sometimes missing you hits me like bricks in my chest. i can physically feel the heaviness on my heart. i’m always wishing you the world

I’m really sorry for hurting you so badly. I wish I could take it all back. I genuinely hope you’re doing well.

Why? Why would you do that to me. We used to be friends, good friends. And you totally diserespected me in so many ways. And I’ll never forgive you for that. You need help, a lot of it. You changed so much I forgot who the old you was. The old you that was my friend. The old you who would cheer me up when I was down, have my back in any situation, listened to my problems. Not whoever this new chris is. Not whoever used me as a toy for his own pleasure. Who ripped the soul at me and just left it, stranded, lost, I’m still waiting for an apology....

I love you, I think I'll always love you. But I know we cant be together and it breaks my heart knowing you don't love me anymore.

I doubt you’ll ever read this, but thinking of you honestly makes me so fucking mad. You were so manipulative and probably still are. I don’t know the person you are today, but I really hope you’re striving to be a better person and gain more perspective. Grow up.

I remember that yellow was your favorite color, but I never knew why. I do now - you're a fool's gold. I never got over you. I don't think I will.

sometimes I have these dreams of you cheating on me and I'm scared that they could happen. pls, tell me I'm just crazy.

hey there. technically i barely know you and we've only been friends for a couple months, so there's no reason for me to start liking you yeah? but for some reason i started to smile at your messages and i didn't think that would ever happen. you're just being nice and all, so i shouldn't be falling for you. maybe i just have an issue with getting attached quickly. although if i were to ever figure it out and confess, i hope nothing changes if you don't feel the same. because if we ever stop being friends i'd prob be really sad bc you're really cool and i can talk to you normally even though i get embarrassed at times [but i don't tell you so uh] and y e a h. just gonna let you know, that you deserve frickin happiness and everything great, okay? now don't stay up too late :)

Dear Chris,
I now realize how manipulative you were. It makes me really upset because I loved and trusted you. I hope you grow as a person, you really need it.
Yours Truly,
Zebra

i have a conversation saved from 2014. i was upset about something and you were trying to calm me down. whenever i’m depressed or just not feeling well i read it. i’ll never tell you how much comfort those memories bring me but they’ve gotten me through so much. i wish i didn’t take those times for granted. i wish i was 13 again.

When we met, I wasn’t ready for you. But 4 years later, you are still on my mind. I like to think our timing was just off.

i hope one day i'll be good enough for you,so your eyes can shine for me but in the meanwhile,ill wish for you

we might have been perfect on paper, but the tears blurred what was written, and now i don't know you

today would’ve been 2 years. my heart weighs heavy today. wishing u well. I wonder if you’re even aware of what today is?

today wouldve been 2 years. my heart weighs heavy today. Wishing you well always. I wonder if you know what today is?

Hey! I dont know if you'll remember me, but I sat next to you in language arts our freshman year. You used to say hi to me everyday and ask me how I was doing. I was so depressed and so many things were going on in my life at that point. Thank you for that. I still remember that after almost 7 years. I hope we meet again someday.

you’re one of the most funny people i know, i think you’re wonderful and i love every moment i get to spend talking to you- don’t stress yourself feeling like you have to please everybody though, being genuine is what makes people truly happy but no matter what i’m always smiling when i’m with you, i love you ♡ t

hey lol i haven't stopped thinking about you since the last time we talked. i know u never did and especially don't now care abt me but somehow i fell for you so hard and we never even dated. this is embarrasing for me. anyway, sadly there will always be a place in my heart for the first boy i ever "loved" ig. take the word love with a grain of salt though because 1) idk what love is 2) how can u love someone u barley have expierence with. but whatever point blank is your a stupid teenage boy and im a stupid teenage girl who is hung up on u. uh bye now

I’m sorry I ruined us, I’m sorry I hurt you. I wish I could go back and undo the things I’ve done. I miss you every single day, but I’m happy to see you happy. I love you all, forever and always “chris toe fur” ??

Please don’t hate me for blocking you. You leaving me was so painful that the only thing that could heal me was leaving too. The problem is that I will always love you.

all i think about is anger. you played me, you used me. youre one hell of an actor thats for sure. i would wish you the best but i dont really care

this year was the worst year of my life. i fell apart, i lost most of what kept me going. you stayed, for a while, but you weren't really there. you never made an effort to understand what i was going through, and made me feel like awful for being upset. i'll never forgive you for the way you ended things in my darkest time with no explanation, or how you made me feel that i couldn't be open and honest about the struggles i dealt with. for months after you ended things, i was drowning. but recently, i've been swimming to the surface. i'm slowly piecing myself together now, things have been getting slightly better. 2020 taught me many lessons, and although it was hard i'm glad it taught me who was really there for me. i'm grateful for what you gave me, but glad that i don't have to feel judged by the person supposed to be closest to me any longer. i sincerely hope college is going well, you'll need it to finally mature. you'll never realize how much you hurt me, but maybe you'll still think of me when you go to see the zoo lights.

you left for college and last month and everyday i crave the late night drives listening to your favorite music. please love me back

you left for college last month and everyday i crave the late night drives listening to your favorite music. please love me back

I thought you were the one. But you weren't. You were the one that said you'd promise that you'd stay forever. So I agreed with the "promise". Sooner or later after many months on end and happy memories, You decided your time was up. You didn't love me anymore. The thing is after almost a year...I still kept my promise. Of course we still talk...but its not the same. I don't love you as much as I loved you before, but I still love you as a friend. Even though I'm in another relationship, I still miss ours. Especially our friendship.

You took away my childhood and dignity. You took advantage and now I can’t be around men without being on edge

Shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up! You are a monster and I want nothing to do with you. I was a child, you fucking animal.

I am going to kill you. I am going to chew you up into little bits and mash your head against the pavement. I won't allow you to touch me again.

I don't know how I'm gonna tell you that you're one of the reasons I flinch when my boyfriend gets mad.
You're one of the reasons I panic whenever there is a hint of frustration in his voice.
You're one of the reasons I apologize for asking to do something I want to do.
Yet you stand there, acting like a Saint because you helped people.

I’m sorry for being so fucked up and always crying. I hope someday I can forget all of the shit that happened

you told me you’d sing yellow by coldplay to the girl love some day... it’s finally hitting me, that girl will never be me

you sent me the song yellow by coldplay and suddenly everything i did was yellow, but that song was never meant to be about me and you

Sometimes I still think about you, I've come to realise it was puppy love at it’s best. But damn was it exciting

Your fingers felt like feathers when you drew on my back or pushed hair out of my face. Your silence felt like a blistering cold in mid august... but thank you... I grew ?

I don't think I'll ever understand why you did what you did. I think we really could be something if you would open your eyes and get over yourself.

i still think about you. i wish it was you texting me when i check my phone. why did you have to say those things? why did you never text me after? i guess it doesnt matter now; i hope youre healing, dont forget to stretch.

I just want to say I’m sorry. I didn’t know what a relationship should be and honestly neither did you. But I’m sorry for not giving us the time to learn.

no matter what happens between us tonight, i wouldn’t trade the last 4 years for the world. i love you forever and always.

i know you don’t actually like her, you’ve told me, stop acting. I hate both of you for what you’ve done to me but she doesn’t deserve to be treated like I was.

i was so excited to see you play the sports you love so much, and i still am, i hope to look your name up on google in 10 years and see that you accomplished everything you would talk to me for hours about

Every time i say "hi chris" I feel like i'm Lorelai Gilmore and you're just that sweet boy i met when i was 16

To the boy who left me when I needed him the most... Thank you for the memories and everything. I didn’t write your full name cause I know you don’t like it. Maybe in another lifetime dummy

You hurt me a lot but yet I still miss you. I know you’re focusing on yourself and I really had hope that we would never break up what happened to “I love youuuuuu Mamas with all of my heartt forever and ever and always” but obviously that wasn’t true huh cause you left my life but that’s okay. Just know I would have hugged you tighter on your birthday if I knew it was the last time I would see you. If we’re meant to be then we’ll be together later on in our lives. I hope so.

i've come to terms with your faithless love. all the loose ends and untied knots. but nonetheless, it still aches.

you said you wanted to make this work, but i can already tell you’re losing feelings and it hurts so bad :/

we meet on omgele, yea it was stupid ik but we weirdly clicked. you loved hearing about the different types of snow... goldie remeber goldie love yknow

You weren't my first love nor were you my last. But sometimes I wonder if you still think of me like I do you.

i still have your jacket, sometimes i can still smell your scent and it brings me comfort .i miss you but i know you’re happy and that’s enough for me.

Fuck you, honest to god fuck you. I’m so fucking angry at you because we made a promise that above all, we would be friends. You’re the one who brought up hanging out back on the island. You’re the one who said to come to your house whenever. You’re the one who promised to be there until you realized being there required effort. The last day I saw you and all you said before you left was see you around wtf is that about? You are lying to yourself and me if you’re going to sit here and tell me this meant nothing to you. Congrats, you ruined the fucking friendship. I was in your bed having a full-blown panic attack trying to hide it, and instead, you made me feel like shit about it and proceeded to bang your head into a pillow and tell me to either calm down or go back to my dorm. You made me feel bad about something that was literally out of my control. You knew that the day before I was assaulted and my roommate literally confessed her feelings for me. I don’t expect you to have to take care of me, and I’ve made that abundantly clear, but if you had just let me sit there, I would have calmed down. It was a hard fucking day, and somehow you were the worst part of it. The way you handled everything sucked ass, and I know you’re going to boot camp, but that’s no excuse to be a shitty person. Just because you’re leaving and you close yourself off all of a sudden, it doesn’t excuse the fact that you hurt somebody and left without trying to minimize the damage. So congrats, I hope the sex was good. I want to be really clear that this isn't me being mad at you because I caught feelings, and I expect you to feel the same and not be a piece of shit. This is me being upset because we said above all we were friends and would stay friends. You ruined the friendship when you first kissed me and slowly chipped away at me ever since. Anyone with two eyes knew that you clearly cared about me. All your friends told me. How wrong were they? I gave you an out. You could have told me, let’s be friends since I’m going to boot camp, and I would have fully accepted that. Instead, you couldn’t handle it all and pushed me away. Well, congrats, you accomplished ur goal. You probably won’t respond to this text, and I’ll probably be labeled as crazy or whatever other adjectives you think fits. So, in that case, have fun at boot camp and have a nice life. Good to know I’ll just be another body on your roster. So take care. Sincerely whatever number under 10 that I am.

its been 9 months, and there isn't a day that goes by where i don't think about you. i miss you. deep down i still hope you'll come back.