i wish you put in more effort. i almost feel like you're scared of me sometimes, i know you love me and want to see me more but you never try...why is that?? i love you a lot i don't want you to feel like i hate you. you did some fucked up shit that i can never forgive you for but you're still my dad and i love you so much. i just don't understand why my mom wasn't enough, she was nothing but nice and was there for you through the worst part in your life and you treated her like shit, and you always lie to people and make her out to be the bad guy and leave me to defend her. i wish you knew better, i miss us being a family.