Unsent messages to CHRIS

i like you. i’ve been in love with you ever since the first week i met you. its been 2 years and i cant get you out of my mind. i wish i could confess my feelings. i wish u liked me back

I liked you for awhile and you seemed to be uninterested in me. But then you got interested in me after a few weeks I got over you. I’m glad I moved on.

You weren't ready and I think I understand now. I just wish we made it through. I still love you with my whole heart.

i was in love w u. u were the first person ive ever fallen in love w. but ik u don’t give a s*** about me.

I just now realize that I was stuck with the idea that I loved you, not because I did, but because i convinced myself that I did, because it made sense when nothing in my life did.

I just now realize that I was stuck with the idea that I loved you, not because I did, but because i convinced myself that I did, because it made sense when nothing in my life did.

We met on an older chat site. We exchanged numbers and constantly talked... I loved you. I loved all of you, it's been almost 9+ years and I am still in love with you. I hate that I am still in love with you. You are holding me back but I wish we could talk one last time. I remember the voice mail you sent me telling me you loved me... I tried texting your number but it wasn't your number anymore. It wasn't... Anymore. And all I wanted to tell you one last time that I miss you and I love you... You dorky little smile and the picture you sent me still lingers around my head. I painted it and I felt ashamed but sue me. You were my muse. I miss you still. I hope you see this...

i've always felt something about you and the second I recognize it, you start drifting away. and ofc you get closer to her.and now come to think of it the only reason we were close in the first place was for me to help out because you liked her. but even then I had some hope that you liked me because you did ruin a potential thing that could have happened between me and some guy and everyone said that the only reason could be because you liked me. Anyways I wanted to get all these feelings and thoughts off of my chest just at the start of the year, so I can look back and see where I am with this, because I still like you and I have been seeing nothing but signs pointing to us having a relationship in the future. so hopefully that actually happens and I can come back and look at this. But yea, usually with every guy that I have ever liked its always been her. so maybe now that you tried and realized that there was no hope with her you start to take notice how I am always there for you and how we relate and get along so well. Anyways hope to write back to you soon updating whatever happens between us. 1156

i loved you so much and i hate that you moved on so fast. i can't move on and forget about you but I'm trying. i love you but I'm not in love with you. i know you still love me because i would've been moving on by now and energy never lies.

I was so attached that I couldn’t see how much you were hurting me. Everyone wanted me to break it off. I’m glad it happened because it’s a learning experience and it wasn’t all bad but you’re the reason for my trust issues, I deserved so much better chris I was so good to you and you know it and so does your brother and your mum and your dad. You fucked me up.

ill never truly move on from you, but it’s best for both of us that i try. you’re the one that ended it first, but i’ll take some of the blame for shutting down all of the other tries that we had. i don’t need you as much as i thought i did. i found someone so much better than you, and i know it. but deep down i know that you were one of my first true loves and im just not capable of fully letting you go. this is the last time i’ll ever talk about you, this message is a way for me to say goodbye. i won’t miss you, despite what i said about never truly moving on i’m glad we broke up. fuck you.

I’m sorry we don’t talk anymore. I hope you find somebody who will understand you..cause I sure did not, but I pretended I did and acted as somebody I wasn’t to make you feel better. Sorry.

lol you were amazing :) we used to stay up until 4 am playing roblox together. just wish it could've lasted longer. have fun with angelina.

why do you act like you care about me when we both know u dont. all my friends tell me to block u but ive always defended ur name. what are we? and ur girl best friend has a total crush for u which is embarrassing tbh considering u would talk the most shit about her back when she did us bad. just open up to me bubs

I wish forever was really forever. You taught me to never be in a long distance relationship but you showed me how strong love can be, even if we’re 1,000 miles apart. I pray you come back to me later in this lifetime. I pray you find your way back home, even if home isn’t me. When I graduate, I will make sure to send you the photos. I love you, stay in touch. ?

I may have moved on but I still think about you on a daily basis and you were my first real love and I’ve never forgotten you

Yea, I hate to admit it, but I smiled when Lisa mixed our names together into a ship name. I really like you, Doof.

I don’t think you’ll ever get it... I’ve been in love with you for 5 years. I was straight until I met you and now I question everything. Even though I lied to you and said I forced feelings for you, I was just saving face. I either want to be with you or be able to move on. So please, tell me your feelings or give me closure. But you’ll never even see this.

Lamento no estar ahí cuando lo necesitas, es dificil ver esto y no poder hacer nada. Por favor, que la distancia disminuya

Hey chris. God I never even got ur second name but I’m sorry for the way I treated u it wasn’t fair on you at all. I don’t think I really loved you until I realised we were drifting and I wasn’t ready to tell you that because of how things turned out. I understand I should have told you sooner and I couldn’t be any more sorry for that. I hope ur doing well and doing the things u want to do

i wish we could've stayed friends even after breaking up. you were the only person who i could talk to about everything. i just wish you didn't have to block me on everything... i love you and i'm sorry for being the reason for your sadness.

I'm sorry I couldn't commit. I fell in love with you and those crystal blue eyes. I feel apart of me will always love you. You were the first and last guy that treated me with respect. I'm sorry that I fell in love with you and just left. but fuck you for making me feel something I was scared of. You'll forever be my first love, and maybe you'll be the last guy that I knew truly loved me.

I wish we could go back to the days we used to talk all the time. It's my fault. Ik you hate me not but i still miss you.

I've moved on but still sometimes I think about how your doing without me even though I don't want too. You've put me through so much pain and I'm so glad your not in my life anymore.

you are my heart and soul, the first thing i think of when i wake up and the last thing on my mind when i go to bed. i love you

you probably don’t know it but u mean so much to me. the classes we have together are what’s keeping me alive rn and i just wish we talked out of school:)

u r just so fckn kind to me and
it makes wanna me cry every time i see u. i love you so much, I'll be here for you and I will never ever ever want to see you cry again

I wish I did things different, you will forever live in my heart as my dearest love and I hope somewhere in another world we find eachother again, it’s just not here and that’s okay. Love you, Always - your, used to be, angel

I gave you everything. My trust, love, care, affection, everything. And in return you hurt me more than anyone has ever hurt me before.

its the way you look at me, with those calming brown eyes that make my heart stop in its tracks. the dorky smile you have that never fails to make me laugh. and i know you would never be with a girl like me, but its okay. because i hope the next girl bakes you a cake on your half birthday. i hope she buys you new glasses when you're short on cash. i hope she wears matching onesies with you to school. i hope she buys you airheads every friday. i hope she cooks you a steak to celebrate you getting a minimum wage job. i hope she can care much more than i ever can. i hope she can do all the things i cant, because apparently thats a lot. i just want you to notice me. because no girl, or person could ever do what i do for you. i get it, im your best friend and you cant look at me that way. maybe, a new perspective, a fresh start, a revival would be a good thing.

i didn't know what love truly was till i met you. i wish we both realized these feelings sooner. i miss you everyday. i think about you whenever i listen to our song. i wish you would text me. but i realize i need to give you space but i need you. is that selfish?

you said you wanted to make this work, but i can already tell you’re losing feelings and it hurts so bad :/

i still think about you. i wish it was you texting me when i check my phone. why did you have to say those things? why did you never text me after? i guess it doesnt matter now; i hope youre healing, dont forget to stretch.

this year was the worst year of my life. i fell apart, i lost most of what kept me going. you stayed, for a while, but you weren't really there. you never made an effort to understand what i was going through, and made me feel like awful for being upset. i'll never forgive you for the way you ended things in my darkest time with no explanation, or how you made me feel that i couldn't be open and honest about the struggles i dealt with. for months after you ended things, i was drowning. but recently, i've been swimming to the surface. i'm slowly piecing myself together now, things have been getting slightly better. 2020 taught me many lessons, and although it was hard i'm glad it taught me who was really there for me. i'm grateful for what you gave me, but glad that i don't have to feel judged by the person supposed to be closest to me any longer. i sincerely hope college is going well, you'll need it to finally mature. you'll never realize how much you hurt me, but maybe you'll still think of me when you go to see the zoo lights.

all i think about is anger. you played me, you used me. youre one hell of an actor thats for sure. i would wish you the best but i dont really care

it hurts me knowing that you have moved on, even now when i´ve also moved on. It hurts that those girl wishing they where yours, are my friends. Those girls know that I was deeply in love with you. But they don´t care. That hurts me even more that they´ll ever do that to me, because the people I called my best friends, still brings up your name.

it’s like you’re stuck in my head, i can’t even be happy with someone else without thinking of what you did to me...

i chose this color cause i remeber when like i first ever saw u in school u had a hoodie like this color lol totally not weird that i remembered that but thank you for always being there for me even though we might not talk that much. love you more than life g.

you’ve made me feel bad all day and seem so annoyed and uninterested in me lately, i feel like the most boring human being in your life. if you don’t want me just say that

you’re my first love, even though i’m happy with someone else you’ll always have a special place in my heart. i think about you everyday even though you might not think of me. Our relationship was so toxic and it hurt to move on without you but i’m glad i did. thank you for showing me that i do have the courage to walk away... i miss you always.

I gave you all I had, and that wasn’t enough to gain all of your love in return. You broke me again and again

i wasn't over you until last june. it's been six months since then and i've never felt better. you treated me like shit and tossed me to the side for my best friend the entire time we dated. just recently you told me that you miss me, and absolutely not. i do not miss you, and i would not even CONSIDER getting back with you. i could do better, and i've done better. fuck you.

I knew when there was a hole in your glove that I wouldn’t be able to fix it, you did, too. Still I tried, but that was to touch your hand.

You left me because you didn’t want to communicate. you just wanted everything to be perfect and that isn’t how it works.

i’m j going to say it now bc obviously u didn’t wake up lol. somethings different idk what but i’m done trying so hard. i feel like i’m the one always trying to talk and trying to call u and staying up late and when i do call u, ur always distracted with something else either work or video games or chess and i’m done feeling like this. we’ve talked about this before i don’t know what to say. i’ve brought this up before and listen i get ur stressed but i am too everyone is but that’s not an excuse you’ve said many times your sorry but i don’t think ur doing anything about it. we don’t talk as much anymore and it’s concerning. i’m not crazy i know i’m not and i over think allot but i’ve been feeling this way and i cannot get over this i’ve tried so hard. you don’t talk to me chris i get ur stressed but i don’t deserve this. please talk to me when u can.

it started with you talking about me. i never knew what brought me up. your 'hii!'s made my day, and now i feel sick going a day without them. thankyou for being a reason to wake up and go to school.

You were my first love, and it took me much time to get over you , but I’m happy I finally did it , it was about time.And now you are just another memory.

die also why is your type short ass flat girls you are a dick head for leading me on for months fuck you

i hate you, i hate that you always used me as your rebound. you used me for YEARS. you treated me like shit, i hope people find out ab ur foot fetish.

please look at me the way u used to. i miss that so much. please stay here with me. i promise i can do better. don't go

everything seemed perfect to me but then you left and I still ask myself why you didn‘t feel the same that I felt.