hey...I know its been over a year and a half since we've truly spoken, but I still miss you. I miss all the little moments we had together and I suppose I now understand that a part of me will always be in love with you. To be completely honest, you seem like a completely different person, and maybe I've changed as well, but I still want to get to know you. I look back only actions from a mature standpoint and I understand that I was toxic. I would push you away when I was stressed, but I mainly did it because I was super scared of losing you. I loved you with all my heart. But I will also acknowledge the fact that you had difficulties understanding your own feelings. I apologize for my past actions, even if it doesn't change anything today. I wish I could just talk to you again, its weird to know that someone out there in the world that knew almost everything about me doesn't talk to me anymore. I will always be there for you, I just wish you knew how much I've changed.

i know we didnt work out and it wasnt meant to be but now that you found someone i wish you would know that i’m glad that you’re moving on and i’m happy for you. dont mess this up with her, dont repeat the same mistakes. do better, she might be the one even if i wasn’t.

You’re all I want, all I think about and all I love. Even if we don’t work out now, we’ll find our way back to eachother

I’m sorry we don’t talk anymore. I hope you find somebody who will understand you..cause I sure did not, but I pretended I did and acted as somebody I wasn’t to make you feel better. Sorry.

i’m j going to say it now bc obviously u didn’t wake up lol. somethings different idk what but i’m done trying so hard. i feel like i’m the one always trying to talk and trying to call u and staying up late and when i do call u, ur always distracted with something else either work or video games or chess and i’m done feeling like this. we’ve talked about this before i don’t know what to say. i’ve brought this up before and listen i get ur stressed but i am too everyone is but that’s not an excuse you’ve said many times your sorry but i don’t think ur doing anything about it. we don’t talk as much anymore and it’s concerning. i’m not crazy i know i’m not and i over think allot but i’ve been feeling this way and i cannot get over this i’ve tried so hard. you don’t talk to me chris i get ur stressed but i don’t deserve this. please talk to me when u can.

it’s been over a year. i still miss you. if only it were different. if only we were more mature. i miss you.

ill never truly move on from you, but it’s best for both of us that i try. you’re the one that ended it first, but i’ll take some of the blame for shutting down all of the other tries that we had. i don’t need you as much as i thought i did. i found someone so much better than you, and i know it. but deep down i know that you were one of my first true loves and im just not capable of fully letting you go. this is the last time i’ll ever talk about you, this message is a way for me to say goodbye. i won’t miss you, despite what i said about never truly moving on i’m glad we broke up. fuck you.

you were my first everything. thank you for showing me what love is and how to love myself. i will always be your number one supporter no matter what.

Hi Chris. I just wanted to let you know that I still love you. Honestly you seem perfect, everything that I could ask for. However I messed that up. Im rude and I always talk about myself. I wasnt raised to be social, so I never know what to say or how to start a conversion. Im sorry for always cutting you off. I secretly hope that you would call time to time. I just want it to go back to how it was. You waking me up with calls and texts. We pulling all nighters but it never works.

i'm boarding now. the last time i was on a plane i was flying across the world to tell you i still loved you, my reviving sunshine. i hope you play the james brown and think of me.
forever yours.

you’ve filled my life with a new kind of love, one i never realized existed before you. i’m eternally grateful for you.

I want to tell you what color house i want. I want to tell you what song we should dance to at the wedding. But you chose her

anche se mi hai peggiorato l’ansia, anche se mi hai fatto venire la depressione, vorrei sempre ascoltare sweater weather con te

You left me because you didn’t want to communicate. you just wanted everything to be perfect and that isn’t how it works.

I can’t watch the grinch without crying, I wonder if you remember that it was the movie we watched on our first date

We’ve known eachother since kindergarten and tbh I’ve always kinda liked you since then but everytime you seem to pick something or someone else over me. It’s like you think I’m not enough, well that’s ok because I know I am enough. So when you realize how much you’ve lost...go back to the things/people you picked over me and ask yourself if it was worth it.

she’s sweet but she’s not right for you..open your eyes and see that i’m always going to be here for you..

i think im in love with you and if only you lived closer i would tell you. it breaks my heart that the only reason i can't be with you is distance

I knew when there was a hole in your glove that I wouldn’t be able to fix it, you did, too. Still I tried, but that was to touch your hand.

I don't know if this is love but all I know is that I feel something for you. I don't know if you feel the same way, or maybe you simply just use me for my body. You're an ass, but I can't stop thinking about you. I'll forever miss you. Maybe one day we'll find our way back to each other , but for right now I need to learn how to live life for myself and I need to focus on my future.

i love you more than anything. i want you to be my forever but i could never tell you. please come around and understand that i want u forever.

i love you. you were my person. when i was talking to you the world stopped and nothing else mattered except you. my love for you is unreal. i care about you. i get jealous because i’m scared one day someone will make you happier than i did. i miss you so much christian oh my god. you’re the only person i want in this world. why cant we try to make this work? i don’t want there to be another girl out there who makes you smile and blush. i don’t want there to be another girl who makes you motivated to do your homework. i want to be that girl. i wanna be your dream girl. im afraid someone else is gonna get the “goodnight love you

You're the best friend I ever had. I'm so sorry I can't love you like you love me. I miss you all the time.

Would anything have been different if I’d met you later when I was older? Or was I just not right for you?

I thought that if you liked me you would pick me, regardless. But I can't let you be my everything if I was never your anything.

After 3 years, I just couldn’t wait any longer for you to love me. I still wonder if you even ever did feel it once. I forgive you but I can’t be around you anymore.

i wasn't over you until last june. it's been six months since then and i've never felt better. you treated me like shit and tossed me to the side for my best friend the entire time we dated. just recently you told me that you miss me, and absolutely not. i do not miss you, and i would not even CONSIDER getting back with you. i could do better, and i've done better. fuck you.

I was so attached that I couldn’t see how much you were hurting me. Everyone wanted me to break it off. I’m glad it happened because it’s a learning experience and it wasn’t all bad but you’re the reason for my trust issues, I deserved so much better chris I was so good to you and you know it and so does your brother and your mum and your dad. You fucked me up.

i loved you so much and i hate that you moved on so fast. i can't move on and forget about you but I'm trying. i love you but I'm not in love with you. i know you still love me because i would've been moving on by now and energy never lies.

i've always felt something about you and the second I recognize it, you start drifting away. and ofc you get closer to her.and now come to think of it the only reason we were close in the first place was for me to help out because you liked her. but even then I had some hope that you liked me because you did ruin a potential thing that could have happened between me and some guy and everyone said that the only reason could be because you liked me. Anyways I wanted to get all these feelings and thoughts off of my chest just at the start of the year, so I can look back and see where I am with this, because I still like you and I have been seeing nothing but signs pointing to us having a relationship in the future. so hopefully that actually happens and I can come back and look at this. But yea, usually with every guy that I have ever liked its always been her. so maybe now that you tried and realized that there was no hope with her you start to take notice how I am always there for you and how we relate and get along so well. Anyways hope to write back to you soon updating whatever happens between us. 1156

i thought that u would be the one, the one that cared for me but no u just left me there in a heartbeat

I gave you all I had, and that wasn’t enough to gain all of your love in return. You broke me again and again

I didnt think you would ever leave. Where are you and why aren't you back yet. Please come back. I love you more than you will ever know.

I feel stupid for all my emotions, you obviously moved on and now I look like an idiot trying to get over a love that I thought you had for me. I think I was imagining it but I would love to believe that at one point you really loved me. Did all of those late night chats really mean nothing? Did you want to break me? because you did and I don't know how to fix myself. I hope she loves you more than I would've.

I didn't think that hug would be our last. If I had I would've held on a little longer and a little tighter, even tho u were playing me I genuinely loved u.

We met on an older chat site. We exchanged numbers and constantly talked... I loved you. I loved all of you, it's been almost 9+ years and I am still in love with you. I hate that I am still in love with you. You are holding me back but I wish we could talk one last time. I remember the voice mail you sent me telling me you loved me... I tried texting your number but it wasn't your number anymore. It wasn't... Anymore. And all I wanted to tell you one last time that I miss you and I love you... You dorky little smile and the picture you sent me still lingers around my head. I painted it and I felt ashamed but sue me. You were my muse. I miss you still. I hope you see this...

Dear Chris,
I will never understand why you wanted to take a break. Even though we didn't date, we still liked each other. We didn't talk for a few months because you had your phone taken away. Before that, we started to drift apart. You didn't wanna ft anymore. You took hours to respond. Then when we didn't talk I was really sad because I needed you, I need you. Then the day you got your phone back Zoie and I text you and you said barely anything. Then we ft you and while you were talking to us, you just hung up didn't say anything after that. Then we text you. You said we need a break because you are getting negative energy from us when you haven't even talked to us for an hour. Then you say but we can talk later like how the fuck are you going to say we need a break but we can talk later. Anyways.... after that, zoie deletes any trace of you from her life. While I still cling to that hope that we will be friends like how we were. I spent and still do spend nights crying because I needed you. When you left, I was in a bad place. You don't even say hi to me anymore. I still love you

A pesar de que tengas tu línea trazada nunca dejes nada de lado, tarde o temprano todo influye en tu camino

You were the first and last person i ever opened up to. You saw my weaknesses and poured salt in my wounds.

I just now realize that I was stuck with the idea that I loved you, not because I did, but because i convinced myself that I did, because it made sense when nothing in my life did.

you’ve been so heavy on my brain. i want happiness for you so bad!! but more than that i wanna be there to watch it, so so bad. but i cant

I just now realize that I was stuck with the idea that I loved you, not because I did, but because i convinced myself that I did, because it made sense when nothing in my life did.

It's been 2 years, and I still can't get you off my mind. I drive past your house on my way to town and still look for your car in the driveway. It's been 2 years, and your laugh still echoes in my ears. I love you. I'm so sorry.

I know we broke up and i know you wanna keep being friends but, i just can’t while knowing you still feel something. it just hurts being around you and not knowing what to do.

i hope you realize how much youve impacted my life. i cant wait to spend the rest of my days with you by my side

you’re my first love, even though i’m happy with someone else you’ll always have a special place in my heart. i think about you everyday even though you might not think of me. Our relationship was so toxic and it hurt to move on without you but i’m glad i did. thank you for showing me that i do have the courage to walk away... i miss you always.

I don't know what happened to us. Many months have passed, and I still think of you despite everything I live day to day. You left without looking back, you left me alone even though you promised you never would. You love me? You miss me? Sometimes I think that you talk to me for that because you don't know how to tell me that you miss me and that you don't stop thinking about me. It's silly, I know. I want you to come back but not at the same time. You love me? Because I do you

i was in love w u. u were the first person ive ever fallen in love w. but ik u don’t give a s*** about me.

You weren't ready and I think I understand now. I just wish we made it through. I still love you with my whole heart.

I wish you could see yourself in my eyes.Thank you for being so kind to me all the time. You have so much love to offer and I hope you find someone who loves you unconditionally. It’s a cold world out here but you’re a rare one, please don’t let someone change that.

With Love,
T (from oc)