Unsent messages to KEVIN

Que bueno que ya no andamos porque mi reputación ya estaba muy manchado, pero tengo que confesar que aquel fa*e que tuvimos estuvo muy rico, eso es lo único que extraño, hacer otro fa*e

i never felt more comfortable with anyone than i did with you. i hate how things ended before i lost you and i wish i could've said sorry. you will forever me part from me. always and forever x

i never felt more comfortable with anyone than i did with you. i hate how things ended before i lost you and i wish i could've said sorry. you will forever me part from me. always and forever x

me equivoque lo se, pero no se por que no puedo olvidarte, desde que te fuiste no e sentido lo mismo que si contigo con alguien mas, siento que dejaste vacio mi corazon y me enseñaste muchas cosas, se que estas pasando por cosas muy dificles pero no te rindas, yo confio en ti y se que puedes lograr todo lo que te propongas porque eres un chingon y porque se que lo mereces porque eres una muy buena persona, perdon si te hice algo malo en el pasado, solo no sabia como experimentar cossas nuevas pero te juro que si hubiera sabido que me ibas a pegar muy duro en mi corazon no te dajaria tan facil, espero que te vaya muy bien y si volvemos a coicidir que sea algo hermoso, honesto y agradable, si no coicidimos nunca mas te deseo que encuentres a alguien que te trate como lo mereces porque de verdad tiene un corazon muy grande y eres una persona unica, te quiero muchisimo de verdad y siempre te voy a tener en mi corazon y te extraño como no sabes

You hurt me. You damaged me, but it's alright. You made me into the person I am right now. I might seem like I'm okay, but inside I deeply want you to realize what you did to me.

You weren't supposed to mean this much to me, but you're all I think about now. I don't know if you feel the same, distance is hard, but I want this to work out for us - whatever we are. Thank you for being you. The world needs people like you.

I'm disappointed you left before we got to really know each other. And eight months later, I'm still waiting for you to text me back.

hola...hace tiempo no se nada de ti y no quise admitirlo estoy saliendo con otra persona y no siento lo que sentía por ti sabes, duele saber eso, solo quiero que vuelvas pero se que eso es algo imposible, te escribo a ti porque eres el único con quien tuve esa conexión y me duele saber eso, sabes siempre te extrañare, te amo y creo que eso lo haré siempre el orgullo te gano y a mi igual y eso me da tristeza. Adiós espero que estés bien y que te vaya bien. Adiós... aunque no quisiera te digo esto, te amo y tu fantasma no me deja... espero que un día me deje ir y pueda ser feliz con alguien. Si llegas a leer esto... Escríbeme o búscame mis puertas siempre estarán abiertas

you're the best artist i know, you're so fun to talk to and are just super interesting so it's really fun to be around you! i hope i have another class with you!

kevinnn you are the funniest blindingly bright person ever, but i have since learnt to adjust because it doesnt even bother me at all anymore-- i dont think i could live without the glare at this point. i love you so much for being a secretly amazing friend under the disguise that ur dum (but youre not) and i admire your artsiness and tenacity to reach goals other people see as impossible.. nothing its for you :) thank you for being my friend

You’re great at art, probably amazing at splatoon and I don’t think your laugh is as bad as people say it is. Cool dude.

kevin,
i don’t resent you. in fact i’m happy that you did what you had to do to keep you happy. i love you and everything we went through and everything i said to you was nothing but the truth. the truth of my love. anyway, see you later or in another life.

You were my first and my only real love. I’m so happy we met. I’m so happy we’re still talking. I still always wonder what would’ve happened if we kept dating and just fought through it. I’ll always love you, I just can’t tell you that now. God you’re such an amazing person and I’ll always be thankful for you.

we haven't spoke in years, it was middle school love but I hope life is treating you well. you deserve all the good in the world.

after everything, you stick by my side and for the first time in years, when u looked me in the eyes, you sparked some thing in me. thank you, plz never leave me

hey. thanks for helping me and making me laugh. i know we don't talk anymore. but i still think about you sometimes. i hope you do too.

well, you made me stuck on you and now i cant see a life without you , i just miss the old you but i love you and i hate that i do

I wish you knew how hopeful I was that we would become something, I still look back and regret everything I did for you. For a long time I was willing to drop everyone for you but you didn’t see me the same. I wish we could’ve been friends, if I knew how you’d be afterwards I would’ve never done anything with you. You left me feeling so hurt and insecure you really hurt my self esteem and I wish I could go back to that day and never go with you. But the thing is you’ll always be there, there’s always gonna be a place in my heart for you and I don’t know how to get rid of it. I’m so happy in my relationship but every time I see you I wish I could just talk to you. I’ll care about you forever. :(

ik you're probably not gonna see this. its been almost a year and I still have leftover feelings. i play memories in my head and I think if I changed something, would we still be like before or more. i am still very confused about how you felt about me. you have never asked me directly how I felt about you nor told me how you felt. why tf can't I get over this shit. tell me so I can move on.

i knew you were going to be something big from the moment we first saw each other and our eyes instantly locked. thank you for being so understandable, sweet, patient, and honest with me. te amo

i still remember when we were kids. we weren’t together but you were my first love. i still think of you. hopefully we meet again.

Hey, I can tell that you have been through a lot and trust me I have as well. And It would be a pleasure to hear all about it and for me to share you my story as well. I would love to be close friends with you at least if it never comes to lover terms.

That day you held my face in your hands and rubbed your thumbs across my cheek, so softly, was the day I felt beautiful and wanted.

i love you so much, youre honestly the love of my life and i have zero clue about what i would do without you, and i hope i never have to find out. i know we've been in a rough place for a bit but i promise that i will never leave you no matter what, i will always try my hardest to work through our problems together:) its us against the world, no each other

you're a really great guy. you make me feel so loved and cared for. i feel like i truly have found the one. i have no idea what i would do without and i hope i never have to find out

Sadly I'm not gonna forget you
Yes you ruined some good times
Found me innocent and unconscious
Quickly minimized my heart.

I love you. When I met you, I started taking care of myself like i've never done before. Then you left me.

I’ll love you always. I hated the distance too and I’m sorry it had to end this way. Please be safe baby love.

You talked to me for this time in quarantine... I thought maybe you were bored but then you tested your loyalty to me by talking to me even when you didn’t have to. I love you for that.... yet you made me hurt so much

It’s already going to be 8 months without hearing your voice; I miss you, You probably don’t and that’s okay. I kinda wished that I realized earlier, That you treated every girl the same. lolz I really thought you liked me back ngl, I’m slowly getting over you, even though we didn’t date aha?, but yeah I heard you’ve been talking to her for a while now? I hope you end up with someone that will be there for you until the end, whether it’s me or not. I will always be happy for you.

I still feel things for you, but I can't tell you because I think you already forgot me.
Kiwi, I like you

Aun me hacer sentir cosas pero no puedo decírtelo por que creo que ya me olvidaste :(
Kiwi, me gustas

If I put a ring on your finger, will you never leave? I still worry. The ring is in my pocket. Its been there 3 years.

Me gustaste mas de lo que debía, jamás sentí amor solo atracción y ahora lo entiendo, tu personalidad no me agrada eres un asco y porfa dile a tu nv que no me escriba gracias.

you told all your friends my secrets and then still acted like my friend, and i continued that act because i didn’t know.

maybe it’s too early for this, but i love you. thank you for being the world. ur the warmest ever. and i love you forever.

I wish you understood how much I want it to work but it hurts me I cant keep doing this I just wanted you to care as much as I do but all good things must end.. Pink for your favorite colour

I know now that this is what was supposed to happen... but I think of you everyday, and I still miss you a lot of the time. Like I always said, make all A’s for me. xoxo

I still love you. Always have, always will. It's been 4 years. Hopefully we'll come back to each other.

Aún recuerdo tu voz, tu calor cuando me abrazabas, sigo guardando la envoltura de los últimos chocolates que me diste. Desde que me violaste todo cambio, me destruiste y me mataste lentamente y aún recuerdo con asco todo lo que me hacías, pero gracias por irte, en serio gracias. Espero nunca más volver a verte porque si lo hago sé que podría perdonarte.

I unblocked you today. I miss you, I miss the connection we used to have. Blocking you was a mistake that I will always regret.

I unblocked you today. I miss you, I miss the connection we used to have. Blocking you was a mistake that I will always regret.

I wish that you could understand the way i feel ab you. I really want to be with you and ik thats a stretch. I have to let go though. Its for my own sake so i can grow. I always felt like there was a connection between us but I was wrong. Love you❤️❤️❤️

I wish that you could understand the way i feel ab you. I really want to be with you and ik thats a stretch. I have to let go though. Its for my own sake so i can grow. I always felt like there was a connection between us but I was wrong. Love you❤️❤️❤️

I really hate that I don’t hate you after all you put me through. You were my first love but you didn’t love me back.

una parte de mi se está cansando, me gustaría que todo fuera mejor y no fueras tan difícil, no quiero perderte, en serio no quiero.

We never dated but we talked so fucking much, I stayed up until 4am talking to you. I fell for you and you just blocked me. That really broke me

God, this is embarrassing. We havent spoken since before you left but i feel like if i dont tell you this now then i never will, u know??? anyway i liked you. like really liked you, and i thought maybe there was a point you like me back??? And we kept skirting around the idea, but you made me feel so special and you made me laugh. I felt like i had to tell you lol, sorry if this was uncomfy haha ;/

You weren’t my first love only my first boyfriend I never loved you and the things you did to me affect me so much today I wish you knew how much I hated you and how much pain you caused me, I feel so guilty about all the things you did to me and how I stayed with you even though I didn’t even love you. I was just too scared to tell anyone what you tried to do. Black represents his numb you make me feel and how I feel sick to my stomach when I see you.

You saw me when nobody did. You talked to me when I needed it the most. Now you moved on and your gonna be a dad with your new girl.