I stopped texting you first and it’s been 5 years since we last texted. If I didn’t stop would we still be in touch?

I really miss you. I wish I could tell you everything that’s happened these past few months. It’s been so hard for me and I wish I could hear your voice. I hope things go well for you and you find someone who’s worth it. I’ll forever love you from a distance.

i rewrote this a thousand times because i just have so much to confess and tell u. i miss u. i know youre never ever gonna forgive me for this, but im truly sorry. i fantasize about running away with you to another country

I thought you really cared, but the pain you put me through out weighs the connection I thought we had

I started dating a guy that popped his thumbs like you and I do. It made my stomach drop because you were the only other person I knew who did that too. I had to end it with him.

You didn't know what was "for the best" for us. You just didn't want to try harder because you knew you couldn't apologize for everything you lied about that I found out.

I know you never felt the same but I love you, I miss you. I wish we could go back to when we started

You are the best friend I don't know what it would be like if I had never met you. When you talk to me, my day is lit up and I will never forget how much you made me laugh and the weird noises that I only found funny. I miss you the absolute most and I will never forget you. I feel like if I needed to come to anyone and tell them my issues, I know you would laugh and my face but still maybe help me. Miss you the most

i can't listen to 505 without thinking of you. i've loved you since the 4th grade. we're what, sophomores now? its crazy how fast time flies. i loved watching you grow up into the amazing, kind, funny boy you are now. i don't know what i would do without you. i know you don't like me in the way i used to but i think i'm finally getting over it. i don't want my feelings to ruin our friendship. i love you bro.

i speak to the moon and the stars about you, i made peace with the thought of you not being around. but i still ponder on what we could be here and there

dude where do i start. so it's been 2 years of liking u. i can't get u off my mind. all day, every day it's u. i KNOW the feelings not mutual, but i can't bear the thought of moving on from you, i know we're not gonna happen cause i'm wayyy out of ur league, but i wish we could be together. GOD i hate you, but i also wish i could tell you how much i love you. maybe one day.

I hate that I still love you. I hate that despite how much you broke me, I’d go back without hesitation.

I liked you for 4 years straight and never even looked at another boy, but when I told you how I felt you played with my feelings and made me think you felt the same way.

I don't want to think about you anymore you ruined my life. You took everything from me and destroyed all I had and now I have nothing and you have everything. All I did was try to love you and you're still punishing me for it. I want to get away from you so badly. From here. From everyone who hates me so much because of you.

Hey you. It's been a while. I know you thought we were just friends-with-benefits but for me, my feelings for you were real. There were always real from the very beginning. I wish we were something more, that I could say I love you and not make you run away. I used to joke about being in love and you would always say that's not the relationship we had. It crushed me, but I smiled through that hurt so I could make you stay, so you could still be in my life. Its been over a year since we last talked and I do miss you terribly, I miss how you made me feel, both in bed and just in general. But I have to move on from you. I need to love someone else, someone who would love me back. I need to be strong enough now, so when you pop up out of the blue with a "hey xx", I won't come crawling back, like I have done in the past. I have found someone new, and I hope he can make me build my confidence in being intimate with someone again. I just want to say that I loved you and I still care about you, but I do not want you to contact me ever again, you'll break my heart too much.

yes we loved eachother, but why did you make me so anxious and sad sometimes. i like learning about myself & loving myself now. i don't get anxious as much anymore.

william
i love you. know you will always be apart of me and have a special place in my heart. thank you for giving me your all and for loving me so much. I wish you didn't live so freaking far.

Sometimes I miss you. I miss you rambling about your stupid kins, I miss you rambling about your friends and the dumb shit they do, I miss when we played games together. I miss you. I love you. Please don't leave me hanging like this

i regret not choosing you. i want our friendship back, but it will never be the same as it was before.

i miss u. i wonder if you’ll see this. i wish we could talk and be friends but our lives don’t fit right together idk i wish you would text me and want me to be in ur life again i have so much to tell u

I don't regret it, but I do need to move on, I miss you loads but i guess it wasn't it for us
Go live your best life for me

the feeling I miss the most is lying wrapped up in your arms and knowing everything was going to be ok

Hey, we were on and off for a while and then you'd say you'd text me in a month because I was too distracting. I miss you and it's an everyday battle to love you from a distance

we were so close we told each other everything. but the then but i watch your eyes as the walks by what a sight for so eyes.

you’re the best brother i could ask for. i hope you have the best life because you deserve it. i love you so much more than you’ll ever know

i think i am over you, or if not the closest i have ever been to getting over you. imagine not valuing me, u really missed out x

i will never forgive myself for what i did. i wish when you looked at me you still saw something beautiful and pure.

By the time you actually chose me it was too late. I’m not a back up choice so don’t treat me like one

hey this is random but if you're in lanc we should catch up sometime. i know this is kinda weird since we haven't talked in a long time but yeah just lmk what you think no pressure lol

you wanted me, don't lie to yourself. i saw the way you looked at me, the way you held my hand, the way you kissed me goodnight. don't you dare think you're better than me because you ghosted.

I still can't believe you left. I still love you and now you love someone new. Do you ever think about me?

I hope she makes you happy like I never could. You want nothing to do with me now, but I hope you have the most beautiful life. I miss you.

I think I miss your hugs the most. Or maybe the way you'd pull me in right before a kiss. I hope our paths cross again someday.

I'm sorry we didn't work out, I rly wanted us to, I just wanted to live my life, and you wanted someone good. but I think sometimes good isn't enough, and you deserved someone better than good. you don't believe me but you're gonna find someone else, and she's gonna care about you even more than you cared about me, and hopefully you'll let me be there to see it happen. all I want is to see you happy, and maybe things might change in the future, I promise to keep an open mind :) but for now I'll stay for as long as you let me, cause you're always gonna be one of the best things in my life and I don't want you to miss out on your best things. love u longtime loser, forever and always

Remember when it was 2am in the kitchen and you pulled me in and told me you loved me. What happened to that?

It's been a year and you still linger at the back of my mind. I need to get over you soon rather than later.

You are the most intelligent person I've ever met. You're going to do great things. I'm sorry that life was hard for you, you didn't deserve that. I'm so glad that you stuck around and I'm proud of you.

i just blocked you on everything. im tired of feeling like an inconvenience to you. doesnt mean this doesnt hurt like hell.

I miss you so much my heart aches from the moment I wake up until I fall asleep again. It's been 8 months- when will it stop?

sometimes I wish we just stayed friends, I wish we were still friends. i don't miss you but sucks that we lost our friendship

I should've listen to you when you told me to go kill myself. I still don't know what I did to deserve that.

You weren't my first love but you were one of the most sweetest boy going. now you've moved on. i hope your dogs are well:)

I will never be able to express how grateful I am for the fact that you exist, and I get to know you.

I don't know if I can call you my first 'love', but you were the first to break me. I still don't know what I did wrong.

I wanna ask you out so bad bro but you're so intimidating man. You're smart and funny and the rants you go on are so cute and the way we always yearn about living in cottages is so fun and I love it when you send me videos of literally anything, even if it's just something weird you noticed in the background of a show. I really like you but I'm scared to reach out

I miss you so much. Hope I can see you again. You are really special to me and I will always love you.

After 3 years I’ve finally comes to terms you never loved me how i loved you. your words mean nothing.

i still don’t know what i did wrong, if i did anything at all. i hope you’re happy, and i hope that you know that i’ll always come back.

You hurt me in ways I can not explain. I trusted you and you took my trust and basically said it doesn’t matter. Hope your having fun with my bestfreind

God, things were so messed up back then. High school was not kind to me, and I feel like you probably made it worse. If I could take back those feelings and relive those years, I really would. I by no means blame you, those years made me who I am today, but if I could go back and do things differently? I would. I would never write you those letters, or that Valentines day card in reply to a fake one you sent me. I would never of told anyone about the things I wrote about you in my journal. God, things could have been so much simpler. Sometimes I find the letters that weren't sent to you and I read them back and I just, I cringe. But as I said, if it wasn't for the social rejection and your rejection back then, I wouldn't be who I am today. I just wish you would have told me I didn't have a chance instead of leading me on for those three years like I had a chance.
that's it. I'm done.

never yours, T.