You broke me down time and time again and yet I still ran back. It’s because of this hurt you caused me that I am so much better than I was before.

i hate u. i don’t miss u anymore. i wish we never became close. and i never liked u. but i hope u miss me

& here i am. 3:44am woke up to go pee and thought about how i used to watch you pee in front of my garage. a glimpse of you giggling ran through my head. i thought about how i’ve changed my skin & you’ll never be around to heal it. or me. i woke up in the middle of the night exhausted, but still have the energy to cry over you, even 9 months later. my chest hurts. I hope you don’t have the pain i do in my heart in yours.

You say that we're going to be together forever and you have no intention of ever leaving me. But we're still so young. It's going to hurt so bad when you eventually leave.

God, I miss you so much sometimes. We weren’t healthy but you were my first love, my first trust. I still remember our first kiss on that playground, the feel of your hand in mind. I just hope you’re okay. That you’re healing. Please just be okay, Saturn.

i know i cant go back and nor do i want to but when faced with the decision, i shouldve picked you. sorry i guess

you will be the reason i never waste my time. i can’t go around wasting all my years on people who don’t deserve them.

i didn't know what love truly was till i met you. i wish we both realized these feelings sooner. i miss you everyday. i think about you whenever i listen to our song. i wish you would text me. but i realize i need to give you space but i need you. is that selfish?

its the way you look at me, with those calming brown eyes that make my heart stop in its tracks. the dorky smile you have that never fails to make me laugh. and i know you would never be with a girl like me, but its okay. because i hope the next girl bakes you a cake on your half birthday. i hope she buys you new glasses when you're short on cash. i hope she wears matching onesies with you to school. i hope she buys you airheads every friday. i hope she cooks you a steak to celebrate you getting a minimum wage job. i hope she can care much more than i ever can. i hope she can do all the things i cant, because apparently thats a lot. i just want you to notice me. because no girl, or person could ever do what i do for you. i get it, im your best friend and you cant look at me that way. maybe, a new perspective, a fresh start, a revival would be a good thing.

i don't know what it is about you, but you make life so much more colorful even if you're just black and white. i will never be able to express who much a love you, and always have loved you since we were little. i hope you find everything you want on the path you're on. so much love, anon.

it was the first time in my life i was truely happy and then you came in and made it better. you knew what i went through. and you still left.

even though you've hurt me and I say I will never talk to u again, I lied. I still worry about u. take care of urself. talk to the people u love. i just want u happy.

I gave you everything. My trust, love, care, affection, everything. And in return you hurt me more than anyone has ever hurt me before.

i tried, i really did but i had things going on at the time... wish you the best but also wanna punch you yk

fuck you. You made me feel unworthy of nothing. You made me feel as if I was a piece of shit. I fucking hate you. I fucking hate you. I asked if you still wanted to be friends when i noticed you were being distant. you said you cared. A week later we were arguing and you said I should be used to friends betraying and leaving me. You said that when you knew I was in a bad state of mind. you said you cared. you said you cared. i needed you. and you just left as if i wasnt really there. so yeah, fuck you.

i still love you and its been 3 years but you have a new girl now and i wonder what it would be like if we were still together

I trusted you an you broke me. I hope you enjoyed the time you had with me because you will never see me agian.

you are my best friend, thank you for listening to me cry and ramble and scream over the stupid shit. You make me laugh and never fail to let me know that I am seen. I would be in a shitty place if it werent for you.

heh hi so i left you one of these a few weeks ago saying i just think ur hot but now i fr like you but i’m afraid you’ll play me LOL

i wasn’t enough for you. i knew that, but i didn’t care. i tried anyway. i should’ve walked away a long time ago.

Since you left I’ve met so many people named Chris. And every one reminds me of you. Come back, please.

sometimes i think about what could’ve happened if i tried a little harder, i hope you’re doing well and we meet again some day

why do i still miss you? youre a bad person, but you were the only one who made me feel loved and special.

i miss the way your lips felt on mine, i miss the way i felt safe while you were holding me, i miss how you would laugh at the stupid things, i miss the way my fingers felt while i ran them through your curly hair i miss the feeling of wanting to wake up just to read your good morning messages even on Mondays

I wish I did things different, you will forever live in my heart as my dearest love and I hope somewhere in another world we find eachother again, it’s just not here and that’s okay. Love you, Always - your, used to be, angel

I still love you and I wish you could see how much I cared about you then and how much I still do. Please come back.

I wonder sometimes if you even cared. Just know I love you and I will forever be here for you. Goodnight dummy, I love you ❤️

If you had never left. I would have spent a life time thinking you actually loved me. I love you. Pinky.

Sometimes I think of you and smile. Sometimes I think of you and cry. My favorite version of you is when I was helping you move in. And you had said to me “when we get home”. You probably don’t remember. But I do. I miss home. I miss you.

u r just so fckn kind to me and
it makes wanna me cry every time i see u. i love you so much, I'll be here for you and I will never ever ever want to see you cry again

everything seemed perfect to me but then you left and I still ask myself why you didn‘t feel the same that I felt.

you probably don’t know it but u mean so much to me. the classes we have together are what’s keeping me alive rn and i just wish we talked out of school:)

please look at me the way u used to. i miss that so much. please stay here with me. i promise i can do better. don't go

I miss our friendship. You liking my friend has nothing to do with me IDC that you do. I hate this town and most people in it but you where diffrent.

I spent hundreds of dollars on you. I gave you gas money, food money Bc you haven’t eaten that day. Heck I gave you grocery money and paid for your phone bill multiple times. I’m only 16 but I know for a fact all that was not necessary. Then you leave!!? What did I do wrong? Please tell me!? Idc that your talking to my friend. That’s all you ever where to me A FRIEND. But what did I do wrong for you to just block me on everything. I don’t think I did anything wrong.

thank you for the memories we made together. you gave me an idea of what love and happiness felt like.

I thought we had feelings for each other, but in the end it was all a lie and you were just playing with my feelings. But i still loved you even though i knew what you were doing. And i lied to myself as well, thinking that i could have my happily ever after with you.

you once told me i was the biggest reason why you wanted to kill yourself, you’ve also told me that i was malicious and evil. no one really ever recovers from being told something like that. please, when you find your girl, be kind to her, think about your words and how they could stick & if they could cause her harm later. i wish you well.

i hate that you are the only guy i’ve ever felt comfortable with and felt like i could be myself around

i’ve always liked you since i had met you, something about how we laughed and joked about stuff always made me smile, you’re not super affectionate but when you where i’d always have a smile. i was always able to trust you and how you always defended me when i spoke to you about certain topics, but since that late night discussion it seems like i got to see the soft side of you and i loved you for it.
i really like you but i don’t know what would happen if it didn’t work out or if you even like me.

im not tired of trying im tired of facing reality knowing that if you really wanted me you would do anything but your not and that’s the problem

something you’ll never understand is that she liked you because SHE saw all the good in you i liked you because you helped me feel safe again there’s a difference

die also why is your type short ass flat girls you are a dick head for leading me on for months fuck you

i hate you, i hate that you always used me as your rebound. you used me for YEARS. you treated me like shit, i hope people find out ab ur foot fetish.

i literally defended you when everyone said you were bad for me, and they were right, but fuck, there's just something about you man..

You feel like home, when you get home from a vacation and you take that deep breath/sigh of relief because you’re able to finally relax. No matter who I try to replace you with, you will always be irreplaceable.

Chris, you left me when I needed you most you didn't believe me even tho you were there it hurts you were my best friend i love you but i hate the way you are.

you are my heart and soul, the first thing i think of when i wake up and the last thing on my mind when i go to bed. i love you

Your always in my mind all the time, i wish we lasted and i will never get over you. I want you in my arms all the time and i need you there for me.

I'm sorry I told you I don't like you that way. I was just too scared to admit I liked you because I thought you didn't feel the same way. All I want is to give me an unblock so we can at least talk

sometimes when i sit down to pee i look up at the doorway and expect you to be standing there; snapping your fingers & swaying in your stance & watching me pee. but you never are. i miss that so much.