes you have made in the past. i love you, so many people love you. i love you so much
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: January 12, 2021, 5:30 pm UTC
fuck u for putting me through more shit even after you watched me struggle with what mum put me through
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: January 12, 2021, 12:43 pm UTC
i keep thinking that one day it will hurt less. i miss you every day. but i also can’t stop thinking about the fact that you chose joints over raising your daughters. who’s going to walk me down the aisle?
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: January 11, 2021, 11:08 pm UTC
why can’t you just give me a hug when i’m down instead of streaming at me calling me lazy and useless and threaten to send me to a mental hospital. why do you love him more then us. why aren’t I enough. I try so hard to do well in everything just to hope to hear you tell me you’re proud of me. why can’t we talk about them. why do you scream all the time. can you really not find another way of talking to us. I know you miss him. so do I. why do you take you stress from everyone else in the family out on me. what do I do wrong. instead of making snarky comments about me leaving my “cave” for the first time in days, not sleeping and being too fat but then complain when I don’t finish my plate maybe just ask why. why can’t you see that i’m dying inside. why did you do that to me as a kid. why do you fuck with my head like you do. why do you hate us. why can’t you be a real dad. why don’t you love me
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: January 11, 2021, 5:15 pm UTC
i hate the way you make me feel unsafe in my own home, the way you raise your voice at litte things, the threats, the way you manipulate me, the way you downplay my feelings thoughts and traumas, when you come to close to me, i hate it all, i hate you for making me feel this way about someone who is supposed to protect and love me. i hate the way i see the men i work with as my father figures they laugh and joke with me and check up on how im doing. i hate it.
From: ABC
To: dad
Date: January 10, 2021, 2:32 pm UTC
I miss you. Its scary to think that im going to celebrate another birthday without you. I still love you. I just hope you didnt lie to me this whole time.
