i went to the police station this year to give a statement on how you sexually assaulted me in high school. sometimes i wish you knew how much better i have been without you or the consequences of your actions that still impact me everyday. you're not worth it. did you even realize what you did was wrong?

god i wish i could put into words how much i love you. every night i look back at our texts and sometimes i miss you texting me, even though that sounds super clingy, but it’s true. your hugs are the one thing that keeps me going, honestly right now you’re my life raft. i hope i never lose you. love you always

you said we should see each other but you have no idea how much i still love u and im not over you just like you are over me. i love you, be happy okay babyboy ?

it’s crazy it’s been a whole year since we last talked. i miss you a lot. i love you still. not like in a romantic way. because i’ve moved on. but you’re so important to me. we’ve known each other for years and to think you could just leave like that hurts. i still always think about you. and i hope you’re doing well honestly. we were both toxic but i wouldn’t have done it with anyone else. you’re the first boy i’ve ever loved. and i hope one day we can find our way to each other and talk. he friends

no matter how hard i try to move on, i find myself running right back every time. i’m sorry i couldn’t say this to you.

When we speak, I feel at home. I feel as though all of my problems have vanished. I love you, I always will. I’m waiting for you.

hey. i miss our friendship before everything happened. all that stuff was so long ago. i wish we could be friends again.

maybe in the next lifetime we can try again, but until then i'll watch you live your life from a distance. goodbye love

Nightmares? Sweet dreams? Or perhaps both?
I don’t know...
It seems
I just can’t stop dreaming of you.

i think maybe you loved me at one time, but eventually my love was too much for someone who doesn’t know what love is anymore.

even though you fucked me over.
and i’m with someone new.
all i want is to be with you.
forever and always.

Hi i really like you, but there are so many things stopping us, so many unsent msgs because I am scared to open up na and i just really would love to have a hug from you. Go home na:(

You want honesty ... but honestly I can’t tell you how I feel. I want to be with you every moment of my waking mind. I want to be beneath your arms cuddled in your warmth. I want YOU. And you don’t realize how much I do. I want you but I can’t pull myself to tell you how I really feel because I’m afraid. Afraid that I’ll let someone close to me, just for them to take a part of me with them. That’s why I’m so indecisive and emotional because I’m afraid to be hurt and I’m afraid to cry myself to sleep every night over someone who might break my heart and honestly I rather never loved than to be dying inside.

I loved you for years. You made me feel so whole after I was so broken. I loved you so much it broke me even more than I was before at the end of us. Your love consumed me so much it felt like I couldn’t function without you in my life. And I’ve tried to move on. We both have honestly. But it’s so hard when we end up coming back to each other. Everyone has the fairytale of ending up with their first “true love” and I should’ve known better. That rarely happens. Especially when you’re in love with a person who doesn’t even know how to deal with their own feelings because they’re too scared to deal with them. And I know mine was out of love and yours was out of lust. Sometimes I just think you loved my body more than me. And I guess that’s okay because I put myself in that position time and time again. But then it’s not because to you I was practically just a piece of cake to u for you to enjoy whenever you wanted to come back to me to enjoy. But I’m trying to move on. I blocked you on everything. But my heart cares more about your feelings than mine, so I unblocked you for the paranoia of you getting mad at me. I’m trying to move on and I pray I do. I never knew I could love someone so much as I did you. I hope you find someone to love as much as I loved you.

It’s scary and heartbreaking to think that I might never meet anyone as rare as you again. I knew from the start I’ll have to compete with your love of personal freedom. It’s a competition no one could ever win. I love you. You left me happy, sad and full of hope.

i look for you in everyone i meet. you made me feel like the most special person in the room. i was a moment in your life but you are a lifetime in mine.

i don’t know if what i felt for you was love, but it still hurts to this day. you acted like a child, and i wish i didn’t still think about you.

when you asked me to do the biz, i said no because i was scared. but when i look back at it, i think about doing it all the time with you and makes me wanna be with you. your also kinda hot lol but you have a gf ;( shes pretty but honestly im way better, like way better. idk why you would pick her. honestly a downgrade.

you were the first person to ever fully care about me. you made me feel special, and like i had significance. you still cross my mind often, i miss you all the time and i hope that you are doing good. you deserve the best that this world can offer.

I'm scared that we're going to fizzle away without ever being outlined.
You changed my whole understanding of how to be loved, let me learn how to show you the same.

I can't believe how fool I was to believe everything you said to me. And I can't forget and forgive you even now that's been three years.

I know I say I don't like you, I can't like you. But, I also can't stand the fact you won't even look at me in the eyes anymore, or that its as if you look right through me. You don't care as much as you did that one night. Oh boy, that one night. If I could take back one moment in my life it would be THAT night. You told me all these things that I have been wanting someone to tell me for so long. You told me to not like these other guys, to be careful around a specific one, but who knew that the one I should have been careful and to protect myself around was actually you. I don't know how I feel anymore, you told me that you made yourself forget about anything that had ever happened between us and that anything you ever said just wasn't important enough. You chose not to remember it, but as much as I try to do the same - I still do, and I guess that's what I will have to live with for the rest of my life.

i love you with all i've got. Why'd you always think bad about me? I would've never hurt you. I love you too much to hurt you luv.

i read our letters back, if you were able to let go of me that easily. i must have been the problem. im sorry

thanks for making me feel special and giving me a reason to wake up. sorry i was too scared to tell you i don't have hair

i thought i missed you, but i don’t.
stop posting things about our relationship on snap. stop texting my mom.

I wish I hadn't spent all four years of high school pretending to hate you. You literally one of the few things that made high school bearable, and sadly, you'll never know.

I hope Seattle works out for you! Long distance was tough and I wanted you here. But I couldn’t help but feel that I was holding you back, so I let you go.

it’s been a year, I still need closure. And even though you used me, you still made me the happiest I could ever be.

I never expected to love you, and if one day, 10 years from now, you said you loved me, I would leave everything for you.

i still love you. forever and always. i wish you can come back and tell me how much you miss me but i know you've moved on and probably trying with someone new but i hope in every person you see you try to find me. i miss you much. why did you leave? i needed john and you left in my darkest moments and i wish you didn't play with my emotions because i always stay up wondering if you're okay or if you need someone to talk to. i miss you. maybe you were my person but i wasn't yours. stay safe my love.

I never confessed to you but you were one of the first crushes who didn't think so weirdly of me. I remember that one time in class your friend tripped and for a second we both looked at each other and I felt my heart stop. Even though you never got to know me, and most likely never liked me, I still liked you and your plaid cardigans. Thank you for making me look forward to school every day and imissyou:)

I'd never say this to you because I don't know how. But I always get sad that someone had your love first. Or kissed you. I hate it. It makes me cry all the time. I don't know why it makes me sad and I don't know how to stop it, that annoys me. I need to forget about it and them but I can't, I just want you all to myself and I do have you all to myself. But you haven't always been just mine other people have had you, that's the worst part. I wish I never knew. The only time I don't think about it Is when I'm with you. So thankyou for taking my mind of it. I'll love you forever. I don't ever EVER want to loose you to other people, I hate other people I just want and need you. Ily.

all i ever asked for was your honesty, and you lacked it when it meant the most. i wish i trusted my gut and not you. you broke me, man.

And I used to think we'd be watching the stars, sneaking out and playing basketball by now. Too bad we don't speak anymore.

Maybe you weren't the one for me but i wish you were. i'm doing okay without you but i see you happy without me and i think maybe you're better off without me. ily stay safe my lover.

i think about u still and i know i shouldn’t but i just want to be talk again. it won’t ever happen tho ur too happy rn

it sucks that we broke up but im glad we are friends again. i hate that i still like you. things would be easier if i didn't.

john, im sorry we live so far away from each other, im sorry i dont call enough, im sorry im a bad friend. im trying. i miss you. i love you

I loved you..and you have never left my mind. I just wish I was good enough for you. Thanks for showing me what love is not..I’ll never forget those cold hands around my neck.

you remind me of this color. i hope some day soon im brave enough to talk to you bc i like you a lot but you barely know my name.

you're the main attraction everywhere u go. everybody wants u & i can tell ur loving the attention.

Man, you probably won't see this but I miss you and your hugs and talking to you. I'm sorry everything is so fucked.

Though we loved each other more than words could possibly describe. you were my right person wrong time.

I don’t miss you. I miss being able to convince myself that one day you could become the person I wanted you to be so badly.

I love you endlessly and for no reason at all, and I hate you for the pain you are causing me. Every morning you're my first thought, but it has become apparent that I'm not yours.

this probably my 5th one and i just wish i could actually text you. it's been 2 years and i still can't move on and maybe i should and try and just be happy but i can't. i always tell people i moved on from you but truth is i haven't and they say "i'm happy for you" but truth is i just want you here with me. it sucks so much because i know you are probably thinking about someone the way i think of you about someone else. i cant let you go yet. maybe you're my person but i'm not yours. i always listen the playlist you made me and i think about our little moments or the little dates we would go on but truth you're my happiness but i'm not yours. i wish you can text me and tell me how much you miss me and how much you made mistake leaving me but you probably have no regrets. maybe right now you're smiling at someone's text while i'm crying while typing this. i just don't understand how you let me go so easy. was i not enough? was i not pretty enough? tell me. i need closure but i hope one day you look back and you say "she was the one" ugh its so hard but i know God has plan for us but maybe you were just chapter in my life but i can't turn the page because you're my favorite part. k

I love you more than anyone ever had but it wasn't enough ?

You said you have our whole life together planned out, I hope you never leave.

Do you feel it too?