i can’t talk to you because we both need to heal but i don’t know how to not talk to you so i’ll just type it here

I know you didn’t feel the same way but cmon bro we were so in love. We looked at each other with pure love in each other’s eyes. We were perfect for each other.

I’m killing my old life a building a new one. I’m just sad that you won’t be in the new one. I miss you still.

I wonder if too much time has passed. I wonder if you think about me the way I think about you. I wonder if it’ll ever be our time.

thank you for telling me to not leave this planet. i would of if it wasn’t for you. i really would of.

sometimes I fall sad when we are together, for I remember that we are only just and nothing lasts forever

what the fuck are you doing with your life? hurry up and fucking live it and drop everyone who doesn't let you.

"I couldn't utter my love when it counted
Ah, but I'm singing like a bird 'bout it now" - Hozier, Shrike

I just wanna heal from you and move on. Why does it have to be you. Like after that one afternoon we really did drift. I told my friends I was over you but I really am not. Our calls, watching you game, going over to your house, sending each other memes, late night talks I really miss. I just miss you. I don't even care about the fact I can't be with you but the fact that I feel like we're not even friends anymore wtf. I just miss you. Maybe I am just being overdramatic but youre always so dry but those two nights during the holidays really did hit different. I felt like we had such a good connection but since that day we really did drift. I don't wanna admit it but like we really did. We even made a playlist together. I miss you and our talks please talk to me. I am sorry. Would things have been really different if I confessed that day. I am sorry. I wish I could do something. Bye

I felt so empty inside like a dark endless hole and when you touched me a light show went through me and made everything ok but you took that light show when you left and left me in that endless hole

thank you for being the reason I stayed alive. Even though we're not friends anymore, I wish you all the best
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Escribí tantas cosas para ti, te amo y te he amado desde siempre, es cierto que llegue a superarte una vez, pero aún así, nadie puede igualar nuestra conexión, estábamos destinados a estar juntos, eres mi alma gemela, pero ella es una buena chica y mereces estar con ella, mereces ser feliz, y estoy seguro que lo serás con ella! La seguiré ayudando en todo lo que se para que sean felices, te amo incondicionalmente my pretty boy, tan grande es mi amor, que haría de todo por verte feliz, lo mereces, espero y si realmente somos almas gemelas, la vida nos vuelva a juntar

wow, I think this is the first New Years when I haven't thought of your lips at midnight in about 7 years, feels good to say I don't miss you anymore x

i never meant to hurt you. some days i just wake up and can't feel anything towards anyone. it hurts me too

i never was a fan of dogs, but i grew to like yours. i wonder if she wonders why i no longer come over

I don’t care about you breaking my heart anymore. I’m starting to realize that I do it enough on my own already. ?

you weren't my first lover or a lover at all, you were just someone I thought was going to stay in my life until the end. but you ended up giving me the best gift when you left. you made me realise that I am a good person who deserves so much more than what you gave our friendship. I sometimes miss you but in reality I just miss the memories

I’ve never been this vulnerable before. You’ve become my safety net and I’m scared for what comes when you leave

Sometimes you expect a lot from someone because you’d do that much for them.
But they disappoint you again.

look at how much you've been thru. yet ur still standing. don't give up now. im so immensely proud of u

Which pain do I deal with first? My family or the fact that you're telling me there is a KID?? My brain can't absorb this information. I can't, I can't, I can't. Do you have any idea what a huge risk to my mind this scam was?

You couldn't get me back if you tried. I've finally learned my worth. I sobbed over you. You treated me as if I was disposable and STILL, I begged you to love me. Knowing that it gives you hell when you see me now makes it all worth it. Hope you find happiness somewhere else.

hi. im sorry for leaving you, I was pressured into leaving by basically everybody even though I didn't want to. I know you dont really care and this didn't really phase you but I still care for you and it hurts me when my friends bash you. I made this message green because when we first started talking I would listen to 'the night we met' by lord huran and it just reminded me of a forest and how we could go on adventures.

its almost as the timing couldn't had been worse. im scared of what the future holds for us and if your still going to be here. the last thing that i want is to lose you. im sorry forgive me.

everything is almost to perfect and that makes me scared that youll get bored quick or move on. i havent even know you for that long but i know that i dont want to forget.

you told me with the brightest eyes and most smoothest voice that she told you she wants you to meet her family, that she likes you now, that she wants you to be happy, that she thinks of you like a planet in the sky, you said you always wanted her and now you do, you heard what you always wanted, that she has power over you, that she is so beautiful, that it’s different because it’s her, you told me she told you to imagine if you two were together. you did, am i not enough? you told me you asked her to tell you more, do i not love you enough? you say you’re just friends but when she doesn’t answer you cry, you think about it all day. did you forget we’re together? did you forget all that i've told you?

hi :) yes i'm talking to u reading, it gets better i promise, the heart never completely mends but i swear to you you will feel the same as you did if not better soon

This is the same colour as that hoodie you gave me. The hoodie I gave back when you told me that I meant nothing to you. Maybe you were too in love with my best friend to see me in the way I wish you did. I wish you loved me. But it's always her. It will always be her over me. Sincerely, Smaller.

when u tweeted about hooking up with someone and how good of a kisser she was i felt so sick, i still don’t want to think about you with somebody else

I tried so hard to make us work. I will always love you, nothing can stop that. But it was the manipulative actions and the lack of trust and care that drove me away. the distance sucked, but you've already found someone new so that's okay. All of your stuff is still scattered around my room, you want it all back eventually. But hey, I found someone new, too. He's amazing..he's so great to me. Thank you, random stranger, for reading my story. It may be my last :(

this is the only place ill really talk to you. i miss you. i was rewatching old videos of us. god it hurts. i miss being with you. i miss the way you would laugh at me. i miss your voice. i miss the way you would ask me if i was okay. i miss those nights where nothing but us mattered. i want you here with me. and im moving forward but im not moving on because there’s still a piece of me that has hope. because i know there is a piece of you that has it to. i love u. our story isn’t over.

You still give me butterflies every time I see you, and I hate it because it reminds me I’m not over you yet

The way you led me on for your own gain was creative ,but I hope you know I meant everything that was said/felt.

i never realized how much you destroyed me yet gave me so much the same time. i needed you to stay but you left just as everyone else does.

I hate the way I love you and the way I loved my name when you said it and how every time you laugh I want to kiss you but then I hate that when you look at me you don’t see what I want you to see

you. even thinking of you still gives me butterflies. but we’ll find each other again. we’re meant to be.

did you actually like me at all? why did you let us go so quickly? it's been years and yet i still can't figure you out at all

fwb and affection buddies, you call me perfect. you still cry to me about the 2 you could have had.. i’m right here..

We said it wasn't goodbye forever, but how fucking long is this gonna last. We're strangers at this point.

stop hurting yourself over and over the same ways. stop punishing yourself. it's behind now, look forward. :) greater things will come

i think about you when i’m happy, when i’m sad, when i’m angry,
when i’m bored. i think of all the things i would tell you if i had the confidence to. i wonder if you miss me and if you smile when you think of me, if you even think of me at all... i miss you. more than anything. i regret choosing myself over you, but i will never regret you. because even though you broke me more than i could’ve imagined, that taught me how to value myself. i love you. i always will. i just wish you would stop living in my head.

i want to be free. i have to let you go, but i dont want to. you made me the happiest. butterflies in my tummy, you managed to top every guy i felt something for. i need to let you go, but i still want to hold on on the idea i had the of you. i ask myself if i like you or if i like the idea of you. i have to let go, but how do i let go. do i stop texting you, and then hope you'll text me back? do i block you and hope you'll text me somewhere else? do i start seeing someone else and then cy when you finally got with the girl you wanted all along. i have to let you go, but i cant. but i need to, and if seeing you with another girl is what it takes for me to move on, i dont want it. yes i'd rather leave than fight, but can you blame me? sending me mixt signals, talking about other girls in front of me. if you're not the one for me, i will wait for the one. i don't think i loved you, i think i loved the idea of you. but i guess it's time for me to let you go. but please, let me go too. im begging you. i cant keep going if you keep pulling me in. just show me that you're not interested. what changed between us? did you get bored? did you find me attractive first but then you saw another girl walk past me and your heart flipped. i hope you'll find the one. i wish you luck, this is me letting you go. thank you for everything.

we had a good run. thank you for being one of my best friends. thank you for showing me how to live for myself. thank you for teaching me how to leave toxic people. thank you. but fuck you too

at this point who knows if you actually liked me or you just lied to get what you wanted. I rather not know.

You were one of my closest friends. I loved you deeply. But we got away, now you got someone that makes you happier, and I am happy for you too. I am sorry we changed so much that we can't talk anymore without feeling awkward. I miss our special "New Year" call.

I refuse to apologize to a person who left after I begged to talk things out . YOU left things like that, not me.

the only comfort i get now is pretending im holding you instead of my stuffed animal at night, how humiliating for me.

I’m still here for you always whenever you need me hoping that someday you’ll realise you’ve loved me this whole time and i’m the one. But I know you won’t deep down and I can’t move on I need you to love me even if I don’t love you back. You hurt me so much you don’t care how I feel you saw me cry and you didn’t even touch me you didn’t hug me or kiss me why? Why did you not care enough? There’s a hole in my chest I feel it and it’s not there when you make me happy. I miss the old you when we used to stay up late with eachother talking about our future and how happy we made eachother. We used to tell eachother we love eachother so much. You were my everything all I ever needed in my life was you. If I lost everyone back in 2nd year and just had you I wouldn’t care. You cared for me then you loved me I know you did but it’s gone and we both can’t get it back. My life is better when your not here I don’t cry I don’t think about you I know it’s better to let you go but how can I let you go when you meant so much to me. You used to be my everything and when I thought of you my whole heart smiled I was the happiest person back then but that person is gone and i’m not okay. I love you always and forever and I’ll have love for you for the rest of my life. You’ve broken my heart too many times and I don’t know if I can trust anyone anymore. I don’t wanna feel what I felt with you when you treated me like that. I want to say goodbye forever but it’s complicated. I love you I love you so much it’s what I always wanted to say I love you I wanted us to try at our relationship I wanted it to be perfect I wanted you I still want you I love you even if you don’t feel the same. I love you

I love you so much it’s sickening. I sit here and cry alone Bc I know I screwed up but i will forever love you. Even if you don’t come back and u stay with her Bc she’s nice

him... i miss you so much and you don’t even know. we broke up 5 year ago and i’m still in love with you. i don’t want to date u again. not yet. i truly believe that u were the one. i miss you. i miss going up to you and asking for huggies and then us hugging. i miss u doing literally anything i wanted even if it was the stupidest thing. lol ily