You taught me what love isn't. I had no idea how toxic our relationship was until I would tell people about it while their jaws were dropped.

I know I’ll never tell you how I feel...you have a gf and I have a bf...and we’re both happy...but part of me wonders if I never moved...if we would’ve ended up together...I think you’re the guy I always liked...and part of me always will

I'm happy we are still on such good terms and I can always come to you for advice. We were very young when we dated but I wouldn't change the 2 years I spent with you

I tried to love you the way you love me, but I can’t. I’m sorry. I really am.
I pick grey because I’m wearing your grey hoodie right now.

why did you hit me? what did I do? was I not good enough? why couldn't you love me the way I wanted you too?

You were my first love we were both so young and immature you cheated but i still love you i try to move on but i just cant every time we try again you fuck up and disappoint me and then were back to being strangers i look for you in every guy i talk too ik its fucked up but its just something about you that i love you made me so happy for a while and i will always remember those memories i try to remember the good more then the bad times i wish you the best and you deserve happiness i will always love you chris.

I’ve feel like I’ve finally lost feelings for you, and I think that’s for the better. I hope you have a good life. You deserve it.

I wish that you fought for me more. That you needed me in your life. Wish that you didn’t make me feel like a second option. I miss you even tho I know you don’t.

Hey chris. God I never even got ur second name but I’m sorry for the way I treated u it wasn’t fair on you at all. I don’t think I really loved you until I realised we were drifting and I wasn’t ready to tell you that because of how things turned out. I understand I should have told you sooner and I couldn’t be any more sorry for that. I hope ur doing well and doing the things u want to do

i wish you didn't leave. or at least gave me a reason why. I'm still in love with you, im just not waiting around anymore. i hope you come back

I loved u so much. I had to watch u fall out of love, and let u go. it got toxic, even if I loved you, I had to leave

you hurt me in a way nobody else did. you made me believe I could have been everything with you, and in one second, you crushed me. but thank you, thank you for hurting me. I grew from that pain and am becoming the best version of myself I can be. no one will make me feel that way again, but im just sorry that I let you into my heart.

i wish you would let me be there for you. i miss you and i love you with all my heart. it wasn’t supposed to be like this.

this is more of a “why would you do that to me” letter. you know what that boy did hurt me that night. what he said to me in front of those people hurt me and humiliated me. i may not be perfect but why call it out? and i know u defended me but why are you still friends with him? im sorry and i love you but i dont want to be friends with someone who is friends with the boy that humiliated me in front of people and made me cry. and not only that he told his mother that i was the problem. why does it always have to be my fault. im tired of it.

why did you do it? and why do you still continue to lie to this day? i wish you could’ve just told me the truth instead of lying and manipulating me. why won’t you let me be happy?

i wish you understood how hard i’m trying for us, i know i’ve messed up.. but i just want it to be me and you forever.

I wish we never ended the way we did . What did I do wrong that she gets what I begged for just time from you . I miss you but I could never hate you I hope your happy

All I ever wanted was to feel loved and you made it happen but also left me broken hearted. You made me want to never love anyone ever again.

there’s something about you.. something different i can’t explain, the way you never use me unlike the others love you so much and it sucks that we’re long distance but we can make it work :)

we never left the talking stage but you gave me hope that you liked me back and when I admitted it to you, you switched up and embarrassed me

I still love you & I think about you every single day. You were my whole heart and soul, It sucks I couldn’t forever be yours and someone else is. I miss my best friend, you were my person

Lamento no estar ahí cuando lo necesitas, es dificil ver esto y no poder hacer nada. Por favor, que la distancia disminuya

I wish I could erase you from my mind fully, ik you probably weren't but I thought you were my soul mate and sometimes I still do. When we broke up , a bit of me disappeared which made me so mad at myself because I know you already liked or loved someone else so my feeling were stupid and useless and I ruined everything by being a depressed bitch who couldn't let go of my problems. sometimes you cross my mind and I just try to push the thoughts away because I know you aren't thinking about me and probably haven't thought about me for a long time, I hope your doing well I don't think I ever really was able to fully thank you but thank you for trying to help me I'll always respect you for that :/

I love you so much but hey, there are some things you don’t know... I feel like you’re loosing feelings for me. Do you even like me back? Why are we dating when you can’t express your feelings irl but you can on text?! Are you uncomfortable with me? ?‍♀️

i wasn’t in love with you, but you showed me how someone was capable of filling my whole body with butterflies

I was too young to know that I had actually fallen in love with you. It was always the little things that put me in a constant cycle of desperate hope, heartbreak, and self loathe. What my unrequited love for you made me realize was that I would never be enough. Even so, I truly loved you through and through. I remember the words I told a close friend at the beginning of my hopeless romance, “He means the world to me.” You really did, but I was just a speck to you. Meant to be forgotten. I loved you in an amount you could never guess. I loved you and you were never mine.

I hate the fact that I dont hate you, you shattered me. Im sorry I wasn't enough to make you stay, please come back, I need you.

I don’t think you’ll ever get it... I’ve been in love with you for 5 years. I was straight until I met you and now I question everything. Even though I lied to you and said I forced feelings for you, I was just saving face. I either want to be with you or be able to move on. So please, tell me your feelings or give me closure. But you’ll never even see this.

I care for you, would do anything for you and love you so immensely it hurts sometimes, but you don't know it.

i'm sorry for everything. you were my first love. watching u with her is painful. ik it will be us in the end.

I love you so much and you just don’t understand it, I don’t even know if you Iove me back. But no matter what you do I will ALWAYS LOVE YOU.

did the texts mean nothing to you? every paragraph you wrote, every time you said you loved me, every time you said how beautiful i was? Everytime you promised to not leave me. to not hurt me. was it all a lie? a game? i was just a knight if your game of chesss? a word in a 500 page book? we both know i deserved better. every heartfelt thing you said to me, your probably saying to another girl. i hope your better to her then you were to me.

i guess i’m missing you tonight. this always feels so one sided. i wish u missed me and cared about what i was up to.

why. if it was something I did im sorry. I act all tough to hide the fact I miss you so much. I would of done anything for you. I hope you know that. I am grateful for you. thanks for all the nicknames and all the laughs. I just want you to know how much of a impact you have had on me. thank you from the bottom of my heart. I just hope you can continue making these impacts on ppl . but maybe dont leave like you left me you are one of the best people I have ever met. I knew you liked her but still I loved our friendship , thank you for it . you made me feel okay. thank you. crazy our family is connected yet , we lost our connection . im sorry you couldn't handle the pressure . im sorry you cracked. it was my fault I put you in the spotlight . im sorry you couldn't take it. I know its hard. I live it. I shouldn't have done that but there was nothing I could do to stop it. I guess I learned how to cope w it because I live w it every day but to someone who usually

Yea, I hate to admit it, but I smiled when Lisa mixed our names together into a ship name. I really like you, Doof.

It’s been years & no one compares to you. I wish you felt the same way about me. Sometimes I wonder if you do

man i literally love you so much. no matter our distance i got so attached to you dawg. you'll always be my boy. i always brag ab u to my bestfriends. you are my biggest flex. i love you 3000. - your fav cali girl nikka

Thank you, thank you for the best year of life. For the best 8 months whilst being friends and for the best 4 months of us as maybe a little bit more than that. You were the reason i woke up in the morning, the reason i ate. The reason i went to school every day. Before you i was miserable, but when you came into my life it's like something in me changed. Before you i was a daisy in the middle of a harsh winter, and when you came into my life you were like spring. You brought the best out of me, you made me feel beautiful and you made me feel like i actually had a purpose in life. i know when you told me that i was the only thing keeping you alive i'd brush it off and i'd act like i didn't care.but i did, i promise i did. you meant the world to me, you were my bestfriend. Im sorry for not telling you how i truly felt before. i'm sorry for not telling you that i NEEDED you because i did. although we are no longer on good terms i won't ever stop loving you. thank you for taking me out of that dark place for that year. te amo. :')

I'm so grateful for you. Thanks for helping me on homework and stuff. Anyways YeeHaaaa. And if I do imma miss you a lot

it’s been nearly three years since i’ve seen you, and for some reason i can’t bring myself to forget you. we’re separated by 500 miles but somehow you still reside in that little corner of my brain you took over so many years ago. i hope you’re well, with her. and happy, and content, and well taken care of. you really do deserve it. i feel so incredibly guilty for wanting you to come back to me, even though you were never mine to begin with. i just can’t shake this feeling that you’re meant to be mine. time will tell, right? i don’t think you’ll ever see this, but if you do- hi. i miss you.

There’s so much that I want to but will probs never have the ability to nor would you want me to I don’t think. Kicking you out of my life was the worst decision I ever made (and I don’t make a lot of them). You loved me more than majority of the people in my life did. You dedicated almost every hour of the day to me. You left your friends many times to just be with me. I honestly don’t think I’ll ever find someone who loved me as much as you did. I was also crazy about you but it was mutual like we only ever wanted to spend time together. At first after the breakup people told us it was toxic, but funny how they didn’t say anything during the relationship. I look back on it realizing we weren’t toxic. We were in love. But it wasn’t our time, the fact that I let you go for silly reasons or didn’t realize how much you loved me tells me I wasn’t ready for us. I needed to grow still. I needed to go into another relationship to see if anyone could love me that much and honestly they can’t. I still miss you to this day and it sucks. I hated you for about two months after we broke up but after that I started praying every night that you were happy and would find love again one day and no doubt you will. There’s so much to love about you and you give so much dedication to everything you do. I wish things could have gone differently for us because you truthfully are someone I miss and think about frequently. I should have never given in to someone manipulating me telling me you weren’t good enough for me, turns out that guy liked me and that’s why he did it. But I shouldn’t of been so stupid as to listened to it in the first place. You were my best friend, the person who made me laugh, the person who only ever wanted me to succeed and support me. When I thought I couldn’t do something you were stuck by my side until I did it. You pushed me to be better. Maybe the time apart was for a reason, maybe we will never get back together or maybe we will. But I needed the time after our breakup, I grew into a new version of myself, heck I am probs the most confident good looking person I’ll ever be. I have become so focused on me and I needed it, I’m so beyond successful now and figuring what I really want in life. And yeah, I may have all of that now but part of me still wants you in my life. I know you’re probs better off without me, but I’ve grown since then, I learned more about relationships. I needed time to grow and find myself and the breakup helped with that. Everyone told me what you were up to after. I hated myself for letting that happen to you, I wanted to be there for you but everyone told me I’d just make it worse. So I prayed you were happy every week, and I’m not that religious. For someone to have a connection like that in their life doesn’t come around a lot, or at least for me, but you made part of my life so special, every memory, every little bicker, laugh, smile, and time we spent was so memorable in my head as if I could make a movie out of it. And when I look back on it I smile. I smile which isn’t normal after a breakup. I smiled because you helped me realize many things, without you I would have been lost, I would have never realized what I needed to grow, or how to improve myself. I hope you miss me sometimes, but I also hope that you continue to make the most of your life, and that you continue to love others and use that brain of yours to make a difference. You are so beyond special and I hope you realize that, I wasn’t good enough for you then looking back on who I was, maybe I am now but by now it might be too late.

I may have moved on but I still think about you on a daily basis and you were my first real love and I’ve never forgotten you

I wish forever was really forever. You taught me to never be in a long distance relationship but you showed me how strong love can be, even if we’re 1,000 miles apart. I pray you come back to me later in this lifetime. I pray you find your way back home, even if home isn’t me. When I graduate, I will make sure to send you the photos. I love you, stay in touch. ?

you came back. not the way I always hoped you would but you're still here. It was so weird laughing with you again and seeing you smile. I missed you more than I'd let myself admit.

Dude i loved you so much. You saved me from myself, but the distance was too much for us to handle. I broke after all the times you fixed me

I’m so sorry I hurt you. I was dumb and didn’t realize how I made you feel and all these years later you’re so forgiving. You let me be your friend still and I don’t deserve you. You always say it’s okay but I’ll never stop saying I’m so so sorry.

why do you act like you care about me when we both know u dont. all my friends tell me to block u but ive always defended ur name. what are we? and ur girl best friend has a total crush for u which is embarrassing tbh considering u would talk the most shit about her back when she did us bad. just open up to me bubs

You might have convinced everyone around u that u hate me, but u know we are still madly in love w each other

i don’t know how you could forget us so easily. i tried so hard to forget you but my mind won’t let me.

even tho we never really dated u broke me, i still love u and i hate myself for that. but if u came back i wouldn’t say no