Unsent messages to GABE
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: November 20, 2020, 6:43 pm UTC
I'm sorry, I was just a kid back then. I know why you left me, because you knew didn't you? I'm sorry. We will meet again one day.
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: November 20, 2020, 8:33 am UTC
It was a one time thing, but I’ve never felt like that with anyone else. I miss that feeling. I miss you, and I hate that.
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: November 20, 2020, 6:39 am UTC
i really just wanna know if you used me. you kinda just up and left with no explanation, yet you say you liked me, that i made you happy. i remember taking a nap with you the second time we hung out. i think that that was when i realized this is it for a bit. i met your freaking family, and you still did all this. just give me a straight up about why you went and left like that. all i want is an explanation.
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: November 20, 2020, 5:52 am UTC
I miss you and the way you made me feel, even after all the years. I shouldn’t have been so afraid back then.
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: November 20, 2020, 4:02 am UTC
there are thousands of people out there just like you, but i cant get you off my mind. i knew deep down you didn't care about me when you stopped snapping back. i should've given up then but i kept pushing and you got mad. i should never have gotten her involved. i guess you don't care about me. i don't know why i care so much about you, we were never together. i think i was in love with what could've been, but even if you let me back into your life it wouldn't be the same. fuck. i can't believe i fucked up so bad. am i just not good enough for you? will you give me a chance to just talk to you? or is it too late? everyone told me you were toxic but i ignored them. god im so fucking stupid.
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: November 20, 2020, 1:25 am UTC
I know I annoy you now but you lost someone who would have given you the absolute world and more and for that fuck you
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: November 19, 2020, 2:27 am UTC
ik we all joke that youre Tall Gabe but everyone knows youre so much more thant your height because youre just a super sweet guy that cares about all of his friends equally and thats kind of exactly how i want to be too :) i know youll treat ham right and i look forward to getting closer with you too
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: November 19, 2020, 1:23 am UTC
You’re a great dude, good looking, charming, tall, physically strong, one of my favourite people, good taste in like everything, you’re every girls dream guy. Love you man. - I wonder who... hmmmmm
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: November 19, 2020, 1:05 am UTC
I shouldn't have done that with you the other night. You don't even care about me. That was special to us and you never even texted me.
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: November 18, 2020, 9:45 pm UTC
We have been talking a lot more and i have feelings for you again, i just thought you needed to know. If you don't feel the same I'm fine with that, we can just stay friends if u want.
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: November 18, 2020, 9:33 pm UTC
do you still play our song on the piano? do you think of us? i played it last night. all i could think about was how you taught me how to play it, and when i finally got it, you kissed me and asked me to be yours. now i sit in the dark and play alone crying.
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: November 18, 2020, 4:59 pm UTC
It’s been a month and I miss you but I’m scared that if we try again It won’t work out and I’ll get hurt again.
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: November 18, 2020, 4:08 pm UTC
I miss you so much and I don’t understand why you had to move away we were just starting to become closer and you just left without even telling me you were leaving and I haven’t talked to you sense so please just text me back
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: November 18, 2020, 3:59 pm UTC
hey. so I umm... I'm kinda in love with you. it's weird bc i think abt getting married to you and how we would live together. idk what ut is abt you. i'm just in love with you...sorry
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: November 18, 2020, 3:49 pm UTC
I was finally able to move on after you left me. it took 6 months. Im so happy with who im currently with.
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: November 18, 2020, 7:07 am UTC
i miss you so much. i wish you would know that i have liked you for a year now. it’s hard without you most of the time. i’m glad you’re happy.
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: November 18, 2020, 5:14 am UTC
i fell in love with you. and that’s the problem, i shouldn’t have. i constantly told myself that i was going to get hurt, or worse, hurt you. and i hope i never hurt you. you deserve so much better than what you get and its selfish of me to think we were always going to love each other, or even be friends, because that’s all we were. i mean shit we’ve never even met. but i fell in love with you, and not even your looks even though you are perfect. literally. i fell in love w you, and how you acted.i don’t know, maybe i don’t even know what love is, maybe you don’t love me back or never did. but i do know that you changed me, for good, even though i cant talk to a guy without constantly comparing him to you. i know you don’t feel the same way and you think i’m just another girl, and i’ve come to terms with that, and i’m perfectly fine with it, because you aren’t obligated to feel that way about me. i love you, even thought we have tons of loves in a lifetime, i’ll remember you. When you make it to seattle, i’ll make sure to show you around
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: November 17, 2020, 7:26 pm UTC
I miss you alot. I hate that things have changed. I will always love you and im sorry if i ever hurt you.
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: November 17, 2020, 12:36 pm UTC
Hey. How are you? I hope you’re doing good. Do you remember 5th grade? And 6th? I hope we can still be friends.
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: November 16, 2020, 7:17 pm UTC
im sorry. the reason I walked away was that I truly did care about you and I didnt want you to get hurt later. I hope one day our paths may cross again but in the meantime- I will never forget how well you treated me and how much I miss you.
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: November 11, 2020, 1:10 am UTC
I’m not sure if I actually loved you, but you were special. I’ll always deny it but really, thank you. I’m sorry I was never enough. But, your friend though..
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: November 10, 2020, 1:48 am UTC
As much as i loved talking to you, i think it would be better if we never did considering all the pain i caused.
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: November 9, 2020, 1:31 am UTC
i'm so sorry. i never should have ended it. i know you're happy with her but i never moved on. i still dream about marrying you and im missing you like hell right now. i love you so much. so much gabe.
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: October 24, 2020, 2:12 am UTC
I have so much love for you even though you've done a million shitty things. It could've all been prevented if you'd just sat back and accepted love for one single moment. I feel bad that you can't, and angry that you never will. But I won't stop sending you that love in whatever glib little ways I can... whether you deserve it or not.
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: October 23, 2020, 2:22 pm UTC
Not every experience is meant to last forever, and I’m so happy you didn’t. You never even said sorry.
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: October 22, 2020, 1:42 am UTC
hello i miss you i wish we could've met but im dead now rip btw okay hye gabe i kove yi]o]] okay also [[][-]-------------
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: October 20, 2020, 3:38 am UTC
Hell started when I stopped seeing you in my dreams. What happened to the old you? He wouldn't have hit me.
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: October 19, 2020, 11:49 pm UTC
i loved you, still do, will always. i tried so hard, we both made mistakes but i thought we would always work things out, i wasnt good enough, all i wanted was to feel wanted, i wanted to feel like you wanted to talk to me, now you ignore me and treat other girls better than i thought you could ever treat me, the amount of chances i gave you shows how much i wanted us to work, to last. you used me, destroyed my self confidence and made me hate everything about myself, yet i would still take you back with no hesitation, why am i not enough, was i ever enough? love, liv
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: October 18, 2020, 8:23 am UTC
I feel empty without you.
But I know you weren’t good for me, so I’m trying to let go, and that is okay.
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: October 11, 2020, 9:13 am UTC
i love you. i love you more than i've ever loved anyone. i care about you more than anything. i doubt you'll ever see this but if you do, you're my one and only. i really hope we work out. i've never wanted it to work out with anyone more.
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: October 11, 2020, 5:38 am UTC
i really appreciate you trying to fix everything but why did you really block me you told me it couldn’t be fixed by why please just why
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: October 8, 2020, 4:00 pm UTC
I miss you so much. I don’t know what I did to make you leave, but whatever it was I’m sorry, I just wish you would have said goodbye. Sometimes I look at pictures of you or a video of us laughing and I smile and laugh, but then I realize you left, and the smile fades, and I break down. I know people say you were a bad person, and not worth my tears, but I knew a part of you that no one else got to know. Thank you for making me feel like I could open up, and thank you for being the best friend anyone could ever ask for. I really do hope your happy. I love you.
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: October 7, 2020, 1:34 pm UTC
I miss you, I can’t explain why I cared so much about you but I do. I know you’ve moved on but I love you and you’ll always have a place in my heart. Iv tried to forget you but I can’t.
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: October 3, 2020, 5:42 pm UTC
Gabe, I miss you. Ever since we stopped talking, I think about you daily. It’s hard having to carry on missing my best friend. I hope one day we can be friends again. You’ll always have a space in my heart?
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: October 3, 2020, 4:29 am UTC
I never thought i would recover from the pain you put me through. But because of that pain i ama stronger woman. I know i deserve better then you and i am determined to prove that you might have broke me but i can put my self back together.
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: October 3, 2020, 2:27 am UTC
i’ve never loved anyone the same way i love you. the only thing i want is to be yours. i just want to be yours
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: October 3, 2020, 2:13 am UTC
i know you will never see this, you don’t know what this even is, but i love you and why did i think that we could be a thing, i still think we can i love you so much but you will never like me
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: September 30, 2020, 3:46 am UTC
i forgot about your birthday. maybe that’s a good thing tho. the excuse to text u is no longer.
hope ur doin ok.
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: September 29, 2020, 2:45 am UTC
I love you stinker and I pray your genuinely doing good.I hope you find the happiness you deserve soon .Im so proud of you bubba,I miss you more than ever and i’m praying that when you come back we can be together,your so hard headed and i don’t mind it but i just wish you could see how bad i want to be with you i wish you could tell me how you feel i’m getting mixed signals .You told me you loved me and i was so happy you make me so happy and it makes me sad to know your not in the best place in your life.The nights i spent with you were the best sleeping next to you waking up next to you kissing you hugging you i wouldn’t have wanted it any other way.I know we found each other the way we did for a reason.You have such a genuine heart and if we don’t end up together I pray that you end up with a girl that’s gonna treat you like no other,you deserve the world baby and i’m just hoping i can give it to you i always wish you the best bebe
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: September 27, 2020, 4:37 am UTC
looking through our pictures to help me sleep again, no matter what happens i’ll always be dreaming of you
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: September 26, 2020, 3:22 pm UTC
Your words keep replaying in my mind the way the waves never stop crashing onto the shore. And I’m drowning.
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: September 26, 2020, 3:20 pm UTC
Didn’t you know that I needed you? How could you leave like that when you were the only thing holding me together?
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: September 26, 2020, 3:12 pm UTC
You didn’t even ask if I was okay to drive home. But no matter how hard I wished, I was alone on the road
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: September 26, 2020, 3:06 pm UTC
It’s the third day in a row that I’ve woken up without a good morning text from you and I can’t stand it happening one more time
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: September 26, 2020, 3:05 pm UTC
I can’t do this without you. Every time I try to calm down I hear you telling me to take a deep breath. But you’re not here anymore
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: September 26, 2020, 3:03 pm UTC
I would give anything to be able to talk to you, to have one last hug. We used to talk every day and now it’s all just gone
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: September 25, 2020, 2:55 pm UTC
I told you that I would risk heartbreak over and over again for you and it wasn’t enough. You still left and now every piece of me is lost. I’m broken without you
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: September 25, 2020, 2:50 pm UTC
I told you that I would risk heartbreak over and over again for you and it wasn’t enough. You still left and now every piece of me is lost. I’m broken without you
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: September 24, 2020, 2:29 pm UTC
i miss you all the time. i don’t know why, if i’m being honest. i know that for a while, you were a great boyfriend, but in the end, when it mattered, you left me. and i know you’re happy in college and with your new girlfriend, and i’m happy you’re happy. i just wish it was with me. i know you thought we were too different and didn’t mesh, but i thought we’re wonderful. you were calm and stable and balanced me out wonderfully. although, now that i’m writing this, i’m wondering if things would’ve have eventually ended between us even if corona had never happened. i’ve been blaming corona for pulling us apart, and i’ve been wondering what would have happened with us if the virus had never shown up, but now i’m remembering in the week before we started quarantining that i wasn’t exactly happy. i don’t know if we were just having a bad week or what, but maybe we wouldn’t have lasted under normal circumstances. i still miss you though. i miss going on adventures and weekly trips to the gym, then cookout, and then driving the Jeep into the forest and listening to music. i miss lying in bed with my head against your chest. i miss having you stare at me with that look in your eyes for no reason at all. sometimes i wonder if you ever loved me, and then i remember moments like those. you were my first love, so maybe i’ll always love you in a way. but i think i’m finally learning to let go. at least i hope i am. because i don’t know how much longer i’m going to be able to think about you all day. i need to get you out of my head.
From: ABC
To: gabe
Date: September 24, 2020, 4:31 am UTC
hi lovie, i’m finally letting u go, you’ve been so good to me and i’m sorry we wanted different things, hopefully it’ll work out in the future like you hoped it would, i couldn’t stay and watch you fall out of love with me, mostly bc i’m still not done falling in love with you. plz come back to me someday, i’m always just one call away, i wish things had been different, you’ll still always be worth the risk, i love you forever and always loser
