Unsent messages to KEVIN

i hope you’ll love me forever

im sorry. we could have been amazing but I didn't feel the same.

i will never look at another guy the way i looked u

Maybe in another dimension you would’ve chose me.

you are literally my soulmate ilysm c: thank u for being u

No sé nada de vos hace meses, veo por fotos que comparten tus amigos, y se ve estas bien, eso me alegra un poco.
Desde que te fuiste me quedé varada en la nada, porque no estaba en mis planes perderte, yo quería seguir insistiendo un poco más porque estaba convencida que en algún momento te ibas a dar cuenta que yo te podía dar todo lo que buscabas. Tres años de seguido con idas y vueltas y jamás pude llegar a tocarte el alma, ni pude hacer que mis besos fueran lo suficiente para que te quedaras conmigo, me cuestioné de mil formas que fue lo que hice mal, si era tan aburrida o incluso pensé que fue porque no era fanática de tu mismo equipo de fútbol. Me viste llorar por vos y me acuerdo que me dijiste que merecía a alguien mejor, y yo solo te dije que quería que ese alguien fueras vos. Seguí con la esperanza de que me ibas a querer, seguíamos ahí y creo que yo era la única que tiraba de la cuerda con ganas de que algo suceda, pero no fue así, llegó alguien más a tu vida que te hizo sentir todo eso que yo no pude, me rompí en mil pedazos, me perdí, desde ese momento siento que no avanzo, que no hay nadie para mi, porque me sacaste todas las ganas de intentar, porque siempre me dejan de lado y encuentran alguien mejor que yo, me siento la persona más reemplazable del mundo.
Y no te voy a mentir, te sigo esperando aunque vea que estas feliz con ella, algo dentro mio no te quiere dejar ir, porque sigo queriendo que vuelvas, porque tengo mucho para darte y no se lo quiero dar a nadie más.
Si ves esto, te amo Kevin, solo quiero que sepas que aunque pienses que te detesto porque te dejé de seguir en todas las redes sociales, no, eso no significa nada, te sigo queriendo como desde aquella primera vez que te vi en esa fiesta y te quedaste clavado en mi mente y corazón. Espero encuentres tu camino de nuevo a mí.

Honestly, I don’t think I ever loved you. I loved the idea of you. And I miss being friends but now I still see you, but ur like a stranger. It’s weird, but I’m always gonna miss being ur friend.

hi hoe, i’m really really sorry i don’t like talking about my feelings. i don’t do it on purpose and i wish i didn’t hate it as much as i do:( i’m genuinely really sorry. i just wanted to say that i think you deserve the best and i’m pretty sure i love you too. i’ve never told anyone that before yk? kinda been saving it till the right time cause those are some strong words. i really hope i’m correct. i think it all the time. i think you’re a crazy and cool guy. i’ve never had someone (outside of my family) genuinely care about me this much, and the fact that you are capable of that is f- ing amazing (don’t know if i can swear in this or if they’ll ban me). those 8 thousand kilometers really ain’t shit huh? btw i could never talk about this irl. i’m really sorry. i’m so sorry. anyways, you’re the most coolest and genuine person i ever met. you are amazing in every way possible. i never thought i’d have such an instant connection with someone who i’ve never met. sucks that you are so much younger than me LOL (if anyone else reads this i am joking, i am not a pedo, don’t call the cops). anyways haha ?, don’t know what else to tell you. can we just pretend i ain’t ever spoke of my feelings? love your tooth gapped bitch ass?

Hey dork, I highly doubt this is something you'd ever look into, but I thought I'd say I love you, even if you don't feel the same.

I hate you because I feel I was nothing to you even when you tried to reassure to me that I was :( I love you and I don’t want you to do anything that puts you in harms way please stay alive

Oh Kevin, bro youre so hot. As you know i am your friends friend. I literally think you're so cute. Ill never admit that to you or my friend because he would probably get mad and pissy. Thats all, i just wanted to let you know i thik youre pretty. You have a pretty stupid fucking name but besides that youre perfect

I love you so fucking much you don’t even know. I’m so scared to express my feelings cause I think ur gonna reject cause u have like 100 girls already liking u.. I just think ur the one u treat me like omg like everything! you always have my back I just love u. And if I ever lose u I would be so sad cause without u I’m nothing.. I always think about u I dream about you every second I think about u.. I just live u so much we are unseparable probably you don’t feel the same way about me but it’s totally fine. I could never send this to you I don’t have the gut to do it cause then our friendship would just. it would end. Remember Kevin ilysm forever:)

you told everyone a different reason why you left me and my only 2 questions are....what was the real reason? and how did you stop loving me so quickly?

even though we didn’t work out, I hope I get another chance to love you even harder in the next lifetime.

I loved you for years, and when we finally got our shot at love i was so happy and when it didn’t work out it killed me inside. I miss you.

Alguna vez me dijeron que tenia que arriesgar para ganar,pero se que no soy tu tipo,y que no te fijarias en mi,es dificil verte todos los dias y no pensar en ti.Por favor sal de mi cabeza.

i’m gonna wait for u even tho i’m probably wasting my time. just kno that i’m always gonna be here always

hey kev, u prob wont see this but i really miss you. you were the only reason i would wake up every day and without you it’s so hard. you probably moved on but i haven’t lol. i’m still keeping my promise and you’re always allowed to come back. i would be so happy if you did. just know i never lied abt anything and i was and still am yours. i love you

We were never the right people at the wrong time, we were the wrong people at the perfect time. I will always love you to the ends of the world but I need someone who will at least talk to me about how they're feeling.

I love you so much and I wish you’d see that. But I’m so bad at showing it especially when I’ve never been treated this good, I love you.

No se por que no te he podido sacar de mi mente, siempre recuerdo ese abrazo que me diste en el festival, pense que sería el primero de muchos, pero fue el único. Han pasado 5 años que no hablamos y tu vida amorosa ha ido bien, pero, ¿por que no puedo olvidarte?

You honestly took a big piece of me and I will never forgive you for it , it’s been years but even now it hurts so much . You stopped me from loving myself and I shouldn’t have let you .

everyday i miss you more and more. i wish that you were still the same person that i first met and fell in love with. how could you leave and feel nothing so easily? everyday i wish and wish that any guy i try to talk or date end up to be like you during our relationship because i still fucking love you, so so much.

i cant see a future without you. no matter how many times we argue, i would never want us to separate. please don’t leave me. i love you so much, more than words could ever describe.

i miss the old you. what did i do or say to make you fall out of love w me so quickly? you never actually loved me, did you?

thank you for being my first true love. you taught me the feeling of “home” but you also taught me the cold reality of “heartbreak.” i was so scared of the day you’d leave but now that it has passed, i’m glad you’re happy. even if it’s w/o me. i still love you but i refuse to admit to be in love w a boy that doesn’t want me in the slightest. i hope you find someone that makes you feel the way you made me feel for most of our time together. i’m sorry i wasn’t enough. i should’ve tried harder, but in the end, i really do think we would’ve worked out but you were too focused on other things. maybe i should’ve been focusing on other things too rather than trying to fix a relationship that was never broken. i just wanted you to love me the way i loved you, but now it’s too late for us. but who knows? maybe in another life.

it's been exactly a year. you've changed my life. Now, I can breathe. Now, I can see myself as the worthy woman that I am. Now, I can move forward with the certainty that I will be okay. You leaving led to the greatest gift i've ever given myself. Thank you.

When I saw you for the first time, everything around us went into slow motion and even sounds muted. It was very weird.

i know you love her, but you didn’t have to leave the way you did. i still watch the videos of us laughing together.

I love you so much you make me the happiest. Our calls are like my happy place. Your laugh is the cutest:) MWAAA

I really did love you. You meant so much to me, and it breaks my heart to know that you moved on as if I never meant anything to you.

Sometimes staying friends seems easier but everyday you find ways to make me happy that I didn’t know existed, and everyday I seem to like you more and more. I wish I could tell you but I’m afraid you won’t feel the same way.

You had to be your heroic self that day. You'll never see my wedding day... I love and miss you so much..

I really miss you and Dont think I will ever fully get over you. You are part of me and I am I part of you..I just love you so much and wish I would undo some stuff I did or said In the past...I probably ruined everything for us, your family hates me, my family hates u, and I just don’t know what to do, I truly am in love with u, these other niggas don’t interest me at ALLL Bc they not u, like I just- I love you bro and please don’t die?❤️❤️

obrigada por me mostrar amor, respeito e honestidade. você me deu motivos para viver. te encontro em outro tempo (ou outra vida).

Here I am, once again, I keep promising myself I'd never come back, that I don't miss you and that we're over. But I still miss you, I'm happy now without you, I have someone else who fills the gap that you left. You hurt me and years later I still just want to talk to you. Do you ever miss me? Do you ever see something and think of me? Do you ever feel sorry for what you did to me, did you mean everything you said, did you actually love me or did you love the idea of having a girlfriend. I really hope the best for you, but at the same time, I hope you get hurt the way you hurt me. You hurt me so bad and when I would cry or tell you how I felt you would laugh in my face and proceed to tell me it's my fault for loving you. How is it my fault you cheated, how is any of this my fault? I hate your guts, but I still feel the need to be friends with you? I love you forever Kevin, even if you never loved me.

i'm so sorry for what i did, i truly did love you you were right person at the wrong time. i cant express how mad i am af myself for being so rude and cutting you off that way. i hope you're happy with ur girlfriend i wish you the best.
love ya.

i wish u would’ve just told me how you felt earlier. and i wish you still felt how you felt before. because i never stopped liking you.

I didn’t know I needed you in my life until you left. I wish you had stopped lying to yourself sooner, maybe then I would’ve believed in our relationship.

if I went back through everyone I've had feelings for, you top everyone on that list. I don't know what we are or what you feel for me at the moment, but I love you. I could tell you that a million times. you're my best friend and I never meant to fall in love with you. you're one of the most beautiful people I've ever met, and I'm so grateful that our lives collided somehow. I wish I knew if you loved me back, because you act like you do, but you can't communicate anything with me. you kiss me and hold my hand in the car, but then you don't text me for days at a time. everything about us is so incredibly toxic and it makes me love it even more. the toxicity makes me crave you and I hate it so much. I deserve better than this but I refuse to walk away.

I cant believe I came here to kinda talk to you ew. I want to say Im over you, because I dont want anything to do with u. But, here I am talking to you(kinda)..in a way does that mean Im not over it all?....dont answer yall, its sadly a little yea. I spent some years on this icky dude, so its ok for me to take my time, it hasnt even been a full year since everything. Im at 90% getting over you tho hahaha.

if you think its me...it isnt. Im happier and every time I check on you ngl I get the icks because youre gross. Im in fault for not letting go sooner ...who knows maybe this year would of been a little different if I did...or you know, you never did what you did haaa. waiting for the day i truly let go of whatever this is now, u sick fuck.

I don’t know if it was real love but you were the first one for me and sometimes I think back and miss you. You probably don’t even remember me anymore but thank you for being my first love. Maybe we weren’t meant to be or maybe we’ll meet again in the future. I wish you all the best and I hope you’re happy, always.

Te amo y lo siento que no soy perfecta pero si eres importante. Te lo prometo que siempre Te voy a qurre

Sometimes you make me feel happy but sometimes you act so different. I hate it because I actually love you... please show that you care your hurting me..

holy fuck you ruined me. i miss you so much but it was one sided and i know i have to understand that you didn’t like me back but you could’ve just told me instead of you blocking me without saying anything. i hate you so much but yet i find myself staring at our old messages for hours. it’s been six months and i still cry like a baby. this is fucking pathetic lol.

thank u for being the sunshine of my life during cegep. i'm sad we don't talk anymore but i wish u the best.

Hey.. I just wanna say I’m really proud of you and I hope you continue to grow and become successful. I will continue to pray to God that you remain well loved, healthy, and happy. I love you and miss you. Be safe please. ?

How are you? I know I shouldn't care but I do. I miss you. I know it will never work out with us but I just need to talk to you.

your so fucking ugly, I mean that in the nicest way possible, your genuinely so fucking ugly, sorry :(