We watched the sunrise that one morning on the roof, i wanted to watch more. it ended than when the sun had come up

One time you asked me a question, “why do you like me” I instantly started naming little things about you that I liked but the truth is I had to stop because I started saying everything about you. I didnt fall for the little things, instead I fell for all of you.

You’re such a bull shit artist. All you ever had to say was that you weren’t interested, oh wait, u did and the moment I fucking backed off, u took it back-multiple times which was so unfair. And you know what, It was painful because you’re the first person I truly confided in and I always said that but it isn’t your fault, I guess it was a mistake to trust u. But hey, life goes on, people grow right? Have a good life and I do unfortunately mean that.
Btw I could never name a few things that I liked about you like you did with me because it was everything about you, and I guess that’s where I should have realized you didn’t mean it in the way I assumed.

And I would never invalidate someone’s thoughts or experiences. I get shit and I get life can be screwed up. I’m glad u rly don’t know me.

i bought you pig socks at the shore, i gave you my hair tie. Do you still have those? we played spoungebob and patrick connect4 the first time we hung out. i wish we could watch the sunrise, one, more, time.

And not we were never soulmates that’s just an excuse. So don’t get confused with the other sappy love messages.

and yk what don’t say that you are here for me plz. I don’t want anything from u. And knowing that you offer me that will hurt me and my selfish temptations will just reminisce. I have people, good people so it’s okay to not worry or care.

After 3 years I have finally let go of all the hurt and pain, you will always have a special place in my heart x

i’ve finally took back all the love i had for you and poured it into myself, i hope all the dark parts of you morn my light and ache.

I wish you weren't so far, I don't think you would ever feel the same way back if you were closer but I care about you and I want you to be happy.

You were always so insensitive to people and their feelings. I think thats way I had a hard time trusting you because I care too much about other people and their feelings. You were also too quick to judge people like I know its normal but I have never been like that. You never know what someone is going through and even if you do, people handle situations differently. Even if you have been in a similar situation your mind is different than everyone else. Sorry Im just saying these things about you but I need to get over you :)

i want to move on from you so bad. but i cant give up on you and i never will. no matter what you put me through or how you treat me in the end i would choose your happiness over mine anyday bb. Even if it meant i had to help you or leave you to find and create your own happiness i hope in some way i’d be able to help. i’ve never had any bad intentions towards you since the day we met, i’m sorry that i come across clingy and can’t seem to leave you alone it’s just that for once i felt something ? i felt cared and loved about by you , it felt good so i wanted to cling on that little while longer . you gave me so many reasons to live and i hope you could say the same . keep our promises even if we can’t keep eachother . i’m proud of you so so proud of you always forever ugly

I still miss you. Everyday. I know you are probably happier and I'm so happy for you but it still hurts. Maybe one day we could look at the stars.

I wake up every morning with a broken heart but you only lost a friend. I don’t understand your regrets, your sadness, and I don’t understand you. I look down because that’s the only way I see myself. I poured my heart out to you, so of course I still cry over you. You told me that I was too confusing and that you don’t understand me, how am I suppose to explain my pain, my sadness, or anything to you if I can’t put it into words for you to comprehend. Trust me, there is no need for you to remind me that I fucked up. I probably said things to you that I shouldn’t have and I was too invested in our relationship to consider reality. But I just wanted you to understand me, to hear me. I still consider you to be someone who broke me but I like to remember you as the guy who made me feel like I wasn’t alone. I don’t like to fall asleep because everyday that goes by is another day that we are not talking. I do miss you and I miss the late night conversations about stupid shit but I also miss the very real conversations we would have about life. I’m not upset that you didn’t want me but I’m upset that you lied about it. I never wanted the long version, the short version, the version that would make me feel better, I wanted the version that was right for you. I bailed, I ignored you, I removed you, I did anything to avoid you. This was because the things you said were always changing so I knew none of it was true. You adjusted what you said so often because you noticed something different, like my attitude, my responses, my quietness, it was obvious that the things you said were based on how it made me feel not how you actually felt. Just like you, I don’t know why I am writing this, I don’t know why I care anymore, I know I want you to be here for me but not because I said so but because you want to be. I don’t think our time has been wasted, in-fact I think about the times we were together because I envy those moments. I just wish I knew where you stood at the time because you never had to fake feelings for me. Even though we stopped talking and a part of me feels lost, to me, your the guy that no matter what happens, I would run back to. I realized that the right person will help you love yourself and that’s what happened to me, but the unfortunate thing is that I wasn’t the right person for you. I don’t think you ever realized how happy and sad you made me but that’s my fault because the tiniest things either make me happy or it can break my heart. I’m glad I taught you a lesson but the only thing I learned was to use my mind before my heart.

I don't know if I'm trying to little or too hard but I love you and I miss you and I'm so sorry that this is hard for you bc it's hard for me too. But I'm going to keep trying bc I love you so much

I was always the girl that would watch love movies and never believe that someone could fall in love in three days well here I am one week in yet I feel like I've known you my whole life. Is that idiotic to say?

I don't do relationships or feelings, so when I tried with you...it was real. I knew it was real because when I let you go, my heart hurt a little. Most of my life has been me trying to recover from things that I keep to myself. I silence thoughts because I am too nervous to talk about them. I'm trying to release pain and sadness that I hide with a smile. I'm trying to heal. If I was never the perfect girl, you should have left me alone like I asked. My friend asked if I still liked you. I said of course but I will never be able to look at you the same again. He said, if I still liked you, I would be able to look past everything. I figured out that I don't like you...not anymore but I will never be able to like someone else like you. He finally asked the big question...will I ever talk to you again? No, the last time I would text you would be on your birthday and for an amazing New Year! That is the last time you would hear from me. Some say it's painful to wait for someone but I think the most painful thing is to move on when you have so much love for that person. I had so much love for you. I would love to say maybe one day, we will meet again but I know that should not happen, but one day I hope we can explain to each other what really happened. Now, live your best life and I hope you do all the things you wanted to do.

why? why don't you love me anymore. please come back. i won't fight with you. you'll always be right. i just want to feel your love again. pls just come back.pls.

I hate how I hurt you. I hate myself for everything. I’d rather die than continue to hurt you. I’m so so so sorry.

i know there are probably other girls. and i know better but i can’t help but want to beg you to love me.

I want to call to check if you are doing okay. But i know you are okay because if things werent okay, I hope you know who to text.

i hate you with a passion, you literally suck, even when you liked me i still hated you. pls disintegrate.

You meant the world to me and I hate that you are no longer in my life. Our past was rocky and rough and I wish that I was able to change all of that again but I know that will never happen. You will always be my angel I still love you forever and always.

Ik this isn’t fair but for all the times I said I was “fine” “whatever” “ok” “forget it”, you should have known not to stop. I wanted you to prove to me that you cared about me and by dismissing me, you showed me that you aren’t the person I wanted you to be. You can look at literally most of our conversations and you’ll see that every damn time you responded like that, I wouldn’t settle for it, I would question you, and I was there for you because I knew there was more to you than those few words. I thought liking you was good but I never realized how hard it was for YOU to let me in. I blame myself because I keep thinking that I was never entirely honest or maybe I was hiding something but I never was, I was so vulnerable to you. It shouldn’t have been hard especially if you felt the same way which now I know the truth, a little too late. I shouldn’t be up late crying almost every other night because I wasn’t good enough and because I miss you. Liking you should have been joyful but it wasn’t, I was stressed, upset, and overthinking all the time. I fell in love with the wrong person and I know this now because all we did was argue and I questioned if I was even good enough for you. I had to wonder if you actually gave the slightest fuck about me. You fooled me.

I know u don’t care and I dont want to give two shits anymore. But that’s not me. I left the other mean broken messages but truly I just wanted you to want me back.

I really did love you. I know you didn’t love me and I’m okay with that. Becuse now I see who you really are and how I am too good for you and always will be. But thank you for the experience. I will never forget it

How about you text me tonight, I know what I feel and you know what I do feel. So you talk to me because even if it isn’t what I want to hear, I still want to hear it. I’ll answer you and anyways I’ll be up.

You’re a different person to me. You hurt me. You lied. And u were the last person I would expect that from. If I wasn’t the perfect one, what the fuck were we doing. all the things you told me about myself made me feel good but now I look at those things like they were lies. The fact that u don’t see what u did wrong is what’s most painful. Please no more stupid texts and random shit because I’ll just act like I care. Just leave me alone and hopefully I can continue to do the same.

I know we haven't known each other for a long time, but you have a piece of my heart... I want it back

hey dude since u were obsessed with the color red i chose it :) but n e ways,, i wish i never met u in art or math, i hate u :(

you were so sweet the first couple weeks, but little did i know you were just bored. it truly broke my heart when you told me that. then you sent me a whole paragraph talking about how sorry you were and that i was constantly on your mind. you said you had a dream about me the night before, that we were cruising down the coastline in a dark blue rx-7. it made me fall all over again. the next day you moved on with someone new. that left me stuck on my own with nothing in my thoughts but you. every second of every day i think about you and hope that you'd come running back for me. picking me right back up where you left me. it used to be that you'd only text me when you needed something, but now we joke around and roast the absolute shit out of each other. and as much as it shouldn't it still gives me hope for you and i. even tho i know you love her. i'd still do anything you'd ask me to, hoping that it'd bring you back to me. but all i can do for now is try to move on. i'll always have feelings for you but hopefully someday i can push myself past them. maybe one day i won't even remember you. thank you for all of the good times you gave me, you showed me what it was like to be happy again. i wish you the best my love:/

I wish you could experience how much pain I felt when I knew you felt nothing I wasted too many tears on you

I wish we talked more, you don't know how much I liked you and how you made me laugh everyday, you made me day better every time we talked.

I wasn't upset that you told me you weren't ready. I was upset when you told me you were still in love with her.

You make me so happy. Even when I’m mad at you, I still love you lots. Thank you for being my best friend & fiancé at once. Thank you for teaching me love again.

You broke me in a way I didn’t know I could be broken, why do I still love you? Do you still love me?

Hey logie. I miss you. Maybe this was right person, wrong time. Idk but something tells me not to let go yet

Well i know that we still talk to each other and that we did have something but i don't know if you still feel the same way the i do. I sometimes think that you do and then it just goes downhill. just like the things i would do just to hear you say "I love you" again.

The funny thing is you went on and on about how much you like talking to me and then u told me u thought about hu, so all of a sudden the relationship was platonic? Tell me honestly, how that makes any sense.

i miss u. i miss our frienship. i dont know what i did wrong but u were my bestfriend and now we dont even talk anymore. pls come back.

Just the way we looked at each other. When I looked into your eyes, I can’t remember not smiling after. This all meant nothing to u, thanks!

How are you okay with this? Why does it have to be the last time? I meant everything I said, if you really think I'm not enough for you or that I wasn't perfect, wtf were we trying to figure out. You had me fooled and you lied to me. You were really one of the few people that made me feel better.

I fell in love with you stupid and everything you ever said to me. It wasn’t just what you said but how it made me feel. So yeah you already know this but this isn’t what you want, idk what to tell you.

You were terrible to me but I somehow just can't get over you and still want you back. You're probably over me but I'm not over you yet. I somehow forgive all of the things you did to me and made me do.

Im letting you go again, I hope you grow - I know you’re my person, and always will be. Come back when you’re ready. G

This is as simple as I can put it. I’m lost in thoughts but I have figured most of it out. You were my person. I don’t think I told you that because I knew I wasn’t yours. I was in love with you. I still love you but I’m not in love. You have lost me. I keep looking through these stupid fucking messages because I want to hear from. I keep looking for stupid bullshit signs that you are the one for me. I know that ship has sailed but I just hate that I can’t tell you anything anymore. I will always have so much love for you but I don’t want anything from you anymore. I don’t want the time you gave me because you thought it made me happy. I don’t want the conversations because one of us always gets upset. I don’t want to be in contact because I’m so scared that I still have no idea how to live without you. I don’t want to face you because I know I wouldn’t look away from you. The challenging thing is actually looking into your eyes and saying “hey! I’m totally over this guy.” Because I know I am not capable of that right now.

You know when I was with you I didn’t question it, I mean I questioned where we stood and our status but I never questioned MY feelings. I pushed the feelings away and I made myself distant but I know the exact reason why I did that. You see, when I’m with other guys I question everything so I know, you’re the one that got away. I knew this was bound to happen sooner or later which is why I did what I did but I don’t regret it because if you still wanted me to talk to me and look at me again, you would.

it's been a year since we parted ways and it makes me so sad that i wasn't good enough for you. i hope one day we can be friends

you didn't really treat me right when we were dating but I still miss you. You say you care but you don't act like it. You say you miss me too and stuff but I don't believe it. If you still care, show me please.

You're ignoring me again. Fuck you. If you dont wanna talk to me just tell me. Dont say "I have a migrane but we can talk tomorrow :)" Fuck you. Stop playing with my feelings.