Unsent messages to MYSELF
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: November 8, 2020, 7:53 am UTC
You are the dumbest person ever. You let a boy, a boy you KNEW was trouble yet you still let him break your heart. You cried like an idiot every single night, crying over him when you know he doesn't care about you, he never did. You cried, asking why you are not good enough. Dumb piece of shit.
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: November 8, 2020, 3:28 am UTC
he loves you. he also loves his ex, he also likes the girl at college, he doesn't deserve you when he's like this
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: November 6, 2020, 4:34 am UTC
I hope you get everything you want. I hope that one day you are unconditionally loved like you always wanted because in the end, you deserve it. I love you be safe, Em.
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: November 5, 2020, 2:19 am UTC
i know it’s been a while since i’ve spoken to the mirror kindly, but i’ve been wondering. are you happy now?
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: November 5, 2020, 2:18 am UTC
i know it’s been a while since i’ve spoken to the mirror kindly, but i’ve been wondering. are you happy now?
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: November 4, 2020, 10:12 pm UTC
i know it’s been a while since i've spoken to the mirror kindly, but i’ve been wondering. are you happy now?
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: November 4, 2020, 10:11 pm UTC
i know it’s been a while since i've spoken to the mirror kindly, but i’ve been wondering. are you happy now?
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: November 3, 2020, 11:48 pm UTC
Somewhere along the line I changed, I stopped being me... and it doesn't look like i'll ever getting the real me back
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: November 2, 2020, 12:33 pm UTC
You have to stop defending him to others. He is attractive and charismatic, thats what society says makes a good person. But his actions have proven he’s not a good person. You need to start telling yourself and others he’s a bad person. His actions speak louder than what society says about his character.
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: November 1, 2020, 5:20 pm UTC
Don't take anyone for granted. Never get attached to someone ever again, eventualy they will leave you has they always do. I know you miss him but you cannot do anything to get him back, and, about her, don't ever love anyone as you loved her, i promise it is a bad idea, as i said earlier, they always end up leaving. Don't do anything stupid.
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: November 1, 2020, 4:49 pm UTC
you have to stop thinking that your friends are tired of you, they don't. Please do what you want when you want, others opinions don't matter so girl DO IT, use your favourite clothes, post whatever you fucking want, be you. There's only one life and you are overthinking everything, go, fall in love, watch your favourite movies, hang out, do it for yourself. You got this ;)
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: October 29, 2020, 8:34 pm UTC
You have the ability to make me feel good and then bad in a matter of seconds, and that is destroying me
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: October 28, 2020, 9:29 am UTC
I know it's hard to take care of yourself. I know there are days you think nothing's worth it. Keep going. You're getting there.
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: October 27, 2020, 8:47 pm UTC
i know you try to love me. and i know you try your best. but why do you only pick the people that hurt you?
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: October 25, 2020, 4:10 pm UTC
What happened to us? We used to tell each other everything and get along now we hate to see each other. Its a tragedy really.
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: October 25, 2020, 11:51 am UTC
You've been left alone for 11 years, with no one to talk to about your feelings. Your trapping that little 5 year old girl in her cage, surrounded by a dragon. I think it's time to let her go, and run along the fields and meadows.
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: October 22, 2020, 5:07 pm UTC
i love you, even if it took too long for me to realise that. i love you now, and im here, and i'll keep you safe.
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: October 21, 2020, 2:33 am UTC
I'm sorry that through your eyes you think you're not enough. And how you think you're not pretty enough to be with a good guy. The truth is you're more than enough but you don't want yourself to believe it.
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: October 19, 2020, 11:56 am UTC
i'm so sorry I treat you so badly. if I could be different, I would. I don't want to struggle anymore.
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: October 13, 2020, 6:22 am UTC
it’s hard but you have to stay. not for you, but for you but for others. you want to escape and i know you have wanted to for a while but you can’t. not for a while at least. keep holding on, you’ve made it this far.
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: October 12, 2020, 7:52 pm UTC
im trying so hard but ive left myself go and something doesnt feel right but i dont know what it is. hold on tho good things are coming.
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: October 11, 2020, 2:56 am UTC
i find it so hard to find my self worth, its like why do i even matter. it feels like im slowly losing my mind and theres nothing i can do about it. i tried. i tried so hard. but im tired, so so tired. and now its too late
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: October 11, 2020, 2:54 am UTC
i find it so hard to find my self worth, its like why do i even matter. it feels like im slowly losing my mind and theres nothing i can do about it. i tried. i tried so hard. but im tired, so so tired. and now its too late
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: October 10, 2020, 2:06 pm UTC
Hey you, where did you go. I miss being happy and careless. I miss loving and caring. I miss being the old me when none of the bad stuff had happend. I miss being me.
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: October 8, 2020, 11:18 am UTC
be proud of who you’ve been handling these past months. The silent battles you fought, the moments you had to humble yourself, wiped your own tears and pat yourself on the back.
you are so strong and i love you.
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: October 6, 2020, 4:56 pm UTC
What happened to u? U use to be so happen with so much light in ur eyes thinking about ur future and now ur just fighting with urself to be happy. But don’t worry I’m tired of fighting too. I just wish this hole in my heart can heal so I can be happy again.
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: October 6, 2020, 4:48 am UTC
I’m sorry, for letting you go, not caring, giving up, pushing everyone we loved away, making people worry and most importantly for leaving you alone. I’m so sorry.
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: October 4, 2020, 7:16 pm UTC
'You ever felt so sick of anything and just tired of everything that exists that you honestly couldn't care less if anything bad happened to yourself. You're just not afraid of anything because you just hope it finishes you off.'
please don't think of it that way. it will get better soon, i promise you. just look on the bright side of things and everything will go your way.
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: October 2, 2020, 5:47 pm UTC
I wish you would realise how beautiful you actually are. I wish you could realise that you do not need to be perfect, because there is no such thing as that. I wish you could realise your potential and ur self worth. I wish you could realise that you will be that person you want in the future and you will prove everyone wrong. I wish that you become happy.
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: October 2, 2020, 12:33 pm UTC
It's okay to make mistakes, it's okay to be upset about them. What is not okay is to define yourself based on your mistakes. Forgive and love yourself! Always!
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: October 2, 2020, 12:26 am UTC
i know that i will always be alone at some point but if I'm alone forever i know i just wont survive. i cant live with my thoughts
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: October 1, 2020, 8:07 pm UTC
come back & respond when you learn how to love yourself. you shoulda been your first love, not him.
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: October 1, 2020, 11:08 am UTC
I never liked you but now i learnd to love you and you mean so much to me. Your personality and character is beyond beautiful. I dont know anyone who can compare to you. You are my biggest love.
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: October 1, 2020, 3:59 am UTC
you used to be so confident and happy, now you hate everything about yourself and life. keep trying bby ♡
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: September 29, 2020, 7:10 am UTC
Stop acting like everything is okay. Let someone in on your problems before it’s too late.
You have to stop getting so attached to someone who gives you the slightest attention.
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: September 29, 2020, 3:37 am UTC
hi, its me. I love you. im proud of the person you are becoming. I know you are working so hard on yourself, and I can see how much you are hurting. please stay, so many people love you and want to see you love yourself again. it will get better, I promise.
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: September 29, 2020, 3:24 am UTC
I’ve lost you and don’t know how exactly how to get back. Like I’m really trying but it’s just not working. So much stuff has happened that I don’t know who to turn too. There is so much stuff that I want to tell to my friends and I know they would take it a good way but I don’t know if I want to admit to myself that. When I was younger I had a crush on my girl best friend and thought it was “normal” and didn’t think about it. I got over it and didn’t think much but I’ve liked guys since. Now for the last couple of years I’ve been trying to find myself in so many ways. I see myself liking women more there are so many beautiful powerful women out there and I look up to them but some others I just have a crush on I guess but I still like guys a lot. I’ve never had a boyfriend or a girlfriend but idk what would happen. I don’t see myself w a girlfriend in the future but I just don’t know what these means. I don’t want to tell my friends bc i don’t even know what to tell myself.
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: September 28, 2020, 10:08 pm UTC
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: September 27, 2020, 10:28 pm UTC
I'm so proud of you. You stopped counting calories and starving yourself everyday. You look fucking amazing and literally are still so skinny and fit and beautiful and now you balance food and working out like a fucking CHAMP. Im starting to love you like I did when I was little. if anyone is reading this self love is the most important thing
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: September 26, 2020, 3:58 pm UTC
he wasn't your soulmate, he was just the person that made you feel something after being numb for so long. let go now, we'll be alright.
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: September 24, 2020, 5:56 pm UTC
god i’m not even sure how to the word this anymore but i love u. i know u don’t rn but u will. keep pursuing whatever dreams u wanted. it’ll work out.
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: September 23, 2020, 9:19 am UTC
You genuinely can’t catch a grip can you, you think everyone is going to leave just because you once lost a friend through a tragedy you think just because someone wasn’t with you ages ago they’ll end up leaving you too, I don’t take him for granted because I’m scared I’ll loose him if I do I love him so much but I have to start realising how much I’m not worthy of his time
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: September 18, 2020, 5:36 pm UTC
You are having sleep issues for years now... Maybe you
aren't at peace with yourself like you think you are
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: September 18, 2020, 3:07 am UTC
sometimes i feel pretty, but then i look in the mirror and notice the marks from my diabetes. i notice the skin disease i’m getting. but i especially not ice the 20 pounds i’ve gained. how i can’t fit in my xL pair of stretchy pants anymore because i have a binge eating problem. all i can do i look at myself and cry and cry and cry. my body is ugly. how can i feel beautiful when i’ve gained so much weight and when i’m surrounded by beautiful girls. my best friend is beautiful. she’s y’all skinny and gorgeous. she has all the guys going for her. her personality is great, so is mine i have a great heart but my body is not great. i hate it there are times i want to never eat again but i can’t i can’t control my eating
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: September 18, 2020, 2:56 am UTC
you are here for a reason. you have a purpose. live to see what that is. mom would want you to stay alive.
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: September 17, 2020, 8:50 am UTC
be gentle with yourself, you’ve been in a bad place for the last 3 years mentally n emotionally but you’re healing. im so excited for the future that you’re planning ahead n the success u been dreaming of, let’s make it reality
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: September 17, 2020, 5:29 am UTC
I wish you would stop hurting. My brain hurts. I’m tired. I’m so tired. I wish you stopped driving everyone away because now when you need a hug there’s no one to give it to you. You did this to me. I hate you.
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: September 16, 2020, 10:18 pm UTC
I remember the day I finally found a group.I smiled so much that day.I also remember the day I stopped.
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: September 16, 2020, 7:59 am UTC
Why can’t you just learn how to love? You hurt so many amazing people just because you don’t know how to have feelings.
From: ABC
To: myself
Date: September 16, 2020, 4:10 am UTC
why are you so convinced that one day he will leave? do you not recognize how much he loves you? you heard him last night whisper "i love you so much" when he thought you were asleep. you see the way he looks at you. you hear the way he talks about you. why are you so sure that if you open up- he's going to leave? he's not like the others. but everyone says that. but he really isn't. you're fighting yourself. you can trust him. you're not feeling okay right now and you haven't been feeling that way for the past couple of days. that doesn't mean he's going to up and leave you, okay? he loves you. you love him. please allow yourself this chance at love. it's okay.
