From: ABC
To: myself
Date: January 5, 2021, 6:26 pm
My heart was trying to figure out who i needed to write about but the longer i thought the more i realized i dont have that person anymore, But the weird thing is im still hurt as if it were a person who hurt me but i just cant figure out who. I have the words i need to say to explain how this person hurt me but even typing the words doesnt help me because i cant think of the person who made me think of those words so it just feels empty. useless i guess. I felt so empty not knowing who i always wrote about but in the end i realized who i was writing about was myself. i hurt myself more than anyone could. All those sleepless nights werent caused by the people i blamed them for. I just found it easier to blame other people for my problems because i didnt wanna be thee person i was scared of but in the end it was me, it will always be me. im scared of myself. when i blamed it on other people it was easy to escape them. it was easier to run but now im unable to do that i became the personn i promised myself i would never be and now im stuck and i cant ask for help. please help me
