I’ll never regret what I felt for you but I do regret how I handled what I was feeling. I cannot change or undo anything and I know I won’t forget it. As of right now, I can’t like anyone else because I still want to try with you. But life goes on and so I’ve seen you move on. lol, I guess I will attempt to do what you made look so easy.
I still want to text you to see how you are doing.

hey, I really miss you. I thought we could maybe start talking again? please try get back to me, thanks.

I chose yellow, because it represents something happy to me. And that's what you made me..happy. But you ruined me. I believe you truly meant what you said when you apologized after reconnecting. I miss us everyday. I miss you.

You once told me you believe life is worth living because of the people you have in it. When I really think about it, I think about all the people who came and went. At the end of the day, I’m all I have left. Life doesn’t stop for anybody so why should I? One day, you will meet somebody and they are going to make you realize that there isn’t anything wrong with you, it was me that was wrong for you. I wish I could go back in time, to change what happened, to keep my feelings inside so I didn’t have to explain them to anyone. I love you but I couldn’t stand you. I miss you but I think this time apart is better for me, I need to learn to love myself before anyone else again. I’ll never want to let you go but I probably should. Sometimes it’s tough but I like to look at how far I’ve come.

You once told me you believe life is worth living because of the people you have in it. When I really think about it, I think about all the people who came and went. At the end of the day, I’m all I have left. Life doesn’t stop for anybody so why should I? One day, you will meet somebody and they are going to make you realize that there isn’t anything wrong with you, it was me that was wrong for you. I wish I could go back in time, to change what happened, to keep my feelings inside so I didn’t have to explain them to anyone. I love you but I couldn’t stand you. I miss you but I think this time apart is better for me, I need to learn to love myself before anyone else again. I’ll never want to let you go but I probably should. Sometimes it’s tough but I like to look at how far I’ve come.

I feel like you lost me and I think that’s because you were meant to find someone or something better. :)

I feel like you lost me and I think that’s because you were meant to find someone or something better. :)

It's like I have all of this love for life, people, and the world but I have no idea what to do with it. I think you know, I'm not good with words, affection, attention, or any of my feelings. I could swear, the words you said to me made me believe that I possibly found someone to share my life with but you never saw me for who I was. I think that hurt both of us. I never lied about anything, I just kept things from you that I know would hurt me if I told you. I don't know how you're doing because I stopped asking for your time and I don't regret it. You were only there for me because it made ME feel better not you. None of this ever made me feel wanted, you just made me feel heard. It's been months, and we haven't had any interaction and it's crazy because I feel like you're still here for me. But like I said before, I don't want to feel that. I cry all the time haha because I picture all the moments we were together that I took for granted. I like to think that we were good friends, in fact, I did tell you things that I have never told anyone but being friends was not enough for me. I knew sooner or later you were going to leave me. If I could talk to you right now, I would. It wouldn't be to change anything because I know nothing was there. I would thank you, thank you for all the feelings and for being my outlet. I would thank you for being one of hell of a heartbreak. Not the kind of heartbreak where I was in love but the kind of heartbreak you have when you lose someone who you thought would be in your life forever. Yes, this is me. I always wanted the best for you and I know that wasn't me.
When I had sad teary eyes in front of a friend and he asked why I was crying. He didnt need to ask because he knew, but he wanted to hear from me. We just went silent. He said "I know you love him, its okay..., you will find another."
I realized I lost someone so great. But with all great losses, there is something to gain, I just haven't figured out what I gained yet.

You are a fool for thinking that I would want you in my life again after telling me you found someone so perfect for you.

“i’m not good enough for you” but never “i’ll try to be good for you.” i meant forever and always. you don’t even say it anymore.

we've been together for months now but am i really your first priority? i feel like this love is one-sided. but i love you too much to leave. maybe it'll work out in the end.

remember how i asked u if u were mad at me cuz u wouldn’t talk to me all the sudden?
that broke me knowing the past two years were a lie..

your the only person i ever want to be with but you'll never know how i feel because i dont want to lose you

to Logan my dearest friend. our story is something you would definately call different. I liked you when I first saw you let me explain why. I have never seen someone so genuinly nice to their family the way that you are. seeing you like that made me wish my family had the same connection. Our moms were bestfriends and hung out at our sisters softball games so we i would see you but i wouldnt say anyhting. until. i saw you at my sisters game and i walked up to you and told you to pet my dog, that would forever change everything. we started dating a week or two after that. but communication was hard and i am an overthinker. i am still in love with you. im sorry it ended because of me.

the way i felt about you, i've never felt about anyone else. you hurt me the worst but i still look for you in everyone i meet. i'm afraid that i will never really get over. i still get butterflies when i see or hear your name. the only closure i have is knowing that i tried my best and you didn't deserve my best. i still wish i knew why i wasn't good enough but i don't think i ever will. i still want you to come and tell me that you made a big mistake and that i've been the one all along but i know that won't happen. i'll love you forever but it's time for me to let go and move on. or try at least.

I don’t know why but I’ve always compared myself to you. I guess that’s why I acted the way I did. I always felt bad about myself and I still have no idea why I get so jealous of you. Glad we’re talking again though.

you took advantage of me. i was 14. you were 18. you never made time for me. no, i don’t want to be friends now and i definitely don’t want you to “model for you.” stop messaging me.

you were the first guy i ever liked and who had liked me back. In the beginning we used to talk all the time and call each other cute pet names. And now? now you leave me on read and i don't know what to do anymore. You told me that we needed to talk more but whenever i try to talk to you, you never answer. But i still want us to work out. I still think about you. I still dream about you. i still think about all the cute dates we said we'd go on. we never did. maybe im just overreacting but i think that shows how much i care. i want us to work but if i continue to feel like im the only one trying then ill let you go. because obviously you dont like me enough to give a shit. but i secretly hope deep down that you do.

i think im in love with you. im not to sure since ive never been in love before but i think i do. and i hate it. because i asked you if you still liked me and you said kinda we just need to work on it and im trying but fuck it feels like im talking to a wall. i want to be your girlfriend but i dont know if i should. everyday it feels like you're just pushing yourself away from piece by piece. and that hurts. i miss our talks. i miss our facetime calls. i miss how we used to be. do you miss us? me? maybe im just overreacting but i think that shows that i care.

i really wish you could give me reassurance on the fact that your not in love with her well
at least i hope your not but i do t want to mention it because your allowed to have female friends but i just overthink

You say you wold never hurt anyone the way she hurt you. But you turn around and do the same thing to me

you took something from me that day. everytime i look at someone like u i cant breathe. i said no. you may not have penetrated me but you did assault me.

am i the problem? please tell me the reason we are the way we are is not because of me. please tell me i did not fuck this whole thing up. please. maybe im just overreacting but i think that shows how much i care.

i hate you. i hate the control you have over me. all you have to do is not reply to my text and i go fucking crazy. then all these thoughts enter my head. and i fucking hate you for it. ive never cried so many times over just one fucking person. why is it so fucking hard for you to talk to me? in the beginning you would always answer my texts if you werent busy. and now? and fucking now? holy shit dude its like my entire mental state rests on your hands. and you dont even know it! thats the fucking funny part. maybe you see my name pop up on your screen and just think "here comes this annoying bitch again" when really the only reason i text you so much is because i miss you. i fucking hate you you fucking piece of ever living shit. you tell me you like me and that you want me but how can i believe that when this is the kind of shit you pull. maybe you're just busy i tell myself. yeah fuck that. it dosent take that long for you to text me back dipshit. why cant you see how much you mean to me? why cant you see how much power you have over me? maybe im just overreacting but i think that shows i care.

i still see you in my dreams and i still hear your laugh echoing in my room at night when i’m alone. i don’t know how i’m going to get over this.

i miss the shape of your voice, i miss the nape of your neck. i miss the weight of your words, i miss the bruises they left.

i love you. i love you. i love you. i don't want you to not love me anymore. but one day you will and it will break me. so i'm glad i loved you once. and i'm glad you loved me too.

I accept the fact you have a girlfriend. Like I’ve told you before, do not mess it up because the girlfriends you had after me did not make you happy but now clearly this one does. I can not deny the fact though that I still wish to text you because you knew a lot of the khaos that happened in my life that still hurt me to this day and for you helping me is the reason why I’ll always love and care for you.

Why can’t you just love me like you used to

i miss you, im sorry about how everything went down that night

i wish you loved me how you used to in the beginning

i wish i could communicate better for both you and me. i love you so much i’m sorry handsome.

i’m so sorry for hurting you i will always love you. you were my first everything.i miss u

i’m happy now and i’ve moved on. but i still think about you. but you don’t deserve me and never did

I miss you, you have a girlfriend. I’ll wait for your love my sweet sonic loving boy.

i dont understand why you keep leaving nd then come back js to do it over again

I still love you despite the hurt you caused, I’ll never understand why it couldn’t just be us.

In our next life. It will be you and me, in a different house on a different street.

I am so happy I met you. I am glad that I make you feel loved every day! Thank you ml

I am so in love with you. I hope I get to love you for the rest of our lives

I haven’t dated since we split. I never had a type but I still look for you in anyone I talk too

youre the love of my life. my reason for living. i cant wait to spend the rest of our lives together

i luv you more than everything. i hope u don’t ever get bored of me

why do i want u and then want to never talk to u again? u hurt me but u make me feel so safe

can’t you see? it’s only ever been you for me. i can’t move on, it wouldn’t be real.

I truly do love you, it’s just wild how hateful you got after, I don’t deserve that either.

I hope that whenever you hear def leppard you can't help but think of me.

i was nothing to you wasn’t i

you’ve already forgotten me but you never knew i existed

idk why u hate me. i tell people that i hate u, but i could never. i miss when we were close. sorry.

i wish we could start over, because i no longer love you, but i wish i did