Unsent Messages

this year was the worst year of my life. i fell apart, i lost most of what kept me going. you stayed, for a while, but you weren't really there. you never made an effort to understand what i was going through, and made me feel like awful for being upset. i'll never forgive you for the way you ended things in my darkest time with no explanation, or how you made me feel that i couldn't be open and honest about the struggles i dealt with. for months after you ended things, i was drowning. but recently, i've been swimming to the surface. i'm slowly piecing myself together now, things have been getting slightly better. 2020 taught me many lessons, and although it was hard i'm glad it taught me who was really there for me. i'm grateful for what you gave me, but glad that i don't have to feel judged by the person supposed to be closest to me any longer. i sincerely hope college is going well, you'll need it to finally mature. you'll never realize how much you hurt me, but maybe you'll still think of me when you go to see the zoo lights.