with you i felt home. i was comfortable, you were my person. the one person i thought of when i woke up and when i went to bed, the one person i wanted to share my life with. you told me that you loved me more than anything, that you couldn’t live without me. i guess that was all a lie.

I still wonder sometimes if I would have been happier learning to love him instead of staying with you

You begged me not to leave. In the end you were the one who left. I tried to make it work and you gave up.

It feels like everything has gone downhill since you left... I thought it would get better but it hasn’t. I need you...

sometimes you get under my skin but, i know you have friendzoned me which hurt. i will always love you more than i friend

I'm sorry if I still can't say these things to you directly. I feel like I've said too much and this month just did a complete turn for "us." I know it's my fault because I overthink a lot. I'm sorry if I can't help it. You don't deserve that. I understand now why you're becoming more distant. I know "we're" trying to make it seem like before (or so i think, maybe it's just me at this point who wants to keep trying, honestly) but everyday just gets more difficult. I never wanted our conversations to be just "for the sake of it" but it's starting to feel like it. It hurts that it's like you've put me aside all of a sudden and I've been replaced, just like that. Before, I could honestly feel as if we were best friends but now it's like I'm just anticipating if it's finally gonna be the day you actually stop talking to me. I guess the universe is saying our time is up.

you told me you loved me when we both know you didn't. i'm happy now but you need to leave me alone, it hurts when you pick me up and drop me whenever you feel like it. i've moved on, pls do the same.

i used to be confused when my friends would stay with their boyfriends after they hurt them. i understand now. i can’t leave. i can’t live without you. you shattered my heart, lied to me for months and made me feel like i should apologize to you because YOU ARE A CHEATER. but i still can’t leave. it hurts so bad. you make me hurt so badly. but loosing you would hurt so much more. all of it was lies. i was naïve to think you were talking the truth. stupid. gullible. you aren’t mine. you never will be, i see that now. you can’t be mine. but i’m yours. i wish i wasn't. i wish that i could hate you. i’m so confused why i don’t. i should hate you for what you did but i can’t. you did the worst thing i could possibly image and yet i still love you. you are the only person i want to be with. the only person i want to talk to. i should hate you. part of me does. but i can’t imagine my life without you in it. i want to scream at you, hurt you the way you hurt me and make you watch me cry and vomit and have a panic attack over you so you can see exactly what you did. but i could never do that. i tried, i tried to yell at you but when you showed remorse... i caved. so fast. i started apologizing to you. i told you that if you needed space that i understand. now time is passing by and you still haven’t spoken to me. i need you. i need answers. but I DONT WANT TO HURT YOU SO I SHUT MY MOUTH. AFTER ALL OF THIS IM STILL PROTECTING YOUR STUPID NO GOOD LYING FEELINGS BUT I CARE TOO MUCH ABOUT YOU. all i want is for you to be happy. i don’t care what it costs me. i would give my life for your happiness. i hate you for what you did. but i hate myself so much more for letting it happen. i don’t get it. i don’t get why i’m like this. i don’t get how you did this. i don’t get how you lied for so long. i don’t know how you watched me cry to for about how much people have hurt me and promise that you wouldn’t do that to me just to... turn around and do it anyway. i wish i hated you. you don’t deserve me. but i deserve what you did to me.

i know your a scribble mess,ur wired, but hard to find.i feel like we’re meant to be; i feel it in my heart ?

thank you for what you gave me, but i have to go, i’m so sorry. i will never forget you, but i can’t love you anymore

You won’t see this or know it was me, but I’m using this as evidence that I knew you were the special from the beginning

I want to let you go, but I can't. Please walk away so I have no option. I need you in my life but I'd be better off without you in it.

I just wanted to thank you. Thanks for changing my opinion on love. I will never settle for less. You always have a huge chunk of my heart. Love always

white ferrari - frank ocean (1:25)

i wanna call u n tell u everything that happened

wanna grab cocos?

Suddenly u were gone... i miss u so much if u ever see this i miss ur stupid lil accent take care

Know I understand why we crossed paths. Thanks for teaching me.

I love you so much.

i still think about you even tho i know im not even the slightest thought in your head

I will be here for you. always. I think part of me will always be waiting for the "what if".

it was love at first sight for me.

I miss you so much. I hope that we get to see each other again, and be each other's travel buddies.

i know it’s new but i feel so safe with you pretty boy

I hope your cat is good. I miss her. And my cat misses her too.

I fell for you, and I ended up just feeling stupid.

As much as it hurt, I know that your healing means that you will come back to me. I love you.

I will always want to talk to you, no matter how much time passes.

If you won’t then
I will
If you can’t then
I will
I still really really love you

i hate everything

"you are the best thing that i'll ever keep so far out of my life" -your sweet angel

i lied, i still like you. ive felt it this entire time. im so sorry

Are you ok? I always worry about you. I’m here always.<3

You’ll never be able to love me like I loved you.

Why couldnt I ever be worth enough for you? Why did you choose to let us go?

Ask me to wait and I will for as long as it takes for you to open your heart. I love you.

I know you’re not happy. Not really. I’m so sorry.

i’m so sorry

Even after all these years I still can’t forgive you for all the pain you put me through

Tell your baby that I’M your baby

I hope u get the help u need & change 4 the better. I’ll always root for you even after what u did.

I didn’t leave the city because I had to. I left because you started scaring me.

I want us to be together again I miss you sm baby

i love you but i'm too scared that you'll leave. if you're gone, i'm cold.

It’s all going to work out, don’t give up on me.

Smokey and the bandit came on. I still cry to this day thanks for the pink bass pro hat

I don’t think I will ever get over you. I’d give anything to have you reach out to me.

it wasnt because of the night we had at ur appt, was it?

you make my life worth living <3

we are gonna get tg i believe it truly