I miss you so much that it is physically and emotionally breaking me. I am in pain because of you. I try not to think about you but no matter how hard I try to distract myself with friends, drinking, boys, work, partying, nothing makes me feel the way you did. The funny thing is I do not want this pain to be over because once it is gone, I know you will be gone forever. I do not want to be done because I believe it was just the start for us. To be honest, I feel like I can’t do anything without you, without talking and seeing you. Maybe I am lying, maybe I am just not ready to let you go for selfish reasons.