literally fucj you sgelby. sorry i will not use ash here because the person who hurt me is shelby. i’m hopping ash is different, soemone better. i cant fuckinj move on. i hate you for it. fuck you. i’m clinically diagnosed with depression, i can’t eat anymore. i have no friends, severe abandonment issues. i’m taking fluoxetine and i feel like shit all the time. you didn’t spare my feelings what so ever. fucj you. i hate you i hate you i hate you so fucjing much. you’re so selfish i know you are. i even tried opening up to you once and you come ple tell shot me down. you fucjing bitch. you kept talking about killua. when i was talking about me. you ignored me you selfish cunt. the only time i heard you be genuinely concerned, possibly. was when i said i finished watching banana fish. you fucjing terrible human being. uuure so mean. you’re so so fucjing mean. how can you go on living your life while i’m in such fucjing pain. you’re the only person i relied on. but then again, i guess it was my fault. i shouldn’t have. i shouldnt have relied on you. i’m sorry. i’m sorry. i wish you could’ve told me what i did wrong.i knoe i’m toxic. but i couldve fixed it. you just. didn’t have to ghosy me. i’m sorry, i am. i hate you.

I know you’re hurting right now but you have to take care of yourself. You can’t balance the world on just your two shoulders, even the sun needs to rest at the end of the day. Care for yourself like you do for everyone else.

I wish that I could’ve told you how I really felt about you. I knew I was never going to be enough from the start and yet I still tried everyday to be better than him so that you could at least see me the same way that I saw you. I put the background as your favorite color :). I wish that our what we called it “friendship” never ended the way it did because both of us know it was more than that. I should’ve never fallen this hard for you because I’m still hurting myself trying to be perfect for you. You were toxic and I still gave in to everything you did to me. You truly broke me Shelby and that’s the only thing that I could hate you for. Goodbye Shelby I hope that you realize that you broke me so much.

Thank u for being a good friend. When I had no one to laugh with or no one to talk to, your texts and facetimes brought a smile on my face. I think you saved my life. even if we drift apart, i will always hold our friendship close to my heart.

i'm sorry. i'm so sorry. i wish u knew how loved u always were. i wish i stopped u. i wish it was me.

Remember that morning I made us pancakes and you did your laundry? That was the day I knew I was in love with you. I miss you.

You’re right there but you’re so far away, you’re gone but you’re not. You cut everyone off and you won’t talk to any of us, what happened? Why are you pretending not to care about anything anymore? I want you to come back to me, I miss you Shel.

I want to dance with you in the kitchen, sappy songs playing while you laugh at how terrible at dancing I am.

I want to wake up to your face and proceed to make breakfast. (and maybe we can leave the burner on this time so the eggs actually cook)

I want to walk through an book shop with you while you show me all of your favourite books (and a few new found gems) with a smile.

I want to do so much with you, I want to be there for every moment your happy and for every moment that you’re sad or angry. I just want to be there, I want to be yours.
Oh god, I’m so in love with you, angel

You were my first best friend. I know we were super young but it was a fundamental relationship that shaped the way I am today.

I’ll never forget about summer 2015. No one else has made me feel like the way you made me feel that summer. I’ll always adore you.

I knew I was in love with you that night we listened to music in your room in April. I know that’s gone now for you. Do you ever think about me?

You think that being a toxic is cute, honey its not. You think everyone's obsessed with you but trust me everybody's laughing.

Sé que esto no lo leerás nunca, pero aún tengo sentimientos por ti y es muy dificil lidiar con ello y con la frialdad de tus mensajes porque ya no me ves cómo antes, entiendo que es mi culpa pero aún tengo la esperanza de que me quieras y qué podamos regresar a tener algo lindo porque adivina, he despertado sensaciones muy bonitas por ti y quiero vivirlas contigo tal vez nunca me detuve a pensarlas y sentirlas pero si, siempre me importaste y siempre estuviste en mi corazón solo que no lo sabía y mucho menos expresarlo.Supongo ya es tarde y si tal vez por mera casualidad veas este mensaje espero no sea muy tarde. PD: Te mereces todo lo bonito que pueda pasarte, así no sea conmigo.

if you didn’t love me you should have just left me alone. you werent even worth it in the long run, just something to fucking do for awhile.

fuck you for everything you did. and fuck you even more for everything you didn't. you hurt me too much

i came back. i know it took too long and there's no way to make up for the lost time or all the ways i disappointed you. but i came back. and i'll be here forever, even when you're not. just in case

i don’t think you were my first love at all. but i could’ve been one of yours. but i was scared and denied you. i think about you occasionally even though we never talk. i hope you’re doing okay

i don’t think you were my first love at all. but i could’ve been one of yours. but i was scared and denied you. i think about you occasionally even though we never talk. i hope you’re doing okay

i was jus trying to read through the messages w my name , whichever shelby hurt y’all i’m so sorry but y’all are HORRIBLE ?

I wish you could block me, delete me if you must, so I could finally have an option
to stop loving you.

i really miss you in my life. we aren't friends anymore. we don't talk. I want to tell you how much I miss you but im scared

hey. i know i could’ve been so much better to you and i’m sorry. i never know how to talk to bc once we start talking i have feelings for you all over again. i wish you felt the same. i love you.

i wish you loved me like you loved her. i’m letting you go now. i would tell you have a good life but i don’t wish you good at the moment. so, goodbye.

i was looking out the window, seeing the view of the city. i wish you were here with me watching the gorgeous view.

i love you. so much. i just feel like you’re slipping through my fingers and it hurts. please come back to me.

Hi, it’s me. I miss you. I wish I could be you again. You had everything we wanted. It was all taken away and I’m the result. I’m sorry. I miss you. I wish you weren’t gone you were so much better than I am

I don’t know how to apologize for what I did at this point.

you make me feel so weak. you’ve always had the control.

I never thought you’d really move on… I miss you so much.

I always thought u we’re rlly pretty

I miss my baby. I’ll always love you Shelby. Do good :(

i love you so much!

starting to finally only remember a time when we were friends

i knew you were broken and i tried everything i could think of to be there for you. i failed.

Should I stay or should I go.

I miss you so much. But I’d never take you back after everything you did. Why’d you ruin it?

i was worried about you but you never communicated how you felt, i wish i never met you

i’ve been here waiting right where you left me. if you miss me just come back, you know where i am

you looked beautiful

Please text me i miss you. you were my best friend and i think about you everyday.

ik things aren’t how you want them to be, but you just have to trust me. i love you.

you are my best friend ever no matter what. you are the kindest and most genuine soul i’ve ever met.

I pray that you’re in love with me as much as I’m in love with you.

sorry I can’t love u like I love her. I just needed a distraction.

I’ve never wanted to be someone’s girlfriend so bad. I know I shouldn’t tell you.

love you

i will truly always care for you, don’t let it end like this.

i’m ready

Forever my best friend, you make my dark days so unbelievably light

you have such a beautiful soul, i hope i never forget you :)