please leave val. you’re kid deserves better.
ps i’ve loved you for the whole time you were together.

i am trying to let you go but my grief comes in waves so please be patient with me. i miss u so much.

I fell in love with u and never told u to this day u have no idea how I feel. When I am with u make me feel secure and I don’t know but I hope u felt the same.

I stumbled upon our old conversations. I was sad cause I can see how much changed between us. It hurts that I'm losing you. But I can't keep trying when it's pretty obvious you don't care anymore.

I stumbled upon our old conversations. I was sad cause I can see how much changed between us. It hurts that I’m losing you. But I can’t keep trying when it’s pretty obvious you don’t care anymore.

I stumbled upon our old conversations. I was sad cause I can see how much changed between us. It hurts that I’m losing you. But I can’t keep trying when it’s pretty obvious you don’t care anymore.

You know I love you but I wish I could tell you I’m in love with you without holding back. I don’t feel like I deserve you but I’m beyond grateful you waited for me I love you

You were my first love and I will never regret our relationship. I’m sorry I broke your heart twice. Never forget me.

I am glad that each one follows their path and goals, but sometimes I wonder what would have happened if we were together

This is my last message to you, I need to let this go truly. I just wanted to say thanks for loving me even for just a bit. You opened my eyes to a lot. Love always x

You said you would always love me, I guess that was a lie. But deep down, I will always love you no matter what.

You aren’t my first love, and you know that. I wish everyday that you were though, because you’re the first one who really deserves my love.

I just asked you to be a decent person, don’t act like I tried to change your whole life. It’s annoying

I love you so much even though you broke my heart. Even though you did everything you said you wouldn't

I wake up every morning with an urge to reach out to you. It’s been like this since the day we parted.

You said you loved me right before you broke up with me. Was that to make it hurt more or was that you saying you never did love me?

I still secretly hope you miss me and haven't moved on. I hope breaking up with me hurt you as much as it did me. I still love you and don't know if I will ever stop

I saw a ring that said sunshine the other day. I broke down in the middle of the mall. I can't drive by goldenrods and Cinemagic without crying. (I keep writing these bc I know I can't say this to you)

I still smell your cologne and I know I’m never going to be over you, no matter how much it hurts me in the end.

i only had so many minutes before you let go. sorry, can’t hear you, the connection is dying. i really wanted to be yours. i really wanted it to work.

sometimes i wonder if we would have worked out, and then i remember how easy it was for me to get over you

I know these words are a little too late, but please don’t interpret my silence as a lack of not caring. The truth is I care so much, if I broke the silence, we’d never let each other go. A piece of me will love you to the moon and back, forever. You deserve all the happiness in the world.

I think the most hurtful thing was you being able to completely leave me. With no hesitation, with such ease. I’m so hurt still. But you’ll let it go.

you changed. i don’t know what happened? maybe it’s the stress or maybe ‘cause there’s something i said that you won’t even tell me? idk. but you really changed. it just makes me sad that over the past weeks, i can feel us drifting apart, matt. it’s sad that if i don’t make an effort of reaching out to u, there’s no conversation that would happen. maybe you got tired. maybe there’s someone new? idk. i really wish i knew but i’m also scared that having yet another way too serious of a conversation would push you away. is this really our new normal? or is this us, finally saying goodbye?

Because of you, my whole world is changed. You broke me, and it’s a pain I never wanted to feel. But I wouldn’t give it up for the world.

i truly hope she's everything you wanted. and i hope you never break her heart the way you broke mine.

matt i hate ur innocence and how easily u get manipulated, u let them destroy what we had by letting them judge me. its pathetic how u wanted things to work out between us again just for u to drop me. and for that ill always have hate for u and them. u mean nothing to me now, but maybe in the future ill crumble and reconsider our friendship once again. but you will always b like a sibling to me, all i wanted was to protect and make u happy.

It’s sad that I’ve lost you now because for a minute I found my happiness and it was you and without you well I’m not sure about anything

I tried to keep things going but I could tell you were losing interest as the days went by, I could tell you were lying when you said you still had feelings, and I could definitely tell you started to love me less when “i love you” turned into “love you”. I’m not hurt by the fact you left me, I’m hurt by the fact that you had to lie to me. You made me look stupid, telling me all these lies to cover up that you lost feelings. It was honestly a selfish move, but it makes you happy, right? It was always about you, you never seemed to check up on how I was doing, you never tried to see what was going on. I hope we never speak again, if we do speak again, I’d like to hear some sort of apology.

I have never wanted someone like I want you.
I have never done for another what I have done for you.
I continue to stay with you on your terms because it is the closest I can get to you and it terrifies me to think that one day even that minuscule connection will cease to exist.
In another life, we would end up together, for real.
But, nonetheless, I cry myself to sleep knowing that in this one, we are not meant to be.
I am hopelessly, dangerously, poisonously, infatuated by you, and that is the epitome of my painfully slow demise.
But, you were already aware of this, weren’t you?
Alas, that is what separates us as human beings.
The fact that I would never let myself hurt another the way you hurt me while you watch me crumble, comfortably lounging in the front row.
I would say I hope you change, but if you were to change, I would blame myself for not waiting for you long enough.
You have placed me in a position of self-destruction at the expense of your occasional pleasure.
But then again, which one of us is to blame for my collapse? After all, I allow it to happen.
So, I repeat this cycle of sabotage for another day, cruising through the hours, feeling the strongest physical pain I have felt in my lifetime: the feeling of losing yourself because you love someone else.
So, Matthew, I hope we meet again one day, and I hope I can look into your eyes without that longing feeling shocking my aching body.
So, Matthew, I hope you are just a lesson about what love shouldn’t be.
And Matthew, I hope I find someone who makes me so happy I don’t ever think of you.
And Mathew. I hope you remember me years from now as an amazing girl that could’ve changed your life.
Because, Matthew, you truly did miss out, whether you acknowledge it or not.

We could've been amazing. I would have loved you so much. I would have made you feel something. But you never gave me the chance.

My heart is so drawn to you, I don’t know why. I don’t care what happened in the past. If you don’t love me anymore that’s fine, I just wanna talk one more time, to heal

I will only ever want you for the rest of my life. I am forever jealous of the girl who changes you because she was able to do something I couldn't: make you stay.

If you hurt my meathead I could never forgive you. God forbid that happens but i pray that she doesn't go through that kind of pain.

Sometimes I want to text you and start over. We just clicked so well it just made sense. But I don’t want to be second best again.

I don´t know when i fell for you, but you literally live in my head rent free, but i´m bad at showing my feelings, I wanna have a teenage romance with you.

i don’t know why you had to end things. I was doing my best to help you. I still love you so much and I’ll be waiting for you forever

Hi, i’m sorry its been a while, i hope you know i truly do care and i hope you do okay you’ll be better without me

you deserved more than i gave you and i hope she can be that for you even if it means my hometown hurts just a little bit more

you're my best friend. you don't see me that way which hurts, but it's okay. you see me as an outlet. you can call me when you're upset and we'll sit in silence. or we'll talk, in the rare event that you want to. you're very private. you can tell me about what happened back in high school, or when you were 10. i understand you but above all else i validate you. i remind you that although you've burned a million people and they've burned you, there's still someone who cares. someone who dares to feel something. someone who tries to trust you. and so i took a trip to see you and we had sex in that family bathroom. i didn't want it to happen like that. kissing because you wanted me. you hands on my chest, my fingertips digging into your hips. i wanted to tell you how much you meant to me and i wanted you to say it back. i didn't want to argue or feel like an option or to have to try to convince myself that there's still something left. because what if there's not? your silence means something and you know it. i think you know that i know. so please, matt. if you love me, come clean. i think i've earned honesty by now.

sorry for being distant by the end but you didnt have to make feel like i was incapable of love...married for 1 year now i hope youre doing ok

I really wish that it is you sending me these posts... however i can never be sure. I’ll always love you, deep down you were the only person i’ve ever really connected with. I wish you the best, but my heart hurts too much to think of you anymore. Love always x

I gave myself to you, everything I had, and when you left you took everything with you. Left me with nothing.

I don’t know why I miss you and I don’t know why I still love you. I wish that you would come back to me

I never thought I would fall so deeply in love with someone in my life. You are perfect in every way and I will love you forever.

i wish things turned out better ik we both liked eachother and we were close friends but now we never talk. i was so happy when we were on facetime the other night even if other people were on it

I can't decide if I am angry at you or if I miss you. Can't decide if you're a great guy or a horrible one.

i love that i don't love you anymore. i love that im questioning if i ever did. you were right, everything does happen for a reason.

you're my person. when i lay with him you're the one i think of. i can't help it. i need you while you need her.

i didn't know i loved you until it was too late. you're my person, but i'm not yours. you're the one i think of when i lay with him, when i close my eyes, when i wake up in the morning. i can't help it. i need you.