Unsent messages to MYSELF

just know you are good enough and never let some random boy/girl try and change the way you act and dont let someone call you names just ignore them its the best thing possible keep trying to love yourself because one day you will get there but not rn keep being you please you need to love yourself even when you think you cant you can do it i promise you dont keep people close because some people will break you or make you because they will always leave i wanna promise myself i will never lose myself or get heartbroken over someone who left me for another girl because alyssa you are in a very good relationship it may not feel like it right now but you are yall both are very busy girls and its gonna be hard when people try to tell you what your sexuality is like let me live my life

I feel trapped inside of a maze that I can’t escape from and I feel like I’m isolated, like I have no one to turn to.

Well done. You've made it. i'm proud of you. you're beautiful and it's going to get easier. i love you

It's tough when nobody loves you, so you have to love yourself and hope that you'll be loved one day.

When you realise what you want, please try to go after it. Every time you figure yourself out, it’s always too late.

When you realise what you want, please try to go after it. Every time you figure yourself out, it’s always too late.

i have to love my self first. but, i hate myself so much. i just wanna kill myself before the world end. I'm feel so fucking tired of all this shit. I just wanna fucking die. Love is a lie. people just wanna people to make yourself less lonely. fuck all. fuck me. fuck the world. have a good day! goodbye :)

I miss how I used to be when i was young. when did I become the person crying to go home even when sitting on the scratchy old carpets of the only house i've ever known. i miss her. i miss me.

im sorry. i loved you. i really did. i teared you down piece by piece until you were nothing, until you felt like nothing, until you accepted you were nothing. that was the worst, accepting it. realizing there was nothing you could do, it was too late. you were drowning. you’re still drowning. you had ways, ways to make it better but it never lasted. it was never better. i hope its better now. i hope it’ll be better. goodbye.

ik u been thru lotta stuff nd ur keeping ur energy positive. it’s ok 2 be bad, after all, all villains had bad pasts n r misunderstood.

i know i may not have done the right decisions and all of this is happening bcs of me , but i swear i am trying

he was every star in the sky. the sky was beautiful. a dark blue sky, with shining stars. i loved the sky. but the stars left. every single star disappeared. no one could give me the same stars. most didn't even bring any stars to the sky. but i need to learn, that the sky is also beautiful with no stars in it. i need to stop searching for the stars. no one will ever give me the same stars. but maybe ill find someone who gives me the moon. maybe ill always love the stars the most. maybe i don't want anything else besides the stars. and maybe ill fall in love with the moon but no matter what will happen, the empty sky will always be beautiful. i need to learn to fall in love with my empty sky too. and yeah, maybe its never gonna be as perfect as it was when it had the stars in it, but theres nothing i can do about it. just accept it and wish that you'll be reunited in the next life.

I'm terrified of the future, growing up, having responsibilities. I'm scared, I'll mess up, have a bad future

Fuck you i hope you die i hate you i hate you i hate you!!!!! You hurt people and enjoy it your a piece of shit you need to stop being so hyperactive no one will ever really love you they all fake it nothing is real your ugly your weird people talk about you behind your back your duscusting you look weird your nose is big your too fat your too skinny your to weak your too sad stop being anxious all the time this is why you never leave your house if you go to the mall she will be there and it will be so embarrassing and you'll die inside and your too ugly everyone will judge you and talk about you if you leave your house just sleep all day that's all you do anyway lazy shit fuck you fuck you fuckkkk youuuuuu everyone wants you dead you worthless ugly bitchhhh!!!!!!!

i’m really trying. it’s so hard. i want to give up but i can’t. always remember - dying a virgin is not an option

I hope years from now you look back and realize you have always been that bitch and you forever will be bitch xoxo

You love others so deeply that you lose the ability to love yourself. Stop letting yourself go for others who don’t do the same for you. It’s going to break you

I've, never felt this alone with so many people. we have 2 amazing bestfriends and friends, so why are we treating ourself like we have no one ? why do we have to push them away again and again. i fear i know what's happening, but i wish it wont. we cant go back down that hole. i cant.

mnogo te mrazq, ti si choveka koito bukvalno mi razbi jivota, ti si vinovna za vsichko. nadqvam se da opravish vichkata tazi burkotiq zashtoto inache az shte priklycha vsichko.

You will always try to find your Prince charming but stop worrying because when the time is perfect he will come to you.

sometimes i just wish there was a reason you are like this. a reason for this pain. it’s like i make you suffer for not having a reason for you feeling like sh*t. why won’t some just love you. it’s because no one wants to put up with all your crap. no one want someone as toxic and selfish as you anyway. you don’t deserve anyone.

it hurts knowing that your trying your hardest to stay alive, its difficult explaining how you feel , the way people react at triggers me i get very anxious , scared , and shaky but my parents dont understand they just think its a game or as if im acting, they just care about themselves

She was the girl that no one love but everyone loved at the same time. She never let anyone know anything about her. Yet everyone thought they did. She had a mysterious thing about her. She couldn't be kept down and society did like that.

I wanna touch your soft, pale skin. Brush your chocolatebrown hair. Stare into your hazel eyes and hug your m0thafUck!ng body....

im really toxic to be a relationship with someone. i could have no feelings towards them at all and be with them for years. i would feel to bad to end things and feel no romantic or emotional feelings. i like the idea of intimacy and the length of the relationship. i will love you, just not be in love with you and i hate that im like that. it breaks peoples hearts and there is no point of getting into a relationship if you dont see yourself with them in the future. we told eachother that we like eachother, but when i did that, it hurt the person that i loved the most. we're now talking and i think im regretting it. i like them, just not in that way anymore. i may get into a relationship with him because i dont know how to tell him i dont want to date him. than it may last years. and thats just years of hurting the other person that i love the most.

You need to tell them what’s going on. When they ask how are you. Tell them not good. Don’t hide behind your smile anymore. Tell them how sick you’ve been and how you don’t know if or when you’ll get better. Tell them how scared you are about all the unknowns about your health issues. Tell them that you force yourself to eat because your don’t have the will to do it anymore. Tell them how you don’t leave your room because it’s your safe place. Tell them how fake that smile is. And how lonely you are. And how alone you feel even though your surrounded by people. How even though you laugh and smile your hurting inside. How you’ve convinced everyone your doing great when really. Full honesty. Your not. Your doing bad. But you don’t tell anyone because you don’t want to look selfish. Or needy for attention. Or because they will say yeah me too as a joke but your really actually doing bad. Be honest with them. They love you. And they’ll still love you even in your worst. And even through the darkness that you feel consumed in. Because they are your light and you need them. So look in the mirror today and say you love yourself. Give yourself a compliment. Smile at yourself. Take the things you would change about yourself and say one thing you like about it. One reason it’s good. And if you can’t think of anything try again tomorrow. You are good enough to be loved and to love. So love yourself today because you deserve it.

you shouldnt have created those scars on your skin. now you're ashamed of yourself, and you're unable to wear short-sleeved shirts. pathetic.

Remember you are everything you ever need if u have urself you don't need anyone else.
Love Yourself.

I wish I could love myself, know my worth and not blame myself for being me. Im so sick of myself I keep comparing myself to the people around me.

i know it’s hard what you are going through and i know what you are doing to yourself and it’s so so bad and it’s not going to help all it’s doing is helping you lose weight but in ways that will ruin your body. love yourself please

your strong af, yk that. i’m so fucking proud of how far you’ve come and you continue to amaze me everyday. the things that go on in your head and the battles you fight and overcome each day are amazing and u are class, keep it up

I know that because of Mateo you feel like sharing your emotions is a burden to anyone, bbygurl if that’s the road you chose you have to learn to BE there for yourself. I know you’re trying really hard to love me. So so close, keep goin lovie.

dont you just love how your friends dont see your in a bad mood?
Its clearly there...they just dont see it.

I’m powerful. The beauty within me shines on the outside of me. I never chase I attract. My love is infinite. It’s everywhere

You got this bubba keep going he will one day see how good you were to him and want you back but just let.him.go.

you grew mountains this year. please be proud, you didn't even expect to live past 18. ill spend the rest of my life learning to love every part of you ive tried to ignore. i'm sorry i didn't see your worth till now.

currently feeling very fucking lost, my parents are always busy they say they care but they don't really. i tried talking to my mom last night and she just said go to sleep.

i wanna fucking run away everyone here is so fucking fake I'm sick of it

i hate you so much. you're an embarrassment, disgrace, and you will never be like the people around you. your family hates you. you're not special. just die

I am sorry for everything I did to you. I must not lose you again. Don´t let anyone change you, love u

I hope you are happy now. I am so proud of u that u made it so far. I promise I'm trying my best but idk if ima be able to meet u. if i survive I will i promise.

what made you hate yourself so much that you no longer even care about yourself. what happened to you.

Hey dawg, we're doing good rn and I am proud of how far we've come. Ik self-esteem has been low but just remember you're beautiful and appreciated.

to, amira, i love myself alot [me] hehe this will be a whole note so, hehe i love my family alot . and i will never stop loving them .. hehe so

I need to go somewhere. Not run away not die not anything just somewhere, somewhere that nobody knows. Somewhere where nothing is painful. Somewhere I can feel free and happy. Somewhere that does not exist. A perfect place for me. A universe where nothing is alive but me and nature. A place I can run and cry. Fly and lay where I want. A place I can fall in love and never get hurt. A place where all my worries just melt away. Where i can yell at the sky at the top of my lungs and no one can tell me otherwise. A place I can sit by the river and listen to music. A place I can fall, a place I can lay in a big field of dandelions and look at the sky and just let those feelings out and fall asleep. A place I can sing at the top of my lungs and sound horrible, but no one will hear me and say stop. A place I can be who I want and do what I want. A place where I can run and run and run and never stop because I do not have to. A place I do not have to worry about being a girl because of the men in the world. A place where I can wear what I want. Where I can go out and explore or take a walk at night without having to be scared, I am going to be kidnapped or killed or sexually assaulted. Where there is no school to stress me and no mom, dad, siblings to yell at me or make me feel worse. Somewhere, anywhere but here. A place I can finally breath. Where I can wear the prettiest dresses and the nicest shoes and walk around and feel like my life is complete. And as If there is something to live for. As if life was just a piece of cake. As if I just could let go.

youre just a stranger now. i thought i loved you but how much of that was a lie fed to you by your friends and family. don't worry. you'll always be good enough though. even when others put you down. you're smart, funny, courageous and so so beautiful. don't let societal standards define your worth. i love you.

I wish you could love me for who you are. I wish you could be enough, I wish you could be enough for others

your friends do care about you, dont let that little voice convince you they dont. i love you, we will be okay

You got this, it’s just a little wall you can get over it and you wil. Let it go and fix it because u can and u will

why are you feeling so empty and sad, I know your going through the thoughest years of your life, but just pick up the pieces and move your ass on.

sorry i destroyed you, it was for the better tho. we then created a better version and we learned and grew so much, i love you forever