Unsent messages to JACOB

I saw you in class yesterday and all the butterflies, happiness, memories came shooting at me. I know you didn’t feel the same because you didn’t even look at me the whole class, I wonder how I can be so in love with you even though I haven’t talked, like actually had a decent conversation since the beginning of seventh grade. You’ve changed a lot but one thing that hasn’t since day one is that you’re still happy, which makes me happy knowing you’re ok and living the life I want for you. You’ll probably never see this but I want you to know that I love you a lot and I talk to go’s about you like you put stars in the sky. I miss you and your family a lot, I miss seeing your mom everyday and I miss getting to talk to you each day. I believe we will be together again but just not right now, Ik you don’t feel the same as I do but I believe we’re meant to be and you’ll find your way back to me eventually. Whether it’s in this life or not. I guess I’ll see you in class Monday, love you-❤️

i am so scared of seeming clingy, but I just miss you so much so I want to text/facetime with you. please come home

You still visit me in my sleep. Can you stop that maybe? I’ve grown so much and changed. Remembered my soul. I’m sorry you won’t ever get to see it. Wish you the best always

congrats. you were the first guy to see my p*ssy. that is super fun. even if you begged and begged until i agreed. also why tf did you call me mommy bro?

I miss you so much, I miss the old Jacob, the one I used to be best friends with and love talking to everyday, the one that sat next to me on the bus every single day, the one I went to football games with, the one who’s mom loved seeing me because she knew I’d always have your back, the one that texted me every morning to see if I’d be in school because you knew I got sick a lot, the one that stayed on FaceTime with me for hours helping me with homework, the one that always defended me in fights, the one I loved so badly that when I wasn’t around you my heart physically ached. But I guess I lost that Jacob a long time ago, I still love you with my whole hearth even though you aren’t the same, I knew you’d change eventually but I didn’t think you’d become like this, you became the kid that if the less popular person was walking in the hall you’d trip them, you’re two faced, mean, a horrible person that I still love and won’t stop loving till the day I die. All I’m saying is you’ve changed Jacob, and not for the good, I really hope you realize before it’s too late that everyone misses the old Jacob, the sweet, kind, helpful, considerate, respectful, Jacob I know and love. You’ll probably never see this and probably won’t even realize who it is writing this but I miss you and really want you back in my life. Every night I prayed to god that you’d stay in my life for good for once and every time, you found a way to back out and leave me shattered every time. It seems like once I finally get over the heart break you cause, you come back and cause another one. I don’t know why I’m so attached to you, I should realize by now that you aren’t good for me but you’re like my drug, the one I can’t stop taking, the one that eases my pain, the one that makes me feel whole, the one that shines light on all my rainy days, the one that makes me think true love is real. I truly do think we’re soulmates and we belong together because both of us bring out the best in each other. I love you and can’t wait to see you in school again. I love you Jacob-a kid you’ll probably never talk to again

you might hate me right now and i understand. but just know i loved you first and i still miss you. come back soon.

I don’t know how you were able to hurt me so bad and not care. I used to miss you every day, but I’m done missing you because I realized that if you truly valued our friendship you wouldn’t have done what you did. So I’m done.

i hope cheating on me was worth it. i’m now everything you wish you could’ve been. and i didn’t need you to help me do it.

i don't know how to feel about you because you make me happy in ways others couldn't but yet i feel like it is wrong to love you ...

i wish i could thank you for all you’ve done for me, but i don’t even know where to begin :( I love you and i never want to lose you. i hope one day I can be as helpful to you as you have been to me. Thank you for saving my life

Idk if you ever actually loved me after what you did. Are you capable of love, all you do is manipulate and cheat.

We could have been forever, I wish you never laid a finger on me. I still love you and that’s what hurts the most.

you really picked her over me. we were forever, you threw 3 years away. I gave you everything, just for you to throw it back in my face.

I think I love you and I've never loved anyone before but we've never met and I'm scared we never will

i like u but i know u dont feel the same way :( u keep picking everyone else who doesnt love u, im right here?

I will never be able to un-feel the passion and love that you brought to my life, and I never want to. I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with you.

i wish we’d had more time, i still love you. the imprint of you still weighs heavily on me in moments of emptiness.

i am truly happy we both see the same thing. :) that’s all I ever wanted. I’m happily moved on and found my person. I hope you do too. ?

your toxic & you hurt me yet i still love you the same after a year of seeing you completely fine without me.

You really manipulate me,I'm so confuse right now but I can't hate you because I really love you that much,instead of hate,I feel pain and I hate it.

I know you like me. Let’s set the record straight. I love you. You make me laugh so hard, and make me feel like the luckiest girl in the world ❤️

I wish you never left me at the dance and I wish I could get over you after 2 years since I last saw you

You took everything I had to give and then had the audacity to ask for more. I'll never forgive you for that.

i thought i could trust you and come to you w all my problems but when i was having a panic attack and came to you, you couldn't put aside the fact we had a fight. i hate you

I fell in love with you but the feeling wasn’t mutual. It hurts because I still love you even though you’re with someone else.

you’re the second boy i’ve ever loved. we met in art class and u were the cool sophomore i sat next to and we slowly became friends and you’d pull my stool closer to urs but i thought u were just joking around. and i liked u so much but u were attractive and older and i was not cute at the time lol. but u texted me before finals and told me how u felt and i felt the same and we were supposed to be something but we never were and now we don’t talk. i miss you. ik ur dating some other girl now and ur political views r garbage but i still care. i still love you and i’m afraid i always will.

you haven’t talked to me in months but i still wonder what it would be like if we were together again

I begged you to change and you couldn't...So I had to leave...But I still love you ,I think I always will

my intentions have never been to hurt you. i had to remove myself to find happiness again & if that makes you miserable i am not sorry. i never went out of my way to hurt you, have always been kind, and there for you quite literally every time you asked. my happiness has nothing to do with your sadness. i will forever and always wish you the best: just not me. no hate. no love.

the hate i have for you is out of this world because of what you did to me, but you I will never forget the way you made me feel as my first love.