i know you’ve done things you aren’t proud of. i know you know you shouldn’t have done them nor do you know the reason why you did it. maybe because you craved attention and validation that you never got when you were younger. maybe it was a way to feel ‘useful’ or ‘needed’ but now i realise that it gave me no purpose either way. i know that nobody will ever let go of this one and ppl will still use it against me although i’ve changed and never wanted to do it in the start. they don’t know how many times i cried bcs of it or felt sick or pity for myself bcs i knew it was my fault at the end of the day. no matter how much time passes, people always hold onto the past so there is no escaping this.
