Unsent messages to LOGAN

i love you. i love you. i love you. i don't want you to not love me anymore. but one day you will and it will break me. so i'm glad i loved you once. and i'm glad you loved me too.

i miss the shape of your voice, i miss the nape of your neck. i miss the weight of your words, i miss the bruises they left.

remember how i asked u if u were mad at me cuz u wouldn’t talk to me all the sudden?
that broke me knowing the past two years were a lie..

“i’m not good enough for you” but never “i’ll try to be good for you.” i meant forever and always. you don’t even say it anymore.

I chose yellow, because it represents something happy to me. And that's what you made me..happy. But you ruined me. I believe you truly meant what you said when you apologized after reconnecting. I miss us everyday. I miss you.

You're ignoring me again. Fuck you. If you dont wanna talk to me just tell me. Dont say "I have a migrane but we can talk tomorrow :)" Fuck you. Stop playing with my feelings.

its been 3 years. i will never get over you. you came into my life and filled a void. and no one will ever be the same. im sorry i never said anything. i dont even know if it wouldve worked out but i wanted a chance. im so stupid sometimes. well, ill never stop talking to you, asking you questions, listening about your day, trying to make you smile. -E went back and wrote your name because im not THAT big of a pussy. but if you do find this dont text me about it unless you feel the same. LOL

You helped me at my worst moments, gave me a family when I didn't have one. But people grow apart and that's okay. im now on this journey with hunter, you led me to him. You showed me that what we had was not real love.

I love you so much but you make me feel so tired its like im drowning sometimes, im afraid to go to you for certain things bc you get mad. I just wish u knew how much i love you and then maybe you wouldnt want to constantly try to leave me.

Hi! You are racist but cover it up by saying it's "dark humor", and I have no idea why I even liked you because I'm a POC.

I think and worry about you every night and it's getting harder to sleep. I wish things were easier for you, I love you a lot, shit. A lot, a lot

Why did you have to go too soon? I miss you. Why did you have to leave this world. I hate that you chose to. I love you L

I couldn’t tell if I liked you or the idea of you more. I’m trying not to hurt you but I don’t want to get hurt either.

We didn’t know each other for very long but we just vibed so well together omfg. But then you had to find another girl. Which is okay but it’s a year later now and I’m still missing you. I don’t think you miss me tho. I wouldn’t miss me either

I’m sorry I couldn’t love you. Thank you for making me feel special even though I can’t do the same for you.

remember when we used to say "you're my yellow" every night before we went to bed? now im reminded of how much i hate yellow.

I never really got why you never asked me out,I dont know if you where waiting for me to make the first move or what.I assumed that I wasnt good enough or that there was someone better. But I didnt wanna belive any of it so I just let you tear my apart from the inside out. I dont blame you though you had no idea how much I really loved you and how much you where hurting me.Im still trying to move on.

I know you think relationships are pointless right now, but please, let me care for you. I know you need it.

I realized that my heart will always skip a beat when I see you. The love I have for you, will never go away. I have to let you go though. Because trying to hold on to you hurts too much. I will always care for you, but I can't constantly check up on you anymore. It isn't healthy for me anymore.

We've known each other for such a long time. I've always had a crush on you and for obvious reasons I'm sure you know now, or at least have an idea. I wish I knew if you felt the same, and I wonder if you'll ever see me for more than just my body :/

You say you wold never hurt anyone the way she hurt you. But you turn around and do the same thing to me

to Logan my dearest friend. our story is something you would definately call different. I liked you when I first saw you let me explain why. I have never seen someone so genuinly nice to their family the way that you are. seeing you like that made me wish my family had the same connection. Our moms were bestfriends and hung out at our sisters softball games so we i would see you but i wouldnt say anyhting. until. i saw you at my sisters game and i walked up to you and told you to pet my dog, that would forever change everything. we started dating a week or two after that. but communication was hard and i am an overthinker. i am still in love with you. im sorry it ended because of me.

your the only person i ever want to be with but you'll never know how i feel because i dont want to lose you

You were terrible to me but I somehow just can't get over you and still want you back. You're probably over me but I'm not over you yet. I somehow forgive all of the things you did to me and made me do.

i miss u. i miss our frienship. i dont know what i did wrong but u were my bestfriend and now we dont even talk anymore. pls come back.

Well i know that we still talk to each other and that we did have something but i don't know if you still feel the same way the i do. I sometimes think that you do and then it just goes downhill. just like the things i would do just to hear you say "I love you" again.

you were so sweet the first couple weeks, but little did i know you were just bored. it truly broke my heart when you told me that. then you sent me a whole paragraph talking about how sorry you were and that i was constantly on your mind. you said you had a dream about me the night before, that we were cruising down the coastline in a dark blue rx-7. it made me fall all over again. the next day you moved on with someone new. that left me stuck on my own with nothing in my thoughts but you. every second of every day i think about you and hope that you'd come running back for me. picking me right back up where you left me. it used to be that you'd only text me when you needed something, but now we joke around and roast the absolute shit out of each other. and as much as it shouldn't it still gives me hope for you and i. even tho i know you love her. i'd still do anything you'd ask me to, hoping that it'd bring you back to me. but all i can do for now is try to move on. i'll always have feelings for you but hopefully someday i can push myself past them. maybe one day i won't even remember you. thank you for all of the good times you gave me, you showed me what it was like to be happy again. i wish you the best my love:/

I know we haven't known each other for a long time, but you have a piece of my heart... I want it back

I want to call to check if you are doing okay. But i know you are okay because if things werent okay, I hope you know who to text.

One time you asked me a question, “why do you like me” I instantly started naming little things about you that I liked but the truth is I had to stop because I started saying everything about you. I didnt fall for the little things, instead I fell for all of you.

I still think about what I could have said to make you stay. I still miss you, and will forever love you.

When i see you again please promise to let me hold you like it'll be the last time ill ever see you..

I start to loose hope in us and then i remeber what it felt like for you to be in my arms one more time.

you hurt me so bad and so often but i still miss you.
i was trying to fix it whenever you left.
now i'm all alone.

You manipulated me and I was naive, it’s embarrassing how I settled for you and you wore the same 3 shirts..

thank you for making me happier than i could’ve ever imagined. you were the best thing that happened to me in the longest time. you made me the person i am today. you made me love myself again which i never thought was possible. you taught me how to love. i wanted us to be forever, and maybe we will just not right now. i’m sorry i couldn’t make you as happy as i wanted to. i really tried my best. i strongly believe everything happens for a reason, so if we’re meant to be we will be. maybe that time is next year, maybe it’s in 10 years, or maybe it's never. either way i will forever be grateful for you. you will always have a special place in my heart. i may be upset, but not at you. i am angry with you, but i will get over it. i really hope she can make you as happy as i wanted to. i’m so proud of you for finding someone to give you the world. she is so gorgeous. i want the best for you no matter what. i hope yall last. i hope she can give you what i couldn’t. i wish the absolute best for you both and your relationship. you will forever be my first love. again i’m sorry i couldn’t give you what you wanted. i enjoyed us while it lasted and i need to move on. i really hope we can meet again one day and finish our chapter because i truly believe this isn’t where it’s supposed to end. i love you and i will forever have love for you. don’t miss me too much.

i will forever be grateful for you and you will forever have a special place in my heart. if we never meet again, just know you were to best thing that's ever happened to me in a long time. i hope she makes you as happy as i wanted to. you deserve the best. i love you forever

I like u, but u barely know I exist. I’m pretty sure u also think I’m lesbian. Touché my friend, touché

you are the strongest person i’ve met. and sometimes i get mad at you but i promise i could never hate you.

i see the way you look at him and i. stop making me feel bad for liking someone new. let me let you go

I miss you so much that it is physically and emotionally breaking me. I am in pain because of you. I try not to think about you but no matter how hard I try to distract myself with friends, drinking, boys, work, partying, nothing makes me feel the way you did. The funny thing is I do not want this pain to be over because once it is gone, I know you will be gone forever. I do not want to be done because I believe it was just the start for us. To be honest, I feel like I can’t do anything without you, without talking and seeing you. Maybe I am lying, maybe I am just not ready to let you go for selfish reasons.

I never got to kiss you. I still want you. I am always thinking about you. I literally don’t know what to do with myself anymore. I was with another guy the other night, and I cried for an hour. I cried because when I was with him, I could only think about you. He has been the first guy that I honestly started liking here but he isn’t you. Please, if there is the slightest chance you maybe want me, talk to me. You know damn well that I never stopped liking you.

I never got to kiss you. I still want you. I am always thinking about you. I literally don’t know what to do with myself anymore. I was with another guy the other night, and I cried for an hour. I cried because when I was with him, I could only think about you. He has been the first guy that I honestly started liking here but he isn’t you. Please, if there is the slightest chance you maybe want me, talk to me. You know damn well that I never stopped liking you.

do you want to hear a crazy story?
I fell for you and I’m not over you.
I keep trying to meet new guys but every time I do, I realize they aren’t you.
I have never felt so strongly about someone to the point that when I’m with someone else who actually has interest in me, I cry. I cry because I wanted it to be you that showed interested in me. I want it to be you reaching out to me and asking if I’m ok. I want it to be you.

I just want to know...
Do you know what you want? Because I think about you all the time. But you are doing nothing so so I feel like I shouldn’t do anything. I want someone who goes out of their way to make it obvious that they want me in their life.
I’m holding on to the idea that you still want me even though I know it’s not true. But tell me, don’t just shut me out completely. Tell me you don’t want me. Tell me you never felt the same way I felt about you.

I’ll never regret what I felt for you but I do regret how I handled what I was feeling. I cannot change or undo anything and I know I won’t forget it. As of right now, I can’t like anyone else because I still want to try with you. But life goes on and so I’ve seen you move on. lol, I guess I will attempt to do what you made look so easy.
I still want to text you to see how you are doing.

it's been a year since we parted ways and it makes me so sad that i wasn't good enough for you. i hope one day we can be friends

I wasn't upset that you told me you weren't ready. I was upset when you told me you were still in love with her.

hey dude since u were obsessed with the color red i chose it :) but n e ways,, i wish i never met u in art or math, i hate u :(

I was always the girl that would watch love movies and never believe that someone could fall in love in three days well here I am one week in yet I feel like I've known you my whole life. Is that idiotic to say?