Unsent messages to DAD

you broke my heart before any boy could but i still love you, even if it is from half way across the world now.

i know all you ever wanted was a daughter. i wish we had more time together. i love you & im sorry

i will never forgive you for how you were when i was little. you can stop trying so hard, it won't work.

i know you're trying and i know you've changed but even the slightest bit that you show from the past terrifies me. I can't even stand a 5 minute phone call with you. I'm sorry that im scared of you and that you have to find out things through insurance companies.

why did you never put us first, why were we not good enough for you, why did you never spend time with us. even though you left, there is still a big part of me who loves and misses you, i hope your new family makes you happier, and i hope you have a second chance to spend with your new kids
- your daughter who deserved better

i can't listen to our song hey there delilah anymore because it reminds me of what our relationship once was. -your child that you neglected

I miss you so fucking much and I'm sorry I wasn't the daughter you deserved. I hope you are in a better place now

you fucked up the way i look at myself and my trust for guys. just hope you know how much you broke me

i held your shirt and cried last night. I cant help but remember when I thought you were a good person. I wish i could be crying because I miss you, but im crying because i dont. I should miss you, as your daughter i should miss you, but you make it so fucking hard.

i hate you so much, but it breaks my heart that when I walked past you, you didn't even recognised me

beacuse of you i love to easily, i trust too much, i try to see the good everyone no matter how much they fucked me over. I get happy over the slightest affection. My expectations are low because of you, because i had no one to compare. I was supposed to be your princess, your everything, but you didn't choose me.

I feel empty. I know you are trying to be a better dad but its hard when you aren't around and everyone else's dad is. I still love you even if I don't say it.

i love you so much. i could tell you anything without even thinking about it and i know you’d have my back.

i hate that you're such a liar. i hate that i have to feel this way about someone who i should feel nothing but love for. you make me angry. you make me sad. and when you make me happy it makes me regret the way i think when you treat me like absolute shit. you're nothing but a con and a manipulator. i don't even know how i've been able to put up with you for this long

I’m sorry i spent my whole childhood angry with you. It makes sense now why you always liked him more.

Why did you spend all your time drinking? I needed a father, but you weren’t there. Now it’s too late. You made me this way. You colossally fucked me up.

I'm sorry I can't help you. I know I can, but I can't and I don't know why. It feels like i barely know you, but I know u need me. I know you've changed but it feels like you haven't been my dad for years. I know that you are trying to be one now, but I don't know how to be your daughter. I don't know what to say to you. I'm scared that you'll leave me and it'll be my fault. I know that you don't have any hope and I don't know how to tell you that you do. I forgive you, and I'm sorry.

A girls first love is supposed to be the love for her father. But you broke my heart over and over and it hurts more and more everyday because I miss you. But I hate you now and yeah..

I haven't seen you in 6 years wow the time has gone fast, I can't see you yet because my mum haven't let me and my brother see you, But I just want to tell you I am an Lesbian so basically if you don't know what that means, It means I like girls, I hope you support me as you mean a lot to me but if You don't I'll be fine I've been without you for 6.

i miss you so much. you didn’t care to be a father until i got old enough and realized you weren’t really around like everyone tried to make me feel like you were. you should’ve came around before i realized it on my own because i’ll never look at you or any other man the same. i really do miss you dad.

I wish I spent longer on the phone 20th sept 2009. I was watching Wall-E, every time that film comes on I think of what I’ve missed out on.

i’m so sorry i took everything good you did for me for granted in the moment. i regret it so much sometimes. but i don’t miss you...

you are worst kind of person and i hate you for what you did but hate even more that i still love you

you prioritize your friends more than you're own family. you're always with them when we need you the most. you're not a fucking teenager anymore. fuck you and your friends, they can go to hell with you.

you broke me heart before anyone else could. i wish you cared for me like i did for you when i was a child. i just wish you loved me. now i can’t feel a thing.

technically you and mom were my first loves so here we go. I miss you more and more everyday and all i want is just one more hug ???

i'm terrified to walk down the aisle alone, i wish i had more time with you, and i could KNOW that you're proud of me instead of hearing that automatic response from strangers

You hurt me and you keep doing it and every time it’s worse every apology gets less and less genuine I’m stuck in a vicious cycle your so toxic but I have to stay cause your family

I wish you cared enough about me. I wish you wouldn’t hurt me...i’m just waiting till i’m 18 so i never have to see you again

dad
i love you so much. you are the type of person i want to marry when i’m older. the way you love mom is so admirable and impressive. you are the most understanding, passionate, smart, funny person. seriously you have it all. i wouldn’t change anything about you (or mom!)

I miss you and I can't wait to see you soon in heaven. I hope you're the happiest up there. I love you.

I wished you and mom divorced like you kept saying and that i didn't had to see you never again. I guess money is much more important than happiness for you all but i never felt so low

Dad, i freaking miss you every day. You lost your battle to bipolar depression but you were the strongest person i ever met. Hope you’re having a blast in heaven:) love you forever and always

who ever said you're first heart break had to be someone you're in love with when haven took you i lost apart myself too.