Unsent messages to CHRIS
From: ABC
To: chris
Date: September 17, 2020, 7:50 am UTC
& here i am. 3:44am woke up to go pee and thought about how i used to watch you pee in front of my garage. a glimpse of you giggling ran through my head. i thought about how i’ve changed my skin & you’ll never be around to heal it. or me. i woke up in the middle of the night exhausted, but still have the energy to cry over you, even 9 months later. my chest hurts. I hope you don’t have the pain i do in my heart in yours.
From: ABC
To: chris
Date: September 15, 2020, 3:46 am UTC
Your fingers felt like feathers when you drew on my back or pushed hair out of my face. Your silence felt like a blistering cold in mid august... but thank you... I grew ?
From: ABC
To: chris
Date: September 14, 2020, 3:45 am UTC
you left for college last month and everyday i crave the late night drives listening to your favorite music. please love me back
From: ABC
To: chris
Date: September 14, 2020, 2:50 am UTC
you left for college and last month and everyday i crave the late night drives listening to your favorite music. please love me back
From: ABC
To: chris
Date: September 14, 2020, 12:14 am UTC
I hope you're happier now, all I ever wanted was for you to be happy, I just wish I had known that you loved her, not me.
From: ABC
To: chris
Date: September 13, 2020, 1:12 pm UTC
some days i think: maybe if you were here to touch & kiss the scars on my skin everything might just be alright. but you’re not, and life keeps moving forward.
From: ABC
To: chris
Date: September 13, 2020, 11:44 am UTC
I’ve liked you for years and I know you feel the connection but you’re way too good for me, you’ll choose her instead
From: ABC
To: chris
Date: September 9, 2020, 7:52 pm UTC
After 3 years, I just couldn’t wait any longer for you to love me. I still wonder if you even ever did feel it once. I forgive you but I can’t be around you anymore.
From: ABC
To: chris
Date: September 9, 2020, 1:35 pm UTC
Would anything have been different if I’d met you later when I was older? Or was I just not right for you?
From: ABC
To: chris
Date: September 9, 2020, 5:42 am UTC
i love you more than anything. i want you to be my forever but i could never tell you. please come around and understand that i want u forever.
From: ABC
To: chris
Date: September 8, 2020, 11:51 am UTC
I can’t watch the grinch without crying, I wonder if you remember that it was the movie we watched on our first date
From: ABC
To: chris
Date: September 8, 2020, 4:18 am UTC
I want to tell you what color house i want. I want to tell you what song we should dance to at the wedding. But you chose her
From: ABC
To: chris
Date: September 7, 2020, 5:29 pm UTC
you were my first everything. thank you for showing me what love is and how to love myself. i will always be your number one supporter no matter what.
