Unsent messages to WILL

i keep listening to lady may on repeat. i remember that happiness and feel stupid for taking it for granted.

every night you slip into my head and my heart skips three beats it hearts so bad how much i miss you

i'm sorry i didn't see until after it was too late. i miss your heart beat and running my fingers through your hair.

You're one of the only boys who treated me right. I still trust you to this day and I still have everything you gave me. Hope you're good.

im scared that it could just turn out like my last relationship. i dont know if your interested in my enough to keep caring and trying. your already starting to air me. i feel like im losing you ever though we are nothing.

It took me too long to realise that I was worth way more than the way you treated me and how u made me feel

does your mother know you took the virginity of a girl who trusted you more than anything? and better yet does she know how you broke her?

the way you touched my body was with a hunger that had nothing to do with me and everything to do with your dick. fuck you.

youre using me. you never actually thought i was pretty. youre just like everyone who ive fallen for. ur just using me. all u ask me for are nudes all the time. i actually like you will. i really do. you absolute cunt.

You were “the one” in my eyes. But ur heart was always too big for just one woman. Ur head is big too.

I was scared to tell you the truth because I thought that you would think I was a bad person for not being able to stop it.

i never knew how you felt about me. now that i know, i always think about the what ifs. if i’m being honest, i don’t even know how i feel about you. but i do know you’re someone extremely special to me, and i wish we were able to be more honest about our feelings. so please, one day, just let me know.

Happy one year anniversary of you telling me you never loved me and blaming me for being upset about it then telling all your friends I was the crazy one for believing one word that came out of your fucking mouth!

You are the first person who has ever loved me. I’m sorry I didn’t say it back right then. But I love you too.

I don't think I'll ever stop thinking about you. I'll always wonder what we could've been. I hope you do too

there was a time in my life where i craved validation. i begged the lord to unite me with my soulmate, and coincidentally i met you. are you really the one? or am i still just too much of a dreamer.

Part of me wishes you were here so that you could tell me what I should do but I know I have to figure it out without you. I really miss you.

i wish you could’ve seen yourself the way i saw you, it’s hard now, but things change and that’s life.

i thought i loved you and i feel so stupid for that. but thank you for being in my life and teaching me that sometimes people are just assholes for no reason. you really sucked

I feel like in a world where terrible things are constantly happening to good people and the universe doesn't care who you are and all the good deeds you've done when it shows up on your doorstep to punch you in the face, in a world where all of that happens constantly and is so unfair and cruel and unpredictable, if the universe somehow managed to find you and let you be happy and got it right, then I can't be mad at you for that. Good people deserve good things. She's a good thing. I'm happy for you, Will. I honestly am. When I first heard, I admit, I was a little caught off guard, but mostly I was proud of you. Before anything, we were friends. We used to be good friends and through everything I never wanted to hurt you or for you to be un happy and I think despite all we put each other through, you ended up happy. Just know that I'm okay and I'll be okay. You go and be happy. You did good.

hey
i'm sorry i was so direct and upfront.
We never had a proper conversation but I always got butterflies when I saw you. You can't understand how safe you make me feel every time I'm around you. I wish you opened up to me.
I love you

hey lol i really miss you. i know you really liked me and i feel terrible just cutting you off like that

i will never know if u felt the same. but thank u for everything. u pinky promised to come back. im still here. waiting for u.

Our story isn’t over. It can’t be. I don’t get you a lot of the time but I do get one thing. That one thing is that no matter how hard I try to love someone else, I can’t because I love you and only you. I wish I could tell you all this I really wish I could, but I can’t. I don’t want to force anything between us either so I’m letting fate take it’s toll and I’m letting nature decide what will happen between us. I love you.

i’m glad we still get to talk each day and hang out but it’s been nearly 4 years since i ended things between us and man i just miss you and the feeling of being able to call you mine. i am still in love w you

I loved you with everything I had. The pain I feel from what you did to me is still raw as if if happened yesterday.

i miss you. i'm scared that you're going to cut me off because we can't see each-other at the moment. honestly, its okay if you do cut me off. i understand.

i actually think i am in love with you. i have never felt this way before. i'm sorry we cant see each other

Sometimes I wish I never knew you. Sometimes I wonder if any of it was worth it. Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever escape. You destroyed me.
But I’m still here

I think we had a problem, not a bad one, but it ended up tearing us apart. I still love you, and I can’t figure out way.

I'm happy for you, Will. Anyone who you love is a lucky person and she's a good person to love. At least I think she is. She seems nice enough and I think she would make you happy. I hope she loves you back. I really do. Because getting your heartbroken is not something you ever deserved.

I miss you so much. Hope I can see you again. You are really special to me and I will always love you.

You weren't my first love but you were one of the most sweetest boy going. now you've moved on. i hope your dogs are well:)

It's been a year and you still linger at the back of my mind. I need to get over you soon rather than later.

Hey, we were on and off for a while and then you'd say you'd text me in a month because I was too distracting. I miss you and it's an everyday battle to love you from a distance

Hey you. It's been a while. I know you thought we were just friends-with-benefits but for me, my feelings for you were real. There were always real from the very beginning. I wish we were something more, that I could say I love you and not make you run away. I used to joke about being in love and you would always say that's not the relationship we had. It crushed me, but I smiled through that hurt so I could make you stay, so you could still be in my life. Its been over a year since we last talked and I do miss you terribly, I miss how you made me feel, both in bed and just in general. But I have to move on from you. I need to love someone else, someone who would love me back. I need to be strong enough now, so when you pop up out of the blue with a "hey xx", I won't come crawling back, like I have done in the past. I have found someone new, and I hope he can make me build my confidence in being intimate with someone again. I just want to say that I loved you and I still care about you, but I do not want you to contact me ever again, you'll break my heart too much.

I liked you for 4 years straight and never even looked at another boy, but when I told you how I felt you played with my feelings and made me think you felt the same way.

I know you never felt the same but I love you, I miss you. I wish we could go back to when we started

We were too young to know what we actually liked. So what I am saying is now I know that I don’t like you

i ruined it. im so sorry. i think i loved you at some point. i miss the songs you would tell me to listen to.

how can i get closer to you? i want you to feel like you can be yourself. will we ever say I love you? how long is this going to last? is the fleeting attachment worth the pain? i always miss you.

If only you loved me the way I love you, I think we would still have a chance at falling in love with each other

thank you, you thought me how to love me and not to take anyone/ anything for granted cause they might not always be there. for all that you've done im willing too forgive you. so, here is what I've been up to: i met a new guy, he treats me how you did. he doesn't love me as much as you did, but finding you you dated my best friend a week after we broke up i take it you never loved me as much, but her and i are still friends aren't as close. i wish i could build up the courage to text you but i can't, it will be weird. i still think about you, almost every day. we would've been dating for over a year now, everyday i think about you and what we had. it hurts to know ill never have what we had again. sometimes i think about what would happen if i just text you, like what would you say, would you respond as quick, would you care as much, could we just have a normal conversation again. or have i ruined that to?

it's been you. even through shitty middle school and endless relationships it's been you. i'm sorry i didn't see it sooner. we have a second shot. let's use it :)

you were 18 and i was 15. i know i loved you and i won't ever forget you, but when i look back it feels wrong.

lol i know were still friends but i remember how we used think we were dating in preschool lol, it was fun while it lasted but you know we were just like 4, also your an asshole just thought you should know that.

you were my best friend. a year ago i told you i was in love with you and we both cried in each other's arms. i miss you. come back.

Its been almost three years. And I still wonder if we could have made it, if we were meant to be.

But then I remember how easily you crushed my heart.

Hey Will it’s me. Just wanted to let you know that the sound of your voice makes my heart absolutely melt.

Do you remember our first date? You chased the sunset for me, opened the door for me, spun me around and then kissed me. I think about that night a lot still