Unsent Messages

Hey you. It's been a while. I know you thought we were just friends-with-benefits but for me, my feelings for you were real. There were always real from the very beginning. I wish we were something more, that I could say I love you and not make you run away. I used to joke about being in love and you would always say that's not the relationship we had. It crushed me, but I smiled through that hurt so I could make you stay, so you could still be in my life. Its been over a year since we last talked and I do miss you terribly, I miss how you made me feel, both in bed and just in general. But I have to move on from you. I need to love someone else, someone who would love me back. I need to be strong enough now, so when you pop up out of the blue with a "hey xx", I won't come crawling back, like I have done in the past. I have found someone new, and I hope he can make me build my confidence in being intimate with someone again. I just want to say that I loved you and I still care about you, but I do not want you to contact me ever again, you'll break my heart too much.