i keep listening to lady may on repeat. i remember that happiness and feel stupid for taking it for granted.

i don't know how you feel abt me. it's confusing. you're confusing. but i think that i like you. for real, this time.

For two years, all of my daydreams were about you. Anytime I went anywhere, I fantasized about seeing you there. But when I did finally see you again, it didn't feel the same.

I wish you cared for me when I need you the most not just when it was convenient for you or when you’d get something from it. I went against my morals for you and you don’t care.

i just heard about your grandad, i know i am the last person you probably want to hear from which is completely justified but i am sobbing at the thought of you and your family being upset. i know how much you cared about him and in an alternate universe i would be comforting you and i am so sorry that it couldn’t be that way and i really hope you are okay and someone is looking after you

pink was the color you said i looked good in. lol. we first met from our friends dating, u were such a hoe and literally such a player to the whole friend group. i liked u since the moment i met u. u always flirted with me and played with my feelings all the time. u were so toxic, yet i still stayed there for you when you had no friends and even when u were in the wrong. i stayed for you, stayed there when you were crying at night about ur breakups, ur parents' divorce, ur grades, when u lost all ur friends, when u missed ur ex, everything that happened, i was there for you. you never helped me like i helped you, you never did anything for me. u didnt loose friends for me like i did for you. i left my best friend I've known since kinder for you and to be your friend. fuck u will. i was in love with you and guess what you didnt care u decided to play me. i actually tried. i tried staying. i tried being loyal. i did everything i could do for you to like me. even if it wasn't that kind of like, i just wanted u to love me back. care for me, want me, ask about my day; to do everything i did for you. yeah. you stopped being my friend after you met better people who treat u like shit. you rather have a popular friendgroup who goes to a diff school for clout. you don't care about me or any of ur real friends. all u care about is clout. that's exactly why u chose her. u chose them. everyone over me. after u left me i bet you had no care about me. i on the other hand was crying almost every night, i asked people about you, read our old texts, told people, asked people for advice, told my sister. u broke me. whenever someone mentions my name around u you prob laugh and think I'm the crazy girl who liked u while when someone mentions ur name around me, i try to smile it off and to not cry. lol I'm trying my best to get over u but i will always love u at the bottom of my heart. love u loser maybe in another lifetime

I liked you. I liked the way your voice broke when you laughed. I liked the way you tried to act tougher than you are. I liked that you made me feel cared for. I didn't want to catch feelings, I refused to let myself fall for you. but something about you made me feel comfortable, made me seek the very thing I fear most. vulnerability. I never let anyone close to me. ever. but I thought this time would be different. and I let myself fall, because I thought you were falling with me. then you told me im hot and that you'd fuck me, but you'd never date me. and that hurt a lot. am I really nothing more than how I look? I tried my best to make you feel the way you made me feel. loved, cared for, special. but I wasn't enough. it destroys me to know we could never be anything more than friends with benefits. so I have to push you away. for my own sanity. I just wish you could see me as something other than an object. if you need me ill be sitting on the hill, drinking pesticide

when i think about you, my throat closes and my eyes water. why didn’t we work? why didn’t you love me enough?

if you are ever on here, please text me. please tell me you miss me too, i need you. i cant wake up or fall asleep without your sweet name on my mind. please, i beg you. come back

Every day since you left has felt like someone pulled my heart out of my chest and now I have to live my life pretending that I'll be fine without it.

I don't really understand what happened. I think I messed it up and if I could go back and change things, I would. I love you so much and want you back.

Thank you for shattering me into millions of pieces. I grew new flowers through the ashes, but you never changed.

I wish there was a way to let you go without forgetting you because the only thing keeping me from moving on is not wanting to forget how it felt to be loved by someone like you.

Missin you a lot tonight. Mostly just having you as my best friend, partner in crime. Love you still.

You’re the only person to make me cry from happiness. I know things didn’t work out but I’m still here and I’m happy today because of you.

You were the first guy I actually liked but dang..you were such a douche. Can’t believe I rlly cried over you. I say that because I’m still upset but you low key deserve it. Don’t you ever play a girl again like you did me. Never got to finish that challenge you made for me, that was nice of you. The fact that you did that for me, was what rlly made me like you. I miss you...sorry for calling you a douche up above lol?

All I ever wanted was for you to love me. I want you to know that I don't hate you, in spite of everything.

i like the colour green because of you. it makes me smile knowing i finally met a man that cares about me in the way that you do:)

I loved you more than anything. I will always be here for you but our love is no longer the same. It’s different now.

i miss how you made me laugh. i wish i could figure out my feelings before. you also made me hate myself. i hate you for that.

thank you for the endless I love you's, kisses at red lights, hugs goodbye, cute anniversary texts, smiles, laughs, and most importantly for showing me what I deserve. I really just want the best for both of us, and I hope that we can talk again someday when we are both happier. I love you so much (from a distance) sweet boy.

You will always be my first love. I just wish i hadn’t ruined things because I know things will never be the same.

After everything this is what happened. I didn't expect it to end like this nor did I want it to. How'd you expect me to react. Be fine with it and not say anything. You never really wanted me, you knew it would never be me. I was just your temporary person, the one that would make you feel good until you realized you didn't need me anymore. I tried to be the best I could and I know I wasn't able to be the person you always wanted me, but I tried my best. I hope you find the person you always wanted cause I guess I just wasn't her.

I only just met you and I feel like we were meant to be. I've never had such intelligent and smooth conversations as I do with you

Do you remember our first date? You chased the sunset for me, opened the door for me, spun me around and then kissed me. I think about that night a lot still

i will never know if u felt the same. but thank u for everything. u pinky promised to come back. im still here. waiting for u.

hey lol i really miss you. i know you really liked me and i feel terrible just cutting you off like that

I think it's just crazy because we never know what's going to happen to us or where we're going to end up. There's not that much time before both of us are going in different directions forever and life will be open for any possibility to come our way. You would tell me to be excited about it and not to be afraid of it, I know you would, but I can't help but wonder where you and I are going to be as soon as we leave here and if we'll be okay. We could be anyone we wanted to be. I hope you end up exactly where you've always wanted. I hope I do too. We've had so much time to adjust and accept that we're both leaving and yet I don't think it would ever be enough. I'm never going to be ready to completely leave you behind but I think I'm only going to happy if I do. It's hard. I think it's that way because I can't remember the last time I saw you. What we said. I think it's because I never thought that would be the last time. I always was so selfish with my time with you. I always thought there would be more than that. Anyway, hope you're doing well. I know you'll be amazing wherever you do and whatever you do.

I lied before when I wished that our souls were not made of the same stuff. You are the only one I could ever crave.

I wish I could’ve appreciated you enough back then to know how good I had it. I’m sorry.
I hope she’s everything you wanted and needed.

You did things to me that I can't never forgive you for. I went through so much pain in order for you to get your pleasure. I thought you loved me, but I was wrong.

it’s been 5 months, and your face is still the last thing i think off as I fall asleep, but I think it’s her face in ur head

thank you for making me realise my life is worth living , and thank you for making me believe i’m worth it.

hey
i'm sorry i was so direct and upfront.
We never had a proper conversation but I always got butterflies when I saw you. You can't understand how safe you make me feel every time I'm around you. I wish you opened up to me.
I love you

Hey Will it’s me. Just wanted to let you know that the sound of your voice makes my heart absolutely melt.

You will forever be my right person wrong time. I think the universe will let us give us a shot again one day.

Thankyou for always holding me together when I needed you, and I’m sorry things didn’t work out the way we wanted. You see, I really did hope it would work, and I’m so sorry that I let you down. I’ll always be here for you, and I’m glad you’re happy with her. Thankyou for everything, until we meet again

thankyou for being the person who taught me to love and what it’s like to be loved. you are always in my heart.

months later i still dream of your ocean eyes and the way they told me the truth when your mouth couldn’t.

Its been almost three years. And I still wonder if we could have made it, if we were meant to be.

But then I remember how easily you crushed my heart.

I love you but not in the way you want me to and I'm so dreadfully sorry for that because I care about you so much and I don't ever want to see you upset so seeing that I'm causing your pain is killing me.

After one year, I still can't go in that stupid park, because it reminds me of you, the day that we met. (the background is black because its your favorite color, I still know that)

After on year, I still think of you before falling asleep, because it reminds me of the time that I was in your bed.

Why did you change your mind. You said you liked me... It still hurts, I still think about you. I don't know if I can ever fall as hard for another man as I fell for you. I hope you're okay.

you were my best friend. a year ago i told you i was in love with you and we both cried in each other's arms. i miss you. come back.

I begged and begged for the bare minimum and all you said was that I didn't even deserve that. why do I still love you.

I feel like in a world where terrible things are constantly happening to good people and the universe doesn't care who you are and all the good deeds you've done when it shows up on your doorstep to punch you in the face, in a world where all of that happens constantly and is so unfair and cruel and unpredictable, if the universe somehow managed to find you and let you be happy and got it right, then I can't be mad at you for that. Good people deserve good things. She's a good thing. I'm happy for you, Will. I honestly am. When I first heard, I admit, I was a little caught off guard, but mostly I was proud of you. Before anything, we were friends. We used to be good friends and through everything I never wanted to hurt you or for you to be un happy and I think despite all we put each other through, you ended up happy. Just know that I'm okay and I'll be okay. You go and be happy. You did good.

you told me purple was your favorite color. that night you only talked about yourself. you never asked any questions. i fooled myself into believing you liked me. i could count on one hand, how many questions you’ve asked.

when i looked at you i saw you, the person i cared most about. when you looked at me you saw her, i just held her place

why did you say the things you said? You knew that those types of things hurt me. You knew everything about me, and then you used it all against me.