i like you so much. but i know you care more about popularity and being with someone with a higher social level. i know i’m not skinny but i would never do anything to wring you. but knowing you since elementary. you rather not

Sorry I had to copy this because I submitted it to Lohan (I lil high).
If you have nothing to say fine. I feel like I have said everything. Plz tell me what I’m missing or what I said wrong. I’m high can u just text me, I miss you. All you ever had to do was tell me the truth, not what I wanted to hear.

I would be nervous when your notification appeared on my phone, I laughed when I heard your name, I was happy when I saw you. Im waiting for the moment when your name doesn't put a smile on my face but that hasn’t happened yet, wish me luck.

We clicked. I was comfortable with you. I still cannot say your name without crying, at least a little dude. When I remember you, I try not to think about the tears but I think about your smile, your laugh, your eyes, and the way you looked at me. I know you looked at me lol. I didn't have to pretend to be anything when I was with you. I would do anything to have you back again, but I realized if that's what you wanted, you would have done it. Till this today, when I think about you, it hurts my heart. I keep saying this is going to be my last stupid sappy message, but I can't stop. I feel like I am waiting for you. I know I told you this a thousand times, but I have never felt this way before, I know I am not your first anything but if the friendship was real, what happened? Anyway, I hope you are enjoying your New Year, even if you decide to never text or ft me again lol :(

you meant so much to me for so long and you never felt the same even when i would’ve done anything for you

i love you more than you will ever know. no matter how bad you broke me i will love you forever and always my sweet boy?

I love you more than any girl ever will. I miss you so much. I will always love you. That’s my pinky promise

Why did you have to go too soon? I miss you. Why did you have to leave this world. I hate that you chose to. I love you L

I don’t think you’ll ever understand how much I don’t want to loose you. I don’t think you understand how important you are to me. - ☆ʕ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ

I just want to know...
Do you know what you want? Because I think about you all the time. But you are doing nothing so so I feel like I shouldn’t do anything. I want someone who goes out of their way to make it obvious that they want me in their life.
I’m holding on to the idea that you still want me even though I know it’s not true. But tell me, don’t just shut me out completely. Tell me you don’t want me. Tell me you never felt the same way I felt about you.

i thought we could’ve worked, i would’ve made an effort for u but u weren’t willing to do the same. i thought we still had a chance but then u just moved on like we were nothing, ig that’s what i was to you

I think and worry about you every night and it's getting harder to sleep. I wish things were easier for you, I love you a lot, shit. A lot, a lot

I wasn’t mad that you didn’t want me. I was mad that you said you did and no actions followed what you supposedly “felt”.

i still think of u every night before i go to bed. i wish u had cared a little more. i wish u had wanted me the way i wanted you :/

Your so amazing and sweet and goofy . I keep pushing you away because I’m scared you will never care about me the way I care about you. I know you need time to heal but the more I get to know you the more I fall.?

I’m tired of everyone saying that you aren’t worth my tears. You are because if u weren’t worth it, I wouldn’t feel this lost without you. :(

why do you hurt me so much all i wanna do is love you and i get hurt. im sorry for everything ive done i just want to love.

Fuck u for what u did the other night, she is my best friend and you knew how much I used to like you. Your an asshole

I know that you’ll probably never see this, but there’s something I need to tell you. I’m too much of a coward to actually text you this myself, so this is the only place I could think of.
Even though I know that you’ll never feel the same, I just want to say that I like you, a lot. You’re funny, kind, and I really enjoy spending time with you.
Happy new year! I hope we can make new memories together, even if it’s just as friends.

after how hard i tried to make you feel wanted, that "instant connection" we had, you still went ahead and acted like i didn't exist.

do you want to hear a crazy story?
I fell for you and I’m not over you.
I keep trying to meet new guys but every time I do, I realize they aren’t you.
I have never felt so strongly about someone to the point that when I’m with someone else who actually has interest in me, I cry. I cry because I wanted it to be you that showed interested in me. I want it to be you reaching out to me and asking if I’m ok. I want it to be you.

U hurt me so bad. When u said "r there any more loose end to tie" I cried. It stabbed me. Like what we had never mattered, like I never mattered. Y don't I matter to u, y am I not enough. All I want is to be enough for u

You have to understand when I love which is often, I am serious and dedicated to the relationship. This may be selfish to say but I long for someone who has patience and for someone who makes me feel worth it, or special because I lack that kind of confidence in myself, even though I may not show it. Logan, I know we did not embrace each other publicly because even though I love, I just have a difficult time showing it but I hope you know how much you made me feel. I hope the conversations we often shared in private weren't bullshit. I think we could have been perfect and as I mentioned in the beginning, I didn't see the conflict like you did which is why I liked you because you were practical. I have realized that I bore very easily but with you I really didn't know what to expect. I know, I can get annoyed very easily, become overly sensitive, and I make irrational mean dumb decisions, but it’s because of all the things I tend to be insecure about. Honestly, I didn't want to talk in person because I knew exactly how I felt, I was scared to hear everything you had to say because it probably wasn't what I wanted to hear at the time. I really wanted to take things page by page with you. I feel like on my part, even though I did not tell you what I felt first, I was pretty open about how I felt, I just wasn't receiving anything back. I always become distant when I tell someone something personal such as my feelings and I guess that's because most of the time, I fear rejection which is why I look for acceptance in almost anything. Even when I became distant with you, you seemed to notice minute details about me and you really tried to understand me more than most people. I admired that you “cared” so much but I do not like when people try to understand me and that is mainly because I don’t understand myself and therefore, I have a terrible way with words. One thing I did realize that we had in common was that we can be honest, and although we shared parts of our lives with one another, we tend to keep “secrets” or just things to ourselves in order to not “upset” or “hurt” that person. I also felt like everything was just too easy with you, especially talking to you and to me being too perfect is not good which is how I was seeing you. So I found faults for no good reason and I will agree that I started the conflict and the confusion. I can for sure tell that we have emotional issues, but not the same kind which is why I think we tried to understand each other. I still cry and I do not like hearing your name because I think about the moments and the conversations that I took for granted with you. At this point, I accepted how everything ended but that is because I feel like if it was supposed to be different, it would be right? I guess life does go on and so we have but I will never forget you dude.

I never got to kiss you. I still want you. I am always thinking about you. I literally don’t know what to do with myself anymore. I was with another guy the other night, and I cried for an hour. I cried because when I was with him, I could only think about you. He has been the first guy that I honestly started liking here but he isn’t you. Please, if there is the slightest chance you maybe want me, talk to me. You know damn well that I never stopped liking you.

I never got to kiss you. I still want you. I am always thinking about you. I literally don’t know what to do with myself anymore. I was with another guy the other night, and I cried for an hour. I cried because when I was with him, I could only think about you. He has been the first guy that I honestly started liking here but he isn’t you. Please, if there is the slightest chance you maybe want me, talk to me. You know damn well that I never stopped liking you.

All my friends tell me to stop. To stop wanting you, to stop feeling sorry for myself that I lost you. But the truth is, I think most people will never know you, the way I knew you. Logan, did you ever mean anything? I do not know how you are okay, if you meant what you said. I really want to tell you I do not care anymore and that you never meant anything. But I have accepted the fact that I will never feel this way with anyone.

Do you ever feel so fucking alone. I could honestly be in a room with some of my dearest friends but it wouldn't be enough because I would be waiting for you. I try to play it cool but I miss you more than anyone. I am so sorry. I wish you came to that party so I could have shown you what I meant.

I am always told I need to let people in. But I did that with you and look where that got me. I was wrong to say that I love you. I was wrong for putting myself in a situation that made me so vulnerable to you. It honestly not your fault, I have had this problem since forever. For the two years that we have known each other, I thought you would have been one of the few people that would never hurt me. You moved on so damn fast and that made me realize the problem. I expect to damn much and I cant give anyone all of me without being fucked over.

I miss you so much. Im broken but I have been broken, way before you came into my life. I think I was just looking for help and when you helped me, I didn't like the change. I hated talking to you about myself, I just wanted to listen to everything you said though because I could tell you were real.

I will never have the capability to text you ever again. The text was the last text, I realized you do not care anymore and you have every right not to. Im just sad, that's all.

It’s been a few years now since we were together, yet I still think of us everyday. I wish more than anything that our timing could have been right again. Not a day goes by that I don’t think of you still, I miss you so much it hurts. I hope she makes you as happy as you made me.

Its funny because as much as I never want to see you again, your the only one I want to see. Now you use the word "platonic" so that has me questioning everything you have ever done. If its platonic, why did u talk to me like that, why did u look at me like that, why did u tell me what you were "feeling"? You had me looking like a fool this entire time because of the things you told your "friends" as if I was obsessed with you. But they never heard the things you told me in private and I would never share that with anyone but it seemed mutual. I honestly do not know if your an asshole or if your just embarrassed but sharing the things I once told you is pretty fucked up. I would obviously never actually say this to your face because you still have a place in my heart but New Years was the last time you will ever hear from me, I promise :). Some days I miss your laugh and the stupid things you would say but than I remember how it all went down. I never had the chance to let you hear it from me first, someone else always had something to say. But the worse part is that you shared what I was telling you so many times so the trust is forever gone. I do constantly miss you and I like to remember our jokes. I just never realized the kind of guy you were until I was away but Im glad it did happen because now I know.

you ruined me. does it feel good to know that? i hope you cracked a little too when you shattered me.

You are so sweet it’s hard seeing you in school halls. But I understand you didn’t want to talk anymore but I don’t hate you for that .:)

I miss you so much that it is physically and emotionally breaking me. I am in pain because of you. I try not to think about you but no matter how hard I try to distract myself with friends, drinking, boys, work, partying, nothing makes me feel the way you did. The funny thing is I do not want this pain to be over because once it is gone, I know you will be gone forever. I do not want to be done because I believe it was just the start for us. To be honest, I feel like I can’t do anything without you, without talking and seeing you. Maybe I am lying, maybe I am just not ready to let you go for selfish reasons.

you’re the only one who made me experience what real happiness is. you’re the only one i pictured myself with. i hated everything about me, until you said you loved them. i won’t give up on us. i’m sorry for everything. i love you my sunflower.

Hi! You are racist but cover it up by saying it's "dark humor", and I have no idea why I even liked you because I'm a POC.

my friends show me all the snaps you send them asking how i am or talking about me, ik you miss me lol

I love you so much but you make me feel so tired its like im drowning sometimes, im afraid to go to you for certain things bc you get mad. I just wish u knew how much i love you and then maybe you wouldnt want to constantly try to leave me.

i don’t know where we will go. i hope you’ll be here but you make me want to rip my hair out sometimes.

i think i just miss the feel of you there. we were strangers. still are. we had absolutely nothing in common. i didn’t know you, yet when you left, you took a part of me with you. it hurts to see you everyday. still.

I wish we could’ve spent more time together we had so much potential. you were my first love somehow we were never official but the memories we have stuck in my heart everyday. the way you made me laugh
will never be forgotten.

thank you for always being a burst of joy and being supportive. Even though people don't have the same visions of yours, you try to make then understand, which is powerful.

i see the way you look at him and i. stop making me feel bad for liking someone new. let me let you go

i hope your dogs get as excited to see her as they did to see me. I'm over you, I just miss your dogs

I first realized I loved you when I saw you smile for the first time. I remember acting like an idiot and suddenly you were throwing your head back laughing, your eyes twinkling as the light hit you just perfectly looking like an angel sent for me straight from heaven. That moment slowed and burned itself into my subconscious. I remember thinking how badly I would like to kiss you and resisting that urge everytime I saw you for the next 5 years. To this day seeing your name pop up on my messages gives me butterflies and I sit back and love you silently. You could never love me back.

I fell in love with your voice, your laugh, your touch, everything. You've moved on, and I wish I could say I have too. When you left, you took a piece of me I can't get back. I hope she was worth it.

a boy who wasn’t you kissed me the other day. i wish it had been you. i’ll always miss you and your
sea green eyes.

I will always have so much love for you Logan. My heart is broken not because I am in love (even though I know I am) but because I thought you would be in my life forever, we even talked about staying in contact but we have done nothing. I mean I tried but it was too damn hard and I never got to explain this but I didn't want to hear about the perfect girl you met and I didn't want to know that the only reason you kept talking to make me was so I wasn't sad. I never intended to stop any of it but I feel like if you didn't want it to stop, you would have continued to care about me. I know, I am not alone but that doesn't distract me from the fact that I never want anyone to know me like you do. You cannot keep saying for the time apart we can grow stronger and maybe one day meet again, you cannot keep saying things like that because I never want to feel pain like this again. I would drop everyone and everything to see you become the greatest version of yourself but I honestly think it would break me even more to see those chapters of your life because I wouldn't be in it. I did let you go for little because I was distracted by all the new things in my life. But now every moment I spend either doing nothing or something, I am reminded of you. I am so sorry, I couldn't be the easy simple girl you needed or wanted. I am so sorry if I embarrassed you or made you feel like you weren't good enough. But the truth is, I am a mess, and I was never good enough for you. I am so glad you have the reassurance you wanted, but I don't. I want to text you and I want you to want to hear from me but that doesn't seem like it will ever happen again. I still just really want to know why you lied and why you felt you had to lie to me, I knew you didn't have feelings for me the way I had feelings for you, so why make them up?

I know you lied to me, you left me for her, I hope you know that I've never hurt like this before, and its your fault