Unsent messages to LOGAN

I wish we talked more, you don't know how much I liked you and how you made me laugh everyday, you made me day better every time we talked.

I wish you could experience how much pain I felt when I knew you felt nothing I wasted too many tears on you

I hate how I hurt you. I hate myself for everything. I’d rather die than continue to hurt you. I’m so so so sorry.

a boy who wasn’t you kissed me the other day. i wish it had been you. i’ll always miss you and your
sea green eyes.

i think i just miss the feel of you there. we were strangers. still are. we had absolutely nothing in common. i didn’t know you, yet when you left, you took a part of me with you. it hurts to see you everyday. still.

i don’t know where we will go. i hope you’ll be here but you make me want to rip my hair out sometimes.

my friends show me all the snaps you send them asking how i am or talking about me, ik you miss me lol

i thought we could’ve worked, i would’ve made an effort for u but u weren’t willing to do the same. i thought we still had a chance but then u just moved on like we were nothing, ig that’s what i was to you

I would be nervous when your notification appeared on my phone, I laughed when I heard your name, I was happy when I saw you. Im waiting for the moment when your name doesn't put a smile on my face but that hasn’t happened yet, wish me luck.

my friend once told me to stop letting my feelings get in the way of our friendship. And I did not stop because I couldn’t, I let my feelings control what I said and what I did. She said she can’t look at me anymore without feeling sorry but she did worn me so it is me who is sorry. She said I should stop before I get hurt, but instead I prepared a message for you, “I always talk about you and how I wish you would make an effort to talk to me. I have never liked anyone as much as I like you. you’re more than a crush. If you want me, tell me, or just tell me anything.” But she asked if I really wanted to make things weird and awkward, I said no.

i still see you in my dreams and i still hear your laugh echoing in my room at night when i’m alone. i don’t know how i’m going to get over this.

the way i felt about you, i've never felt about anyone else. you hurt me the worst but i still look for you in everyone i meet. i'm afraid that i will never really get over. i still get butterflies when i see or hear your name. the only closure i have is knowing that i tried my best and you didn't deserve my best. i still wish i knew why i wasn't good enough but i don't think i ever will. i still want you to come and tell me that you made a big mistake and that i've been the one all along but i know that won't happen. i'll love you forever but it's time for me to let go and move on. or try at least.

hey, I really miss you. I thought we could maybe start talking again? please try get back to me, thanks.

How are you okay with this? Why does it have to be the last time? I meant everything I said, if you really think I'm not enough for you or that I wasn't perfect, wtf were we trying to figure out. You had me fooled and you lied to me. You were really one of the few people that made me feel better.

You’re a different person to me. You hurt me. You lied. And u were the last person I would expect that from. If I wasn’t the perfect one, what the fuck were we doing. all the things you told me about myself made me feel good but now I look at those things like they were lies. The fact that u don’t see what u did wrong is what’s most painful. Please no more stupid texts and random shit because I’ll just act like I care. Just leave me alone and hopefully I can continue to do the same.

I know u don’t care and I dont want to give two shits anymore. But that’s not me. I left the other mean broken messages but truly I just wanted you to want me back.

i hate you with a passion, you literally suck, even when you liked me i still hated you. pls disintegrate.

i know there are probably other girls. and i know better but i can’t help but want to beg you to love me.

why? why don't you love me anymore. please come back. i won't fight with you. you'll always be right. i just want to feel your love again. pls just come back.pls.

i’ve finally took back all the love i had for you and poured it into myself, i hope all the dark parts of you morn my light and ache.

and yk what don’t say that you are here for me plz. I don’t want anything from u. And knowing that you offer me that will hurt me and my selfish temptations will just reminisce. I have people, good people so it’s okay to not worry or care.

And not we were never soulmates that’s just an excuse. So don’t get confused with the other sappy love messages.

And I would never invalidate someone’s thoughts or experiences. I get shit and I get life can be screwed up. I’m glad u rly don’t know me.

You’re such a bull shit artist. All you ever had to say was that you weren’t interested, oh wait, u did and the moment I fucking backed off, u took it back-multiple times which was so unfair. And you know what, It was painful because you’re the first person I truly confided in and I always said that but it isn’t your fault, I guess it was a mistake to trust u. But hey, life goes on, people grow right? Have a good life and I do unfortunately mean that.
Btw I could never name a few things that I liked about you like you did with me because it was everything about you, and I guess that’s where I should have realized you didn’t mean it in the way I assumed.

I still think about what could have been. If only I'd been wiser and a little more brave. I miss you.

Sometimes I wish no one knew about us and I forgave you. I was pressured to leave. You were toxic but now I sit at night and wish I was her. No one will ever love you as much as I do.

hey dude sorry i kinda pushed you away but i can’t risk myself catching feelings because it wouldn’t be right but i just want to say i miss u

I loved you. I wanted you back. I wanted to be the the one who you'd love forever. I wanted to be the girl you woke up to in the morning and then thought "you are the loml". But i'm not.

I'm sorry I hurt you. You made me realise the same pain after but as a lesson while I was being a brat. I know she's making you happy, something I couldn't do because I'm almost never happy... I dragged you down. Glad I could help you be more confident though even if it had to end a little sour. You taught me a lesson that has made sure I won't get hurt easily anymore. Thank you and sorry for everything :)

i found our underwear folded up in the hideaway couch downstairs from months ago. i wear yours to sleep every night.

Thank you for being my person and loving me endlessly
-love k?
also, you look best in dark blue;)

at one point you were all i wanted but now i'm not sure who you are and i act like i don't care to protect myself

i'm seeing you for the first time in years, you're across the country now, will i be able to leave you again

thank you for showing me what’s it like to be loved but also showing me what it’s like to realize my worth. i’ll always have a place in my heart for you my sweet boy, but i need to let you go.

I wish you put in as much effort as I did. I wish you could’ve trusted me. And finally, I wish you didn’t take the backlash of a broken and deprived girl. I was never ready for that relationship.

I know you're lost in life right now but please come back some day, I don't know how much longer I can go on without talking to you

im so sorry that i didnt tell you i loved you i was scared i feel like i don deserve love but im now torn that i didnt tell you but im happy for you and your gf she got the best bf

hi. i dont know if you love me but i love you. you might be kinda eh sometimes but u make me blush and make me smile. i hope u like me back, i cant tell if your shy or you like her. but lets hope its the first one

thank you for always being a burst of joy and being supportive. Even though people don't have the same visions of yours, you try to make then understand, which is powerful.

U hurt me so bad. When u said "r there any more loose end to tie" I cried. It stabbed me. Like what we had never mattered, like I never mattered. Y don't I matter to u, y am I not enough. All I want is to be enough for u

i still think of u every night before i go to bed. i wish u had cared a little more. i wish u had wanted me the way i wanted you :/

I really did love you. I know you didn’t love me and I’m okay with that. Becuse now I see who you really are and how I am too good for you and always will be. But thank you for the experience. I will never forget it

I still miss you. Everyday. I know you are probably happier and I'm so happy for you but it still hurts. Maybe one day we could look at the stars.

i bought you pig socks at the shore, i gave you my hair tie. Do you still have those? we played spoungebob and patrick connect4 the first time we hung out. i wish we could watch the sunrise, one, more, time.

We watched the sunrise that one morning on the roof, i wanted to watch more. it ended than when the sun had come up

is it me or are we meant to be? I keep saying this will be my last one but it never will be. I want your touch again, I want your love again, I want you again.

I miss you and I know I shouldn't because you did me so wrong but god what I would do to have you back. You made my days worth living and a reason for me to still be here and now that you're gone I don't know how long I'm going to last anymore. I miss the way you smile and the late nights we would spend together just talking about anything, I miss playing video games with you until late hours of the night, you made quarantine so much easier. I miss how I could tell you all my problems and you would always help me no matter what. I miss how you were always there for me and would stop doing what you were doing if I needed you. I miss how you would answer all my crazy questions and how much you loved me. I miss signing stupid love songs with you, but most of all I miss you. I love you so much I hope you know that I just wished you didn't fuck up like you did. ill always be here for you

Can you please elaborate on why it is your final goodbye? And you are right, I dont believe you and I never did.

Some people said we were right person wrong time, and others said we were mean for eachother, but you said no.

I like you and I’m fucking tired of hiding it school so the reason why I like you in a way I’ve never liked anyone before.