You've been left alone for 11 years, with no one to talk to about your feelings. Your trapping that little 5 year old girl in her cage, surrounded by a dragon. I think it's time to let her go, and run along the fields and meadows.

What happened to us? We used to tell each other everything and get along now we hate to see each other. Its a tragedy really.

i realize that most of my problems and issues are created by you and that you should forget these stupid ideas and feel good again

Why? Why isn’t easy like everyone else? Because whoever sent all this knew you could beat it and do great things.

Stop being scared of coming out just do it, my parents have already said they thought I was a lesbian just say I’m bi or pan. I dont even know what I am bi or pan

I’m sorry for everything I’ve said to u and that I can’t treat u better ur a child and deserve better than me:(

I know things are hard my girl, u have gone threw a lot. But remember there is always worse and u haven’t lived it yet So to someone somewhere your still winning..and to that person, I’m so very sorry

Am i really who people think i am? I don’t want to be a girl. I want to be a pretty skinny boy that’s feminine in a boy way. I want to be a boy.

i don't know why you do this to yourself. deep down you know nobody could ever love you. you're too broken.

i know you try to love me. and i know you try your best. but why do you only pick the people that hurt you?

You used to be the happiest girl in the world, what did we do wrong? Why are you always trying to hurt yourself?

hey bad bittchhh,
how u doin'...
why weren't you nicer to yourself back then? it was rough but you shouldn't have given up, we both know that.
you should've hanged in there longer babe

please treat yourself kindly, make yourself feel pretty, buy yourself gifts, learn to love yourself.

and don't forget that living doesn't mean huge goals. did you ever learn how to skate? ever learnt a new song on your piano? if not, that's okay. get up and do it now.

as for school, i hope you didn't forget that popularity will never be important. please tell me you actually paid attention during those awful
history lectures with mrs m.

your future doesn't need to be a huge one. just LIVE baby. live.

live in the fucking moment. live like you won't live again, because at one point, you really won't. and you'll regret it.

do what makes YOU happy, and if you don't know what that is, then try out different things until you find your true happiness.

i love you bitch.
and forever will

I’ve never truly been nice to you until now, and I apologize for that. I love you. We need each other to survive, and I will do better with the negativity. That’s the least I can do with everything we’ve been though. I’m proud of you.

I know it's hard to take care of yourself. I know there are days you think nothing's worth it. Keep going. You're getting there.

wish everyone the best sometimes you cant see that your in a maze until you look up. i need to focus on myself.

Its so hard to love you sometimes.most of the time i dont. ill wake up hating you for putting me through so much. Its difficult to understand why im so young and why it had to happen so quickly,i never asked for this kind of life so why do you force me to do this to myself? im a kid i dont derserve any of this. so why do you call me selfish when im trying for myself? why?

You got this bubba keep going he will one day see how good you were to him and want you back but just let.him.go.

stop living for everyone else and find yourself. youre so selfless that it physically hurts. stay alive.
I love you

I can't walk into my kitchen anymore without thinking of the day that started it all. I really fucked up.

i wish i learned how love myself before i let everyone tell me something that would later on affect the way i see myself

treat yourself better. give yourself breaks. you deserve them more then you realize. you’re trying your hardest. you got this. please don’t give up. i love and trust you. you deserve the world.

why can’t you just love yourself? you always preach kindness but can’t be any worse to yourself than you already are.

the song talk to me by cave town makes we so sad becuase i know knowone will ever care about me enough

i’m so proud that you are now happy and in the place you wanted to be. i know the struggle you dealt with coming to terms with yourself and your insecurities and how what you saw of your appearance caused you pain. i love how you now love yourself and don’t desire anybody’s validation or acceptance like you needed before. your own happiness is what makes you whilst relying on everybody else for happiness through validation breaks you. ily.

i know you’ve done things you aren’t proud of. i know you know you shouldn’t have done them nor do you know the reason why you did it. maybe because you craved attention and validation that you never got when you were younger. maybe it was a way to feel ‘useful’ or ‘needed’ but now i realise that it gave me no purpose either way. i know that nobody will ever let go of this one and ppl will still use it against me although i’ve changed and never wanted to do it in the start. they don’t know how many times i cried bcs of it or felt sick or pity for myself bcs i knew it was my fault at the end of the day. no matter how much time passes, people always hold onto the past so there is no escaping this.

please hold on for just a bit longer. i feel you slipping away. dont go back to the bottom of the blue hole, we can’t fucking swim.

You have the ability to make me feel good and then bad in a matter of seconds, and that is destroying me

i don’t know if i can keep doing this, we’re falling apart and a part of me wants to break us even more. i don’t want to leave but i also do. the times we have together are amazing but the more memories we make the more distant we become. everything about us screams pain and insecurity. this whole message could be to myself or to you. it’s so similar which is what drives us apart and spending time alone makes me want to not go on any longer. there’s no escape.

stop using people. get on with it and cut off everyone for their benefit. i wish you never existed, but youre so manipulative and toxic for what? you always get away with everything, you always get what you want whether itd be a person, a substance, money, an object, a favor, etc. please please get on with it and kill yourself, you already experienced everything in your 15 years of living either way. you experienced everything no one should go through and you deserve it so don't even complain. at least youre not ugly and at least youre charming, shit, if you were ugly youd be far back in life lmao.

why are you so convinced that one day he will leave? do you not recognize how much he loves you? you heard him last night whisper "i love you so much" when he thought you were asleep. you see the way he looks at you. you hear the way he talks about you. why are you so sure that if you open up- he's going to leave? he's not like the others. but everyone says that. but he really isn't. you're fighting yourself. you can trust him. you're not feeling okay right now and you haven't been feeling that way for the past couple of days. that doesn't mean he's going to up and leave you, okay? he loves you. you love him. please allow yourself this chance at love. it's okay.

Why can’t you just learn how to love? You hurt so many amazing people just because you don’t know how to have feelings.

you made me hate myself for the longest time, you made me feel useless and worthless and made me starve myself days on end. I never hated you, it was your toxic mindset all along

i will live a happy life and my future will be full of love and happiness. i will get through this and become stronger. i will receive reciprocated love very soon and i will get better.

you’ll be okay, i promise. shits hit the fan for now but, it will be over before you know it. get some sleep please :)

I remember the day I finally found a group.I smiled so much that day.I also remember the day I stopped.

i’m sorry i wasn’t enough for you. you deserved so much more than i could give. i’m so sorry. i wish we were enough.

we are starting to give up, but its okay. we lived longer than the doctors expected, i think it gave everyone too much hope. its getting bad again and i cant hold on through this again.

energy cant die. we will go on. we will be more. its okay to let go. we held on for so long and we were so strong, but our time is up.

I wish you would stop hurting. My brain hurts. I’m tired. I’m so tired. I wish you stopped driving everyone away because now when you need a hug there’s no one to give it to you. You did this to me. I hate you.

you've worked hard, you did a great job, you held on! PLEASE be proud of yourself! you deserve more, you deserve love, even if you aren't getting any at the moment, there will be a light at the end of the tunnel! just keep breathing, you've done well!

be gentle with yourself, you’ve been in a bad place for the last 3 years mentally n emotionally but you’re healing. im so excited for the future that you’re planning ahead n the success u been dreaming of, let’s make it reality

hi. you deserve so much better than you've received in the past. it doesn't define you. never let anybody treat you like that again.

you can do so much better than trying to find your worth in the words from boys that just want "pics" from you.

i am completely and utterly lost. i don’t know who you are or who your going to be. my only wish is that you’re all of the things i wish to be.

Why aren’t you ever good enough? You’re good at everything but never good enough for anything. You can sing, play the piano, cook, look pretty but never well enough. You attract guys but never the ones you want and never can make them stay. Youre not even smart anymore. You’re not doing well enough in school. You’re useless. And you’re miserable. Why do you bother.

you have to stop thinking that your friends are tired of you, they don't. Please do what you want when you want, others opinions don't matter so girl DO IT, use your favourite clothes, post whatever you fucking want, be you. There's only one life and you are overthinking everything, go, fall in love, watch your favourite movies, hang out, do it for yourself. You got this ;)

you are here for a reason. you have a purpose. live to see what that is. mom would want you to stay alive.

Don't take anyone for granted. Never get attached to someone ever again, eventualy they will leave you has they always do. I know you miss him but you cannot do anything to get him back, and, about her, don't ever love anyone as you loved her, i promise it is a bad idea, as i said earlier, they always end up leaving. Don't do anything stupid.

sometimes i feel pretty, but then i look in the mirror and notice the marks from my diabetes. i notice the skin disease i’m getting. but i especially not ice the 20 pounds i’ve gained. how i can’t fit in my xL pair of stretchy pants anymore because i have a binge eating problem. all i can do i look at myself and cry and cry and cry. my body is ugly. how can i feel beautiful when i’ve gained so much weight and when i’m surrounded by beautiful girls. my best friend is beautiful. she’s y’all skinny and gorgeous. she has all the guys going for her. her personality is great, so is mine i have a great heart but my body is not great. i hate it there are times i want to never eat again but i can’t i can’t control my eating

You remind me every day why I'm still here. I've loved you more than I'll ever love anybody else. Thank you.