How could you leave me the way you did and come back into my life like it was nothing? You hurt me every day. Why can't you accept me? Why aren't you proud of me? Why am I not good enough? You've already hurt me enough. Why do you hurt me? Why do you not love me?

i wish you and mom would´ve taught me how to be more outgoing with my feelings, because now i´m just like you

no, i didn´t choose to like girls.
I wish you would accept me more, and not only pretend. I´m sorry i can´t say i love you easily, its just that u never told me that, and i guess i never learned how to.

i really want to say that i love you, because i do, but you never told me you love me so i guess i never learned how to say it to you. I really want to hear you say that you are proud of me, because i am proud of myself for staying

I know you love me with every cell of your body, but why did you have to be so selfish and cause me so much pain? I feel bad for being mad

fuck you, you fucking pedophille you ruined me then you ruined my life and i never even told them what you did to me. i hope this kills you bitch

I love you very much, dad. you became dear to me when at the age of 5 you began to call me your "dear" daughter. I was very glad that you got married with my mother a year ago. but you hurt me when you divorced and didn't tell me about it. I wish I had time to spend so much time with you, because now I don't have that chance. I am very angry with you. I'm very angry with my mom. I cry every time, remembering you, but I am glad that you made me happy for at least a year. thank you

i miss you so much. you didn’t care to be a father until i got old enough and realized you weren’t really around like everyone tried to make me feel like you were. you should’ve came around before i realized it on my own because i’ll never look at you or any other man the same. i really do miss you dad.

You said you just can’t have family so you left..then why do you have one now?? What did they do that I didn’t.

you really messed me up. I want to forgive you but the though of you breaks me. I can't think about you without crying. You really hurt me :/

I never thought you would move on from mom so fast. And god do you have to choose someone who has her name.

hey. it's been 5 years since you left this earth and somehow it feels like forever ago. i wish i could just be in your arms one more time

I haven't seen you in 6 years wow the time has gone fast, I can't see you yet because my mum haven't let me and my brother see you, But I just want to tell you I am an Lesbian so basically if you don't know what that means, It means I like girls, I hope you support me as you mean a lot to me but if You don't I'll be fine I've been without you for 6.

hey. i dont know how to feel. part of me wants to forgive you and get to say i love you one more time and another part of me says i should never forgive you for everything. i dont think you ever even apologized to me once. not even when you made me cry on halloween in 2017. or when you would throw things, like the time you flipped over our recliner and the time you broke a broom trying to get to our dog. you terrified me. sometimes i can still smell you or hear you yelling my name. its so hard to remember your face. i can stare at pictures for hours but once im not looking i cant picture you at all. i dont remember hardly any of our few good times together. you were either there and yelling and throwing things, there and silent, playing video games or huddled away in your room sleeping. sometimes i wonder if you ever laid a hand to me. i dont remember. its been a while since i laid and cried and cried until my eyes were swollen and my throat raw, wishing i could trade places with you. i remember our last conversation. a phone call. i was upset about something, not sure what. you asked and i said i just wanted you home because you'd been in the hospital for days now. you said you would come home soon. that's not what i meant. i wanted you home alive, back to me and the dogs. now im crying again. id give anything to have you back even after all you did. i never got to say goodbye. im sorry i wasnt a better daughter. i miss krista. i hope you guys are together somewhere. you were the least worst when you were with her. i hope im not letting you down. im sorry that i like girls. i know you would hate that.

Why was it so hard for you to love me? I was just a kid. I had nobody to keep me safe. I did nothing wrong.

A girls first love is supposed to be the love for her father. But you broke my heart over and over and it hurts more and more everyday because I miss you. But I hate you now and yeah..

I don't understand why you leave me when your only job was to stay i still love you and miss you your only daughter.

you somehow hurt me almost every day, i did nothing to you. i can't wait to move in w my man and leave ur ass.

I'm sorry I can't help you. I know I can, but I can't and I don't know why. It feels like i barely know you, but I know u need me. I know you've changed but it feels like you haven't been my dad for years. I know that you are trying to be one now, but I don't know how to be your daughter. I don't know what to say to you. I'm scared that you'll leave me and it'll be my fault. I know that you don't have any hope and I don't know how to tell you that you do. I forgive you, and I'm sorry.

why did you ruin my chance to trust the men that come into my life. you not only cheated on my mum but me too.

i told you i never want to grow up becoming a parent like you when i’m older and you said to me later that’s the worst thing anyone’s ever said to you, but imagine how it made me feel to envy all of my friends dads because when they shout at them it seems so calm. i hate you but i love you and i’m glad i see you everyday but i hope you know that i will never trust a man in my life because of what you did to my mother and every other mistress who believes you loved them. i’m sorry we had such a curruot relationship but this ones on you dad. i love you but your the reason i’m toxic x

Why did you spend all your time drinking? I needed a father, but you weren’t there. Now it’s too late. You made me this way. You colossally fucked me up.

thanks. thanks so much for everything you do. but cmon. holding in all the anger about your family and using it whenever i make a little mistake? i’m a kid you said it yourself. i’ll always be your kid no matter how old i am. i’m not stupid. i’m not an asshole or a bitch or mean because i know myself. words can’t hurt me even if i really really want them to. i won’t let them.

This isn't really
"my first love" cause ur my dad and it'd be weird lol. but I know you care about me dad but you're showing it very badly. i know you don't like it when I leave messes around the house but that was my art project that you threw at me. i know I can put it back together easily but it hurt when you threw it. you didn't even notice that it looked like a guitar, one of your favourite instruments. you just threw it at me like garbage. goodbye dad. I'm sorry.

you've fucked up my whole life i just wish you could control your anger and not hurt me. i hate you so fucking much. i used to look up to you but i will never ever again.

why did u walk out of the door that day? did you know what you were doing? You ruined everything, everything. I will never be the same because you chose alcohol over me. It hurts because you were the only person i cared about. I will never forgive you for ruining my life dad.

You have ruined my life you say you don’t wanna fight anymore and then you do you said I promise I’m not gna do anything and then you would. You didn’t care at all what you were doing to us. The Shit I’ve seen and no one knows cause they think I was asleep I hate you so much YKU think by giving me money ur being a good dad ur not nothing you do will ever make up for what you did and are still doing I really hope you die cause you deserve it when I’m older I’m gna make sure your life is hell cause no way you get to get away with things the issues you left me with

I’m sorry i spent my whole childhood angry with you. It makes sense now why you always liked him more.

I wish you were an actual dad and I wish you didn't leave me and I hate myself for still loving you after all you put me through

I never got to hear the last words on your brain before you took your life. I’m sorry I wasn’t there enough. I’m sorry life was too much. I love you. -you’re my angel now.

you put so much pressure on me. your expectations are too high & it makes me hate myself. I want to follow my dreams but you wouldn't let me because you'd rather want me to chase the dreams you couldn't follow. why cant you use ever be proud of me? or tell me that you love me?

Dear dad, f*** you b***** You’re the reason of EVERYTHING that goes on in my life i swear to f****** god i hate you so so so so much you ruined everything you a*******

Hey dad. You don't known me but I'm your daughter. I know it's stupid to ask but, why did you leave. I get you were 20 and a baby is a whole new form of responsibility but...why. I still don't know who you are, I don't even think you want to know me but I grew up with men pretending they were you until mum finally told me "he" wasn't my dad. You are. I never had a good relationship with any of mums boyfriends, I hated them all. She's married now and I have a baby sister. Even though you left. Eventhough I know you don't care, I wish you had stayed. I feel like my life would of been different. I wouldn't blame mum for everything or give her such a hard time. We nearly lost her last year. You didn't even need to meet me, a birthday card would have been nice. Or just an explanation why. I think about it. A lot. Mum says I'm like you and I remind her of you, which sucks because she doesn't like looking at me sometimes I think because I look like you. I wish you had stayed. I wish I could meet you and find out this is all some big misunderstanding and you want a relationship with me but my hopes for that are starting to leave. I'm sorry for whatever I did. I hope I meet you in the future, your daughter.

I miss u I wish I could say u the last goodbye, it’s being really hard since u r gone , I’m sorry for that but I exhausted

I always thought you were the good guy i always defended you until i grew up and figured out you were the bad one all along

You never change do you I hope you know how deeply you scared I am because of you. I used to look forward to doing “Daddy daughter day” now I don’t want to even sit next to you. I am scared to have kids because I fear I’ll turn into a parent like you.

this isn’t a love letter. but i’m hurt. i’m tired. please take into consideration my feelings. i’m done with life. why don’t you care about me? i just want to be cared for as your daughter. i try so hard.

Sometimes i don't understand you but that's fine. I just want to be good enough for you and I think, most of the time I am.

i miss you. more than anything in the whole entire world. i wish people stayed on this earth forever. i wish i could’ve spent more time with you. i wish i knew you would be gone. i wish i appreciated you more. i wish i said i love you more. if anyone is reading this please go hug your parents. i miss you dad, wish you were here.

i hate that you're such a liar. i hate that i have to feel this way about someone who i should feel nothing but love for. you make me angry. you make me sad. and when you make me happy it makes me regret the way i think when you treat me like absolute shit. you're nothing but a con and a manipulator. i don't even know how i've been able to put up with you for this long

I never imagined our relationship to turn this rocky, I always thought it was my fault. Not anymore, thank you.

I lived in fear that you would hurt her for that when she left school she would come running, I will never forgive what you did, the only thing that stayed in my childhood were trauma. Fuck you, Dad.

imagine being so threatened by ur daughter's swag you tell her you'd sign her rights to you away. u have some fragile swag levels bitch

why am I always second choice. im your daughter not a stranger I hate you, thanks for the toxic traits really appreciate it

I hate you so much but still love you, I don’t know how to act around you anymore I feel like you don’t want me

I wish you knew how badly I want a strong healthy relationship with you. I know people say to forgive and forget, but I can not forgive you for the way you have hurt me and I will never forget the nights I've spent crying over how lonely the world feels. God knows I fight through every broken promise, every single one of my worst days with no one by my side. With no one to listen and understand how hard I fight. I'm struggling to find reasons to wake up in the morning. I'm sorry.

I miss you dad I’ll always be your little girl...I promise I’ll come visit you when I can you mean the world to me...only being able to see you once a week hurts dad it really hurts...

I love you. I wish you would just calm down. I wish that switch was gone. Because of you im scared to have children. I dont want them to be scared of me, I dont want to traumatize them. I know you work hard and i know your dad raised you this way but now im damaged. Now i have that anger that can easily be poured out. And I hate it. I have your anxiety and anger issues wtf. Why couldnt you just use protection if it was gonna be like this. Fuck you. You always manipulated me into feeling bad. I fucking hate you.

I can’t wait till the day I can leave you in the past. That last goodbye will be so bittersweet, and it’s I want.

i’m sorry i never noticed your pain. i’m sorry i never tried to help. i’m sorry i was such a crazy kid that drove you insane. i’m sorry for making your life even more stressful. i miss you